Depressed... Thats the feeling I'm having currently as time is running short. We are heading to year 2010 and yet, I've this weird feeling all along, the entire day.

Depressed... because of my injuried ankle, which seemed to be recovering soon, had got a setback. A lay-up during a basketball game at my camp resulted to a wrong landing of my food, causing the ligament of my left ankle to crack twice and that's it. Light duty again. It really sucks.

Depressed... for not having enough rest these few days during camp but that's because I'm a light sleeper and those nights were difficult to cope, especially when you can hear the insects roaming around the coy.

Depressed... soon, it will be 1st January 2010 and that was the anniversary that we had between Auntie Emily and me. That was the past but in my heart and soul, I cant put down the past. Its easily said but its hard to convince myself to do so.

Overall from all these depress, I guess forgetting her is an impossible task. What is she thinking now? I questioned myself... especially when the fireworks are released to the air and would memories of us at the roof of Cheron House during last year, did that come to her mind?

I dont know the answer but thats wild guesses of mine. Right now, I only will know that her angel is with her, all the time, which I guess, will never be replaced. Another way to put it, I'm easily to be replaced.

Sad... Life goes on... I will listen to Eng How's words... "Move on... What's the f***ing point of thinking of her when... she dont even give a damn about you."

Yeah... Better ones can be found but if I cant put her down, I cant let other gals suffer what I'm going through. Worst come to worst, I might be having phobia towards relationships? Wa Kao...

Happy New Year folks... Night

JJ Lin has released his new album! 100 Days! I've bought it once I stepped out of camp and straight away, purchase it from CD Rama.

The songs are quite cool and there are different genres that he had tried during his days of recovering his vocal.

I guess, if you wish to listen the music, you can try listening it via my blog, especially since I've linked the music to the site. Enjoy.

The first time I took up the challenge, it was a distance of 10km that took place 2 years ago.

For the second attempt into the marathon, a distance of 42km which I have no idea what kind of torture would I face throughout the race.

Standard Chartered Marathon 2009 (on 6th December 2009) was the challenge of the year for me. With no trainings or mental preparation, I decided to sign up the highest obstacle that was offered to a contestant; the 42km full marathon.

The furthest I've tried running was 25km. What problems would I faced? I dont train much and the most I've ran for the past months is the 2.4km IPPT. Hence, on that day, I found out how tough it was.

Running at the 4km mark, I sprained my left ankle badly but I persevered. I continued to push myself until the 28km mark, which my ankle had gave way. Cramps are forcing me to give up but I pushed on. Plenty of bananas and energy bars are avaliable but I decide to complete the race without these substances consumed. Using my own ability and determination to complete the race was the aim of this marathon to me. I ended up walking all the way back to the finishing line, completing the race with a total timing of 5 hours 18 minutes. Cool!

I end up spending another $46 on the chinese physican straight after the race to fix back the damaged ligament that I'm suffering. Overall, an expensive race but the satisfaction level is high! I've conquered 42km and what could be next? Ironman marathon; a distance of approximately 70km? Maybe...

At the end of the day, these are the stats that I got from the marathon website. Credits to them.

Name: NICHOLAS TEO WEI TECK
Event: Full Marathon
Bib/Div: 32993 / M2024
Time: 5h:40m:8s (gun) / 5h:18m:54s (net)

10km (01:21:32) 21km (02:39:53) 30km (03:41:39) 32.5km (04:00:34) 42km (05:40:08)

Result in Entire Field: 5571st place (8687 finishers behind. About 39% of finishers ahead)

Result in Gender (Men): 4849th place (7238 finishers behind. About 40% of finishers ahead)

** Ranking : 4850
** Singapore Ranking: 3688

Singing. I guess it is something that can create wonderful things in our lives. It is not just a simple hobbie or passion but it has the power to bring people together, to create new bondings as well as establishing existing bonds.

It has been some time since I stepped onto the stage and joined the rest to sing the various pieces that we had learnt before. On Friday, my role was to become one of the audience, to watch the performances put up by my buddies, my mates, my seniors. Its a different experience compared to singing.

Throughout the concert, I could say that everyone did well. I was not sure of the majority pieces but at least, I was singing softly at my seat while some of the songs were sang by the rest. 'Every Breathe You Take', 'Angel', 'Fields of Gold' and one or two pieces. Cool!!

I missed singing. Why? I only get to sing in camp, either during the morning (National Athem) or else, the toilet (always get to sing 情非得已 with Brandon while bathing). =X

After concert, I was shaking hands with many people, congrating them for giving a splendid performance. There was a celebration later that night for Winnie as it was her birthday, sort of a muffin party. I missed muffins too. =X

Night movie was next as Alum 9 and Winnie watched "New Moon". Overall, it was a drag. 2 hours plus of movie but little action was punched into the show. Everyone was waiting for Edward. I wonder why...

I wish... How I wish... I could be back to V.E. again, to sing with them on the stage, regardless of the event that would take place. I missed a place where friendships were made. I missed a place where I could call the people over there, my sisters and brothers. =]