The flooding of ICAs has finally ended but that is also the beginning of project terrors that I’m going to face next week. Time flies and now, its time for the countdown for Bodywatch Gym attachment. I think I got to start my recap on the various body muscles in the body, as well as the terms of the movements. Things are going to be difficult but I hope I can bear with all these torture and score well for TEP this semester. =]

I will just gonna do some brief updates in regards of the past few days. Wednesday was ICA for Project Management and I was late for it. Reason for that is I do not know where the venue is. I called Siew Boon for the exact location but partly both of us are at fault. He told me the wrong venue and I went to search for it. From Block B and D Level 5 to Block B and D Level 4, I finally reach the CORRECT venue, E-Plaza at Level 2. (I guess only students from NYP should know what I’m talking about.) It seems like before the ICA, I have got my warm-up exercises quite some time. Although I was late, I still manage to complete the paper on time, with the usage of a very SLOW computer. Maybe that isn’t my day but still, I survived it. =P

Thursday was V.E. meeting and seriously, I was not giving anything constructive. Haha… Sometimes I could be off the track but luckily, everyone is quite cooperative that we finished the meeting before 10pm. Cool! I took the bus back home instead of the train as my concession was used up. Sorry to Cai Yun, Yi Tian and Jia Bao. I didn’t take the train with you gals because of that. Hence, don’t jump into conclusions that I’m trying a new route home or other ideas. Smile! =]

Yesterday was soccer!!! I have not been playing for soccer for the past 2 to 3 weeks and when I was back on this court, I feel great but rusty! I could not pass the ball properly and my stamina seems to drop within a few weeks. I have frequent chest pains while running, which is not a good sight but I still maintain my pace for the moment. Gosh!! I’m becoming weaker than before??!! I guess I need to visit the gyms more frequently, using the track mill to boost my stamina. Haha… It won’t be easy but I will still try hard.

Alright, that’s all for now. Its time for my shower time before I head for work. =D

It’s often hard to bid farewells. Although it’s very easy to say a word, “Goodbye”, the affections that are in us would not put such emotions to a halt. Especially when it comes to the last path towards the journey of life, one probably will have lots of regrets and wishes that you wanted to fulfill in the very last minute while you are still standing. The last words that you wish to say to your loved ones. Maybe the last look to them before you closes your eyes, falling, falling into a deep sleep, a very deep one…

Yesterday was the last time, or I should say the last look at my Ah Ma before sending her off to another world. I know it won’t be so easy rather than just saying goodbye. I managed to rush down just in time after I done my ICA for Customer Service. As I mentioned in my previous post, to console or be consoled? That was the question that makes me pondered while rushing towards the wake.

The priest was saying the last rituals before the gongs were played. Loud and deafening but the heartaches still remains. Once the gongs stopped, there is this strange silence that makes me felt uneasy. Slowly, you start to hear the sobs of your relatives, who were kneeling next to the wooden bed of Ah Ma’s. We were told to gather and walk around the coffin, looking at her the last time. Some said a silent pray, some started to cry. Whereas for me, I just stood next to her and said it softly yet bitterly, “Ah Ma, goodbye…”

Following the path where the van was heading to, I saw the people along the streets looking at us. It is a very weird feeling by then. I remembered in the past, I tend to look at the van that marched past the flats. This time, it’s the strangers along the pathways looking at us. Behind me are the sounds of weeping, which makes my heart hurts more. One of the weeps came from my Auntie, who seemed to be in a terrible state. She could not stop crying no matter how many people tried to calm her down. Right when we board the bus until we reached Mandai, her tears just continue to flow freely, down her pinkish rosy cheeks.

As we gave Ah Ma our last prayer for the day, I was the only one who was standing alone in the 3-man lining-up. My auntie who was crying was behind me, with 2 other aunties trying their best to console her but failed to do so. I wish to help but I don’t know what to do. I ended up putting my hair at hers, not saying a word. Empathy. That is what I have in me and it will always be in me no matter what. I thought I have changed but I didn’t. The main weakness of my entire character is empathy. However, there is nothing I could do to stop the sadness faced by everyone. Whatever has happened cannot be undone.

Standing in a corner, watching as the coffin being pushed into the burning flames was like facing the end of the world situation. You do not have a route to escape but yet to face it. Loud cries were heard around the room and all I could do was watch helplessly at the scene. I told myself to control myself but I failed. Tears tickled down my wearily eyes, like an endless path down my cheeks. As the door closed, the short scene ended and we were brought to an area for refreshments. I was the last to leave, and before I left to room, I said the same words again, “Goodbye Ah Ma…” Goodbye…

I tried to console a relative but ended up, I was again sobbing. A saying in Chinese goes like this, “男子汉大丈夫! 流血不流泪!” I failed to do that. However, every human has a soul, a pure soul and a soft spot. Hence, I can’t totally blame myself just like that. I guess it is time for me to be stronger as each day past by. I may not be the same person like I always be for the next few days but give me some time, and I will be back to normal. =]

Ah Ma was a noble person to my Uncles and Aunties. She was the one who brought her kids up since young, without fatherly love. Their father, who is my Ah Gong, was with my other Ah Ma, who had 4 kids and one of them was my Dad. A mother’s love will not be replaced and to my Uncles and Aunties, their beloved mother is the best parent they had for their 50 years of life. They may hate my Dad’s family members but after today, I hope the past will be rest. Let bygones be bygones. For the new generation, it is time that we have a change, a change in our attitude towards each other and shall not let the past mistakes that our forefathers had made to be done again. 上一代的恩恩怨怨,从今天起就到此结束.

Anyway, Shuai Xun was right with his blog post. You get to see many unknown relatives during a funeral. I met my cousins and I guess we did click quite well together. I guess the future of this family bonding shall last long, with no conflicts among each other or differences. I just wish, even the adults have matured after yesterday’s experience. Every day’s journey is a learning process. Some get matured while some become wiser than the previous day. While for me, I learn to cherish everything I have from now on. Well, I actually do cherish everything I have since the past but just putting more effort to cherish things to its fullest. How I wish to be a baby or kid again, where you will be naïve and won’t be affected with any sadness. You won’t know what is death or sadness. How wonderful… =/

Alright, a new beginning starts the next day. I just need my strawberry milktea to cheer myself u and THAT’S IT!! Hehe… I need my drug to make me happy. That’s all for now.


Ah Ma, Rest in peace…

在最难过的时刻中,能让我被安慰的是听听你那甜蜜的声音.
在最需要被安慰时,能让我感觉温暖是离开你前的那份拥抱.
谢谢你.

- 无名

I've just came back from the wake and yes!! I'm still awake!! Just kidding but I'm quite tired right now. It isnt easy for some who sees their loved one leaving them but that's life. I mean, life still needs to move on no matter what and that is the belief that I had in me that keeps me moving.

Well, I just gonna do a short posting that's all for now. Tomorrow is the Customer Service ICA and I wanted to delay the test but changed my mind. I wont want to take my ICA for the next batch, with another group. I do not like things to be delayed, that's why. Once everything is done, I gonna rush back to the wake to accompany my Ah Ma for her final journey. Did I type it wrongly?? I dont know but I'm bad with the Chinese culture though I'm a chinese. =X

Well, before I sleep, I guess I do not know what's gonna happen in later morning's senario. Let things do it naturally. I may be the person who console, or probably the person