Just a short one over here. I saw the Band marched today, which I really have no comments. Anyway, the last part of the march was quite rubbish. Nizam was leading the whole group aimlessly around the parade square. I believe they could do well on National Day but I think after this year, I guess I wont need to help Ms Pan, Ms Maria and Ms Hawa for Band. I see potential ex-members that are ready to help the Band no matter what. This is what I want from them. Why? I dont have the skills that my juniors have, neither am I a good Tuba player or leader that could instruct them to do things. I could only help in the Logistics (though I dont have a brain of mine to think about logical stuff) or Welfare??

Anyway, thanks alot, V.J., for the things you told me just now. I finally could get everything out of my chest when talking to you and realise that we are actually not different at all. Haha... I mean... We are facing the common level of difficulty of every human being is facing and what we need to do is to face it. Life... Yeah... I understand the importance of it, as well as the amount of time one could have. Thanks for teaching me to move on and face it. Like our game, Command & Conquer 3, once its played, never look back whether its a losing or winning battle. What matters most is the tactics and ways to lead your team towards victory, as well as earning your way to survival.

Anyway, Transformers movie starts tomorrow. Hope I get to watch it. Saturday will be a tedious day for me, with the basketball game, jogging (which I intended to do) and watching the last match at the National Stadium... So many things are going on but the main target for this year is this: "Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 07"... I'm waiting... Gonna test my limits to the test since its my first time for that.

So long to Chris Benoit... During the past few weeks, as I have stated on my last post, alot of things had happened and that are the things that will change a person's views towards certain things. Even the Wrestling world has their sad moments too. Weeks ago, their chairman, Vince Mcmahon was presumed dead, and that has shaken the entire Wrestling entertainment, Although he's not a favourite of mine, I still respect him as he was the one who brought this business into this world, making it a success.

His death?? Hmm... In the most astonishing manner, he was killed in an explosion in his limo. Video footage shows that once he enters his limo, shuts the door and 'BOOM!!', he was gone. Anyway, that isnt the main point of it but now, Chris Benoit is dead. Another astonishing discovery, it was claimed that he killed his child and wife before killing himself. Yeah, the whole family died. What in the world have happened to people these days? I dont know.

Chris Benoit was one of my favourites in the past. Even today, his famous 'Cripple Crossface' would be vividly in my mind. The reason for that is because during those days when my classmates were playing wrestling, some like to use that move. Haha... Think about the past do makes me laugh. Haha...

Anyway, I gonna stop here. Vince Mcmahon, rest in peace... While for Chris Benoit, I guess Eddie Gurrero will be by your side for now, as well as your family. Rest in peace because you will be remembered for life... Thank you...

Holidays are short. The 1st week was a camp that makes me go crazy and the 2nd week was a project week?? Alright, I dont care much about these isssues but now, school is going to be a terrible place, a venue that provides me with nightmares? Projects are mentioned all over the place; every classroom, every lecture hall, every table where there's people sitting in the canteen... This sure is getting nuts for me.

Anyway, first day of school wasnt the best way to deal with. I have 3 chances to do things right but didnt manage to achieve that. I missed the first bus, 962, then the second, 912... With no other choice, I decided to walk to the train station. Gosh! Missed the train!!! By the time I reached school, I was late for lesson about 20 minutes. In the end, I still dont care much about it. What else can I do for being late?

Evening before V.E., I had swimming at the school pool with Shuai Xun. Freestyle with more than 10 laps sure kill our muscles. I was feeling the pain within the body, probably due to over-exercising. I need rest but I dont think so I could do that. No point having rest with so many projects to handle. Moreover, there's still the V.E. practices for concert. I dont know what I could do but I realised my brain juice is getting lesser each day. I keep forgeting things all the time. Maybe its the best way to forget everything??!! I wonder how people with Amensia feel??

Gonna do my tutorials now. So many stuff happened for the past few weeks and I feel the lost of interest in Sport and Wellness. I was considering of joining Nursing instead... Hmmm... Although I still have the phoebia towards blood, I may still consider for that choice. All I could say that from what I hear and what I see, things do change your mindset very quickly. It all depends whether you want to put some action into it to make things work, or to see things as a point of view where you feel it yet hardly could do anything to make it better...

Saturday's evening trip to the National Stadium again on the 30th of June.... The last time I gonna stand on a historical ground.... Cool...

