I got my Prelim results a few days ago. Actually, I'm quite satisfied with the results that I have obtain. Alright, I got 23 for my L1R4... 31 for my L1R5... Too bad, I cant go for C! as I have 31 for L1R5...Damn... Even though I did quite alright, I want to achieve better results. yeah, it's quite good already. However, the reults are not realistic. How come I get my source-base a score of 23 out of 25.... What the...??!!! Haix... There is still one more month to the real examinations. I'm abit worried that there isn't much time to buck up. Worst of all, I dont know how to start my revision. Even if i know, I need to be strategic. I need to choose the right topics to study... Haix... Dont want to think too much now...

Yesterday was the last time the classwas having PE. It was definitely a day that I will remember. We had free games on that day and we chose to play soccer. however, the courts were occupied by the younger students. Anyway, we have no choice but to play in the field. I was reluctent to go to the field at first as it was too muddy. I prefer to be clean rather than dirty. I do not have extra clothes to change, that's why I hate to be in the field, unless its not muddy at all. Anyway, back to the match. We were losing 1-0 at first. The main reason was simple. We had 10 people while our opponents have a total of 15... approximately... Okay...I did try to play my best role in the field. in the end, we won 6-4. Its an interesting match as we fought all the way, like a crazy people fighting for the ball.... haha...

Well, i'm to tired to contnue... Thats all for today... Bye...

I'm not feeling that well right now... Really... I'm having some stomachcache. I really dont know why... amybe it's because i drank too much Pepsi before my soccer game. I'm getting quite exhausted today. even though I have been staying at home for nearly the whole day, I'm still feeling exhausted. I need to teach Clarissa and Pei Xin on History. Even though I'm not that good in that Hitler topic, I just try to help them, with Jimmy helping me as well. Thanks alot Jimmy, for your contribution in teaching them. I really dont kno what to do ithout you helping me. Thanks alot pal...

Anyway, back to the soccer issue. I got to play a few matches today. At the beginning, I'm still on form. Howveer, when I realise that the ache is killing me, I lost the momenteum. I became more weak and tired, I do not have the energy to continue running. However, I did try to complete my job, scoring two goals during the match, of course in an offside position( in street soccer games, there is no offside, that is why I will be counted as offside if I'm playing in the field). I have a lot of chances but it's plenty of misses. Gosh! What the hack was I doing??!!! I keep asking myself this question, why I cant break through the defence?? It's getting abit sick and tiring when you cant score goals for your team, espcially when you are losing 3-1... Anyway, the team won 5-4, not bad, thanks to the late strike from Sion. I just have to go through injuires and tackles, that realy hurts my leg and butt, luckily it's not the tailbone area (I hurt it when I was in Sec 3, thanks to my dear friend who slammed me onto the hard concreate floor, causing it to crack. It really affcets my walking, running and playing for the next 3 months or so...).

I just get to fire up when I wasnt having any aches, scoring a hat-trick on the 2nd game, where it's a 3 vs 3 match. I was teaming up with Eugene only in a three on 2 match. It's interesting by putting the ball int the post of Gavin's, aka our class Paul Robinson. The frst goal was the technique I learnt from Eugene, where you volleyed the ball when the ball is not touching the ground. It's very cool!! You strike it with your foot and watch the ball move to the post and the next sound you heard from your own mouth is, 'GOAL!!' Yeah. It hit the corner of the left post. Cool!! Amazing!! What a shot!!!

I just realy dont know why I'm so crazy about playing soccer. The main reason for it is probably my love towards the club, Manchester United. Even though before my official support of the club, the club was winning everything. However, I learnt that my intention of playing soccer is not to show my support on soccer but the wish of playing for my favourite club and score goals, millions of goals for them. I know it's impossible but the passion is there... The dream is still alive... I dont really know what is the true feeling of winning a cup or trophy but the best thing is that you feel happy when the team is winning, whether its you who score the goal or other teammates... The feeling is very good!!! More refreshing!!!

That's all for today.. I just quicky tuck into my cosy bed now for my deams to come true... mentally... haha.... Good night dudes...

Hey Jacq... this is the song that i have compose... Sorry... As this is the han yu ping ying... I will pass you the Chinese words in school as soon as possible. Hope you will like the lyrics... I dont know whether its okay or not... hehe...

