I lost my cool... That's all I could say for now. I think I'm just going crazy as each day passes by. I always wanted to train hard to achieve better results in what I do but yet today, it seems that I just lost the plot for the entire match. Although we won the match, the score was 5-4. What's more angry was how I played the game. I just screw the whole defence. Sion was right. Pace is an essential weapon in a match but we should use it against the correct people. I just used my pace all the time, probably everytime...

These days I really think that I'm just doing things over the limit. There's swimming training later and after that, I think I would stop excerising for the next few days. Sorry Andy, no gym for next week. I really need a break or else my leg would be the first to be broken into pieces. Anyway, right now, I have difficulties twisting my ankle and moving my right kneecap. I think I have used too much force on kicking the ball. Its time to retire from soccer once I enter Army, I guess... Everyone just flies in a tackle or a push and that really irritates me, making me to get angry while playing. Its time to break their legs from now on. I'm serious. If they gonna break legs, then why dont we break theirs first?? %&*%*^

I'm really exhausted now. Now its 2 plus and I got to wake up at 5 for praying. Zzz... Never mind, I shall sleep while traveling then. Things in my mind now is getting messy... each day... each moment... someone just make me go mad all the time, or maybe not. Its getting harder to sleep as I ponder alot. Damn... Something is really wrong with me. What the... Its either I think too much or I cant help it to think about it.

Seriously, what I'm typing now is all trash. Its best that no one reads it. Its not really that I'm physically aching but as well as mentally. Its hard to show a person how much you care... Yet, I could determine the person's feelings at that moment by looking at their MSN nicks??!! Life is getting difficult each day. If you want someone to be happy and yet you cant do anything at all, gosh, that person should be a nothing after all. Yeah!! I agree, thats me... I'm feeling helpless for the past week, maybe month??!!! Even the sweetest STRAWBERRY MILKTEA turns out to be not sweet at all, probably SOUR!! @#%#&^*@

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!I just typed crap again... Think I wont continue now.... Man Utd lost!! Another aching moment to bear...