Well, I dont want to crap too much at this hour since I need my damn sleep for tomorrow's basketball game and BBQ. Tired as usual... I'm the one who's to be blame for the cause and the consequences and as a result, its all over. Too bad, I'm not a DUMMY that is a non-living thing but I'm a DUMB person after thinking through the past events. Strangers... strangers.... Thats all for today I guess...

Its morning 6.30am and I'm still awake. Tired?? You bet! However, I still could not sleep yet. There's project at 10am later in NYP and I have to attend it till the afternoon. After that, I have to meet Jasmine to teach her Maths. Gosh! Its gonna be a tiring day for me. Evening would be the gathering with Eric, Mah Chin Wah and Yong Hong. Stress day for me I guess.

Well, things sounds to be alright till late evening. I finally managed to see Diana online. After missing for a week in MSN, she finally appeared. Yet, I dont want to ask her the reasons for her temporaily disappearance. Its hard to understand people these days as there is a great barrier between me and her through our ways of communicating. I should say, I'm just an ordinary human being who should keep myself away from showing too much concerns to others. I dont know why I have such negative thoughts but it occurs since I have learnt some stuff the hard way.

When you tried showing your concern, it will be classified as a nusiance, as its irritating and you have no choice but to stop. If you dont show your concern, some would say you have changed. Some would even say that why are you so quiet whereas the rest would just keep quiet as keeping silence would be the best way to deal the situation. I know myself as a person who bugs others for stupid reasons. I dont blame anyone or myself. Its just the nature of me. I cant help it. Hence, no offence anyone but I guess I shall keep things to myself if possible. Although the blog is used to vent your anger on it, its still better than telling your troubles to others.

I tried to tell Eugene about my problem, which I have faced just now but its hard to say it out. Yeah. Its very hard to explain the thoughts in my mind and put it into words. Emotions could be felt but couldnt be told. Sometimes, I asked myself why am I a human being, knowing the different kinds of emotions but unable to describe it. Tough as a human could live... I guess...

I was planning to create a new blogskin, which I assumed to be better than this white background coloured one. Anyway, I give up using the Dreamweaver MX that I had in my computer. The elements couldnt work at all and I'm still trying to figure out how to create layers for the blog.

I really do need more time to do this blog but not now. School is starting next week. The holidays are indeed short but time is still running out for me. Projects are flooding and I'm not done with my tutorials. Saying about time, I wonder if I have enough time for my revision?? Gosh!!!

Anyway, the blog is reopened. Once again, I would be posting crap but its up to you whether you want to read it or not. Most of all, I'm doing it on my own reference. I can remember what I have experienced in my life as I grow older. I have been forgeting things for the past few weeks. I guess my brain is getting weaker than before, losing its origin amount of brain juice.

The blog's open for now... Enjoy... While for me, its time to sleep. Before I end, I really want to curse like mad on England's lost against Holland in the euro 2008 Under 21 Championship. WHY??!!! WHY??!! Why must it be England losing in penalties against every opponent it faces?? Why??? I have no comments but to say "Strictly no PENALTIES in Tournaments." Just kidding...

After months of planning and discussion, all the committee members wants to do is to have a bonding camp with the Juniors, to know more about them, as well as to create a good relationship with each other, to make sure that everyone likes to be in this Voice Ensemble family. Anyway, I shall try not to crap too much but just add some of my thoughts about the events took place during the camp.

Day 0

Committee members are to report first on that day, which was a Monday. We know that we will be having a long night as we will be having practice later. I reached to NYP around 3 plus, after heading to Canberra Secondary to print some stuff. Well, once I was there, I guess I wasnt doing much at all. Everyone was busy while I was slacking down there. Soon, we started to try out one of the games. I dont know how did I get such a funny tune but the 'music' that is put in the game was really a nice one. we just play the game and we were laughing throughout.

Practice starts at 7pm and we had sectionals while learning our new piece. Once practice was over, the committee went to pack the necessary stuff for the next day's camp. Some were helping out to put their bags into the bunk. Actually, there are 2 bunks on that day; mainly the guys and the gals. However that night, everyone slept at the same bunk. The guys were sleeping at the gals bunk as we gonna watch the movie, "the 200 Pound Beauty". It was a nice movie but my position of watching the show is quite irritating. I need to find a comfortable spot to watch the show but failed to do so. Once, the show's over, it was already 3 plus in the morning. It was then lights out for us as everyone took their rest.