Song: Feng Shou

Verse
feng shou hou de na ji ye wo gen ben shui bu zhao
shi bu shi hai wang bu liao
na zui nan wang de zheng chao

wo xi wang wo de si nian ni neng gou gan shou dao
gan jue wo shang tong he jian ao
wo zi ji ye shou bu liao


Verse 2
pan wang zhe ni de yong bao zai fang mang de jie shang
huan xiang zhe qian ni de shou kan piao liang de hai yang


Chorus
wo kun zai ji mo de shi jie
wan mei de ai qing bei hui mie
wei shen mo shi jian guo de na me kuai bu neng zhui xun chong qian

wo bu ren xin gen ni li bie
yin wei wo ai ni shi zhen que
wo hui deng dai na tian ni zai hui dao wo shen bian


Verse 2


Chorus x2


zhu yao de yuan ying shi wo ai ni dao yong yuan


English meaning of the song...

I cant sleep since the day we broke up
Was it the unforgetable quarrel that causes it

I hope you feel the hardships that I've been through while missing you
Feel the pain and suffering that I've been through
which is totally inbearable

I hope to feel the hug while walking in this busy street
and remember the time we're at the beach, where we are still together as one

I'm stuck in this lonely world
A perfect relationship has ended
Why time flies so quickly that it couldnt be turned around again

I do not dare to bid farewell to you
As my love to you is real
I hope the day would come, where you will be back with me again

The reason for all this is because I love you always

Prelims have gone... finally!!! For the past two weeks or so, it has been a boring week. Study, study, study... Sometimes I start to get sick with all the work in school. Anyway, I did get plenty of rest during the breaks, so I'm going to do my best in my 'O' levels, going to buck up on my weaker subjects...

These few days is quite fun... The last few papers for Prelims... After each paper, we will play soccer to release the stress in us. Furthermore, there are alot of people at the school court. On the first day, there are 18 people playing. Well, even though that is quite alot, it wasn't fun enough. We are seperated into different teams, and we are playing under the hot Sun. it wasnt fun as some of us got sunburn. However, the second day is better. There are 22 people. That is what I really wanted. 22 people!!! A field!!! A soccer match!!! COOL!!! But the event didnt take place. We played the same thing; different teams. this time, I feel much better in the squad. The people are familiar faces and we keep winning matches. That is definitely cool and interesting, winning Alex's team and Fairus's team, as well as Gavin's.

These few days have been abit torture for me. I dont know why. I just cant forget a person. Thatperson, maybe, she just occupied my heart, part of it. When I see her online, I feel like talking to her. However, I fear that she still detest me. I'm not her guy and I shouldn't interfere her problems. I wanted to help, be her guide ineverything, be her pillar if she needs one... but it's impossible. Maybe it's fate that makes us to be friends and enemies... sort of... Nowadays, whenever i saw her, I feel like saying 'Hi' to her but my courage wasn't there. I'm just another cowward, afraid of facing her... Gosh!!! Am I a coward???!!! I mean... I dare to do anything... any challenges... but not this??!!

I really dont understand gals nowadays... Strange behaviour... Strange attitude towards boys...???!!! Maybe... Am I deeply in love with the person I like or am I just... tinking too much??? I dare not think too much since the 'O' Levels are coming. I just want to tell her if she is willing to give me a chance... Nah!!! Forget it.... I dont think so she is willing to give me a chance... even with that slighty 1%... I just need to do something interesting to forget her. I know I will face her if I'm back for Band but I will just treat her, as a friend... Only a friend??? maybe... I dont know....

Yesterday was a great day... Well, I get to perfrom at the stage in Chong Pang. The event was to celebrate the Moon Cake Festival. Although its not my first time going up to the stage and sing my hearts out, its been a long time I have go up a stage. If not wrong, the last time I got up a stage in Chong Pang was a few months ago... Maybe 4 or 5 months.. At least....

As a singer, I still have stage fright... Strange right??? I suppose to go up to stage and sing. Furthermore, I have the exeprience of singing in stage. However, i still got stage frights... Weird... I was singing Lin Jun Jie's song last night, 'Jing Ling' aka Elf. The song is about love... but its more about waiting for someone's love. Yeah... Something like that.. haha... Well, its not bad ater all... My singing was so-so... That's how I grade it, after listening it through the recorder... I think my juniors are better than me. Why? I find them to have the talent and they did master it well. I have not attend the singing lesson for nearly 8 months. So, I'm obviously the weak one among the rest.

Anyway, yesterday's song was alright. Even though I thought that i have gone out of key (wrong pitching) but it was still acceptable. I really enjoy singing after all. The influence from the media, programs such as 'Project Superstar' and 'Singapore Idol' has tell me that in Singapore, there are alot of professional singers. While for me, I'm still the weak ones. To be a good, or probably the best singer, I must start practising. So, I wont give up the passion I have, or supposingly, my hobby. Haha...

After the singing, I went to Sembawang to meet the rest for playing candles. Well, we did played on Staurday but heard that there will be more people turning up yesterday, so I came. there were only 11 people, unlike Saturday, about 22... Haix... But it was fun after all, especially on Saturday. I really enjoyed it as Qin Xing, Sion, Bo Shen, Yun Ting and Chris were there. its been a long time since wechat.. well, quite long... hehe.... But its happy to see their faces again... Well, we played till 11 plus then went back home, quite exhausted after the singing and the candle palying... After that still got soccer.... hehe....

I played soccer with Jack, until 1.10am. Even though i'm tired, we played against two boys from Woodgrove Secondary... I think so... haha... But they were quite good. I cant tackle their ball very well but I did try to stop their shots. Jack do the scoring while I support him. It was a nice match as they dribbled past us, causing alot of trouble in our defense. However, they do not have the speed that we have. Our mentality was 'Faster! Faster! Faster!!!' while their's was 'Dribble! Dribble! Dribble!!!' anyway, we did have our abilities. I scored about 5 while Jack about 9.... Most of my shots are quite funny. For instance, the ball hits the pole and into the post. Haha... It was cool but nice!!! definitely...

It's been a long time since I blog here... haha... Nowadays, I have been busy with the Prelims. Today, I have just finish my History and F&N papers. Furthermore, I did not do that well as I have difficulties answering the questions. It's gonna be doomsday for me... Haix... Tomorrow will be the Maths paper 2, where I have not study yet. Maybe tomorrow morning I will start studying... haha...

Yesterday was a terrible day too, not me but someone else... taht poor Sec 4T guy, who was knocked down by a 'Nissan' car. The impact of that knock was so great that the person flung a few metres and was bleeding profusely. Harlinie claimed that that guy was knocked down as he wanted to catch the bus at the opposite bus stop. Anyway, she saw the whole thing, so it really seemed to shock her. that guy should be in the hospital resting now. I really hope he will get well soon. With some head injuries, some of the people in school are worried that something will happen to his mentality. His injuries seem to be so serious that no one knows whether he will be 100% alright. Anyway, may God bless him... To be save and sound...

Just looking at this incident, I really understand what is the worst thing in life, that is to regret if you hav to leave to another world. You wil not be ready to tell your family members, friends and other people about how you feel about them. Worst of all, there are some unfinish business that you have to settle in life. This refers to your goals in life. For me, I really hope to be a good soccer player, hope to be a good person that can help everyone if they need help, hope to be a good singer in the music industry... Many many things, dreams and other stuff... You will be feeling regretful for not accomplishing these things in life. Thus, learn to live happily at all times. even though there are many difficulties in life, learn to stay happy at the brighter side.

Since life needs to let go some of the things in order to stay happy, I have did it. I did try to convince myself in letting go of someone but it's quite hard sometmes. i will keep trying, so as to stay content with what i currently have, as well as not hurting other's feelings. This is very improtant as its easy to hurt someone but its hard to get back that person's trust. i better think of something to ease myself from these problems, maybe composing another song... haha... oh yeah, Jacq (Chris friend), I have complete the lyrics for the song. I hope you will like it as I'm not sure whether its meaningful or not or whether it relates to your story... Anyway, I hope that you will always stay happy at all times... Remember... learn t relax.... hehe.... Thats all for today!!! Too tired to continue....

Well, just woke up from my afternoon nap... Well, I really want to admit that I enjoy myself on yesterday's Sentosa trip. Thanks to Jacq a dgang... yesterday was Jacq's (Chris Friend) birthday. Well, I was having lesson at Macdonalds during the morning. I arrived late, quite.... I missed the cake cutting section. However, I can see the ret of the people having fun after all. Haha....

Well, I got to swim at the sea. As normal, the waters is salty and there is alot of algae. we swimmed for nearly 2 hours or so. I myself was quite tired too. Swimming from one place to another... hehe... I have to guide Jacq, who is a eak swimmer. Yeah... I really agree to that. She keeps on screaming when she thinks taht she has difficutly. Well, Jacq, relax... just keep on paddling, no matter what happens. By doing so, you will not sink into the water. well, Chris is also cool too. Even though she is a weak swimmer, she still knows how to stay calm. I think yesterday it was a bit troublesome. Ivy and I need to guide Jacq and Chris to the other side of the land. Haha... Anyway, i really enjoy myself.

By the way, thanks Jacq, for inviting me to that party... hehe... Hope your dreams will come true, as always. Most of all, stay happy!!!

This week is not a good week for me... Everything is all 'boo-boo' situation. Why do i say that... Well, firstly on monday, I failed my Prelims. The practical examination was a failure. I cant guess the correct substance of the chemical. Even though I know how to do the Physics part, Chemistry part was a total rubbish. After that, I was totally in bad mood. I went to chat with Clarence and watched the whole audtition. Aliright, the audition sucks to the core. I really agree!! They didnt create music but noise. I really mean it NOISE!! Kelvin's 'Boulevard Of Broken Dreams' was a great failure. Seriously talking, he really sang at the wrong pitch. Maybe he was too nervous, thats why. At least he was not as noisy as the rest of the Malay Bands. Anyway.. Huzaimi's band is much better.... Nice song dude!!! hehe...

On Tuesday, there starts my most sucky day, probably the worst day of my life. I came for Ms lee's lessona nd she started to pick on me. First on the Comprehension. i'm not doing the method she wants. more problems start to occur when she asked me what was I doing on monday afternoon. I told her the truth, she seeems to be more mad. That was not the end of Ms Lee's dictatorship. After the lesson, I wanted to go to the canteen to have my Breakfast. She stopped me and asked me where i'm going. Once again, I told her the truth and she reprimanded me AGAIN!! When she told me not to come for the next day, she walked off. I getting piss off. Most of all, I did cry out. Really dont know why... Maybe I cant stand her way after under her 5 years of teaching. Great!!! Anyway, I jsut did my work and that was a terrible day for me. i still bought her Teacher's Day present... What the hack am I doing.. Haix...

Alright, now its Wednesday... i get to carry Ms Lee's 24 cans of Coca Cola.... Crazy right... I hate her yesterday, help her today... that's toally crap man!!! At least i still enjoy the concert that day. Howver, when i got home, she added me on my MSN.... haix... more trouble to come... She said thats he felt like punching me... Crap... As if I wasn't that mad on that day.. Haix.. Anyway, I dont feel the hatred on that day. Thanks to Jacq, Ivy, Chris and Clarence... Thabks to them, accompany me, making me feel much better... haha.... Thanks guys...

Thursday was another bad day. We been playing soccer under the void deck and we are caught by the Police... AGAIN!!! we havent touch that place for merely 3 months... And this is the first day we played at there since that previous 3 months. Never mind, we been caught and a dance troupe wnated to use our place for dancing??!!! Great... Our opponents kept on ramming the ball... What the hack is wrong with these people??? It's just a riendly match... Not a qualifier of the World Cup...!!! Anyway, our names are ot taken down by the police, who talks the same crap to us... Again and again... Making me feel so piss off with them, spoiling my day.

Friday was bad.... Or maybe, not bad... Ms Lee didnt scold but she talks lots of crap to me... i was late for lesson and i had to help her buy breakfast... haha.. Anyway, there was less scolding... hehe... Most of all, I did enjoy the day with Jacq and my god-sister, Rosena... hehe... They really help me relief my stress in school... hehe.... Nothing special on Friday but I got to go to Yong Hong's house and sing out loud. I have decided to sing the song, 'jing Ling', also known as Elf... Thissong is by JJ Lin... hehe... I'm going to sing it on the next erformances... Hope its alright... hehe...

Well, got to go now, let's hope everything will be fine on next week.. hehe...