School has been hectic these days as the list of assignments piled up in such tight schedules. I could be struggling with the project deadlines this week and coping with tests on the following week.

I sometimes felt that the workload that I’m doing at present caused me to have lesser time spent with my loved ones, with the things I enjoyed and goals I wish to attain. For instance, my choir practices with Singthesis had been neglected as I had too many commitments. I love singing but commitments prevent me from doing so. I guess the next commitment that will be dropped out of my lifestyle would be helping out Damien at the diving meets. =/

On the other hand, the inclusion of studies has been a fruitful experience for me lately. Imagine, every day is a learning journey, which you learn a lot of things, from life-changing skills to reality-check facts. All these information has made me to be a… knowledgeable person I guess.

Of course, the learning journey never stops when you stopped schooling. I admit that I’m learning my school modules in collaboration with time management. Other than work-related, I had social-related issues to learn. My relationship with Shu Yun had been ups and downs though we don’t show much to others. I know how she feels but the inner self of me are showing vice versa actions.

I did neglect her feelings lately but I hope I would still try my best to do what it takes to be her best man. However, what lies ahead in the future is still an unknown. Probably, all I had to do is do the right things, and doing things right, one at a time like baby steps, to improve the situations or enjoying the happy moments that I missed.

The future – a black hole that hangs its existent in the Universe; no one knows what it is or what lies in it. Yet its acts like a suction that brings no return to the present.

Gosh... What am I crapping when I had lack of sleep. Nonsensical thoughts of mine.

Some call it an "enrichment", some classified it as a "burden", a few even mentioned it is an "investment" too.

I define it as a necessity. Yes, what I was referring about was studies. At the age of 24 (this year) I'm taking up my part time studies at Kaplan - Double Major in Management and Marketing under Murdoch University. Amazing!

School has been fun but it's been a while I'm into this studying mood since I had started working 2 years ago. It's about more commitments, more challenges, packed timings and lots more.

I wonder could I handle the stress or not, especially when my attitude is yet to tune into the schooling lifestyle. 2 lessons each week and projects and assignments piling, not forgetting the tests and exams. ~.~"

Well, let's hope I manage to deal with everything peacefully and getting my goal of achieving good results. Praying hard for a 3.0 GPA if possible.

Who says the university is a easy job? Yet, who has dare to take up the challenge to enhance your capabilities in time management and self-enrichment? I did. =]

Pressing on...

It's always difficult to pen down my feelings whenever I received a sudden depressing news.

Jeremy Ng Wei Chong; a primary school friend of mine; lost his life during an unfortunate accident during the week of Christmas 2011, which his motorcycle collided with a cab.

Reports were shown on the papers and news, Facebook entries were placed but I didn't notice it at all. Maybe I was busy at work, maybe I was engrossed with soccer, maybe I was just mad about my Playstation3.

I felt guilty. Guilty for not paying a little more attention to the friends I missed out. Paying attention to their replies of "Hi" and "Bye".

I could say, we had great times when we were young. Recess was all about fun - visiting the library, playing catching at the canteen and many more. We attended Scouts together and went to door-to-door for donations.

Once in awhile, I do have the chance to visit his house for some games and relaxation and I still could recall the whole collection of balls, literately balls (for soccer, netball, basketball, tennis, ping pong, etc) and list just go on and on. His family members are nice and it's always been fun whenever I visit his home to play.

Time past. Secondary education splits us to different schools and there was no way of contact point till Facebook appears. He managed to add me and talk to me but it was all short conversations.

We have grown, and yes from missing a friend till founding a friend yet I lost another instantly. I felt rather worried for his family as his elder brother was the only one left in the family to take care of all matters.

Thanks Mah Chin Wah for telling me what happened and I really wish to pay my respects to him, one day, of course.

I felt the pain when I heard the news but I didn't tear. I was much braver, calmer than before. I had learn to grow up as a young man, to control myself from these hurt.

I thought being extraordinary could make my heart, filled with steel, no pain, no fear. Yet, the news just reminded me that I'm born human after all.

Till then, my dear friend. Rest in peace as the gods will guide you to a better place.

十一年过了，我们却没机会对彼此问候。
但四年之间的友情，我会深深的记住，无法难忘。
再见了，朋友。