Day 1

Goodness Gracious Me!!! I was the last one to wake up. The 'Gatsby' song, which my alarm ringtone, keep playing and playing. I was really exhausted since I was having lack of sleep. Anyway, we need to move on as its a brand new day for us. We set up everything and we wait for the arrival of our Juniors. It turned out to be a disappointment as less than 10 juniors were there. However, the camp must go on. That's what we told ourselves and Kah Hong, who was the person in-charge of the camp, started with a 'warm' welcome. He was trying his best to ensure that the spirit in this camp would not fall at all.

After the welcome speech, we had our flag-making and cheer-making. It was quite alright for me but the main problem we faced was what should our group name be. I was with Yi Tian, Pauline, Matthais, Winnie and my buddy, Yong Hong. We came out with several names and we called our team, 'Wang Wang'. Just imagine about the last camp I had, my group was known as 'Solo'. Now, its called 'Wang Wang'... What a great transformation but yet the names are quite cool after all. Once the flag was designed, we begin to have our ice breakers. The games are quite interesting and yet strategic, especially the game 'Under the Curtain', which needs the wits and brains of your members to whack the correct person over the curtain.

It was time for lunch and problem occurs. The ones that told the leaders that they would be late are all not coming for camp. I have ordered 36 packets of food and such things happened. We had more than 10 packets that are left aside. Thinking that its quite wasteful, we gave the packets to the other students who are having their camps. Sectionals was next and the guys were in the guys bunk learning the song. When the Tenor part was over, I was sleeping at my sleeping bag. Knock-OUT!!! I guess I was too tired at that time.

Then, there was the station games, which we need to complete each within 15 minutes. The best game was to use a chopstick and throw it into the bottle. Sounds easy but why dont you guys give it a try. It is quite hard to do it but it could turn out to be fun too. As we played games for the past few hours, it was time for Night Walk. Paul, Kah Hong and I were the ones to be hiding while our teammates are to find us. I was asked to hide at the stadium but it turned out to be a tiring one. As the satidium lights went off, I was the only one in the dark, sitting at the seats of the spectator area, watching the instructor running his rounds. Instead of counting lambs or sheeps, I was counting how many rounds he had run. Soon, I fell asleep and by the time my teammates found me, it was 11 plus. In total, I had waited for 2 hours plus. Gosh!!! I need sleep that night!!!


Day 2

Rise and shine but I was the dead pig in the guys bunk that was the last one to wake up. I wasnt feeling that good as I kept waking up at intervals. First, I went to the loo at 4 plus. Then, I woke up at 6 plus to wake Jasmine up. Soon, it was 8am, where everyone is to gather for morning exercise. I was responsible for that and we went to the hockey pitch for warm up. Once I'm done, we went for breakfast before starting our games again. Although the games are quite easy and light, the tough one is still up ahead.

Afternoon was the time for lunch and we walked to Ang Mo kio Central for our meal. It was after our meal when the REAL game begins; "The Amazing Race - V.E. Edition" Alright, it does sounds like its from a copyrighted title from the television but we wanted to do something whacky. I mean it, it was really whacky. We started at Ang Mo Kio Park and after having ourselves stuck at there for an hour plus, we finally left the park and head to the next station. Overall, we went to 5 places, the AMK Park, BLK 322, AMK Hub, BLK 648 and Cheng Seng Park. They are all located in Ang Mo Kio but the distance do counts. My legs were tired when the whole event was completed. It was like walking from Canberra Secondary to Sembawang Park, and back again for the next 3 hours or so.

The performance, also known as the showcase of each team was held during the night. Everyone's performance was great and I enjoyed it. However, I just hate myself even more because I couldnt sing on that day. I was not feeling very well, especially after I have a flu and cough that morning. My voice was hoarse and I was like being a Bass rather than a Tenor. Anyway, the Seniors performance was rated by me as a 'OMG' performance. After the performance, a snack auction was done. I realised it isnt mean that the small packets are not tasty items after all. One of them was 'Merci Chocolates'!!! Alright, I wasnt allow to eat even if my team gets it. I was classified as the 'Sick' one so no junk food for me.

That night was quite a long night too. I had to help Kah Hong to do a video presentation on the pictures we took for the past few days. It was a tiring job as I ended up sleeping at 5.30am. Actuallly Kah Hong was doing the task with me but once he closed his eyes, he went to Dreamland straight away without asking me to join him. Well, thanks to Joyce's help, the pictures were ready.


Day 3

Last day of camp and AGAIN!!! I couldnt wake up. It took about 4 people to wake me up?? Or even more?? I dont know. Let me guess, Cai Yun, kah Hong, Shuai Xun, Paul... Maybe the rest of the guys also help to wake me up. I was really dead tired and I wanted to sleep for another hour. My alarm was ringing for the past 1/2 hour. Well, once I wash myself up, it was time to set up the stuff to show the video to the Juniors. While we are busy doing the set up, the Juniors were playing another game. Gosh!! I just wish I was with them.

They watched the video and then, we had our de-briefing. Everything was quite alright but I guess, everyone was tired. This camp is a tiring one as I have never gone to such a vigorious camp with so many tasks and games to play. You could be playing at one moment but overall, you could drop dead at anytime as you are losing your strength. Anyway, once the camp was over, the Committee members have to de-brief again among ourselves for the conclusion of the camp. By the time we finished, it was 3pm sharp. We went for dinner at AMK Hub and I went back home at 5 plus. Tired.... I just went to sleep once I had my shower and after I dried my hair.

Most of all, the camp has been a good time for me to understand the Juniors. Thanks for those who have come and those who have helped out. Moreover, thanks to those for your concerns about my illness. Although it was quite irritating but thanks for your understanding. I will still make sure that I would recover. Anyway, the next camp, lets hope the attendance would be better. Committee members!!! Thanks for the joy and laughter. Our hardwork is still paid off very well. Let's work hard for the coming concert and the next camp!! We shall move on, to another chapter of V.E.!!!

Everyone in the class has been telling each other this once we finished the Business Law ICA 1. "Happy Holidays!!" I do admit that the word 'holidays' is really a nice word for all students, especially when it gives us more time to do some activities that we have not done before. Maybe, to complete our tutorials or start our revision for certain modules that we are weak on. However, I dont agree that it should be classified as 'Happy'. It really spoils your day when we recieved information that we gonna have 4 projects to complete during the holidays. Though there's no need to submit it once the holidays are over, I still think its just too much to handle.

Anyway, just a short update about life for the past few days. ICAs were a disaster. I can say that my Japanese, Business Finance and Essentials of Sport and Wellness were a flop. I dont know what's the result gonna be but one thing is for sure, I wont be able to score well for my GPA. Although I still hope to enter University and my GPA must be 3.0 and above, I think all I could is to take on private coaching courses in the future. Pursuing a dream in the Education industry is not easy after all. However, I will still go on and work hard for the semester. Never to give up easily is my motto. Hardwork is what I seek to reach my goal. Haha... Sounds idealistic but yet, actions must speak louder than my words.

The V.E. camp is coming very soon and I hope its a success. After weeks of preparations and discussions, the committee has come out with this camp to ensure that the Juniors would bond with each other, as well as giving us Seniors the chance to bond with them. Seriously, I didnt have the courage to say 'Hi' to the other members as I wasnt able to intereact with them. The only junior that I could click with is Shuai Xun, probably because we have the same common interest, which is swimming and we both might be seeking a job opportunity as a lifeguard. While for the rest, I think I need to give myself some time for that.

Anyway, soccer was getting bored these days. Less people are coming and we are playing among ourselves. C.C.C. has not been playing with us since the incident. I dont blame them but maybe we are too rough to play on. We are tough warriors that would not back off and I can see that. Eugene wasnt feeling that well yesterday night but yet he scored quite a number of goals, which is amazing. One of the best assist I did last night was heading the ball once the goalie throw it high up. I head the ball towards Eugene and he pushed the ball forward and whack it hard, slotting the ball in. Haha... Nice play...

Another funny one was a great teamwork with Jimmy, he pass me the ball and I wanted to shoot. Yet, I pass the ball back to him and he slots in. Haha... At that time, Fitry wanted to intercept the ball but yet failed to do so. Overall, I did score a few goals. None would be added to the goal tally but I guess, we need to find competitors to do something with the tally table.

Alright, I think that's enough for me to crap about. Fitry said I was a soccer fanatic and I do agree. However, I just want to say this, its all because of you guys... Why?? With you guys asked me to play soccer and I got addicted to the game, you realised that I'm been playing the game with all my heart, as to improve myself and be at my best. Haha... Stay stronger??!! Yeah, you bet!! Well, 'Happy' Holidays again to all.... especially SW0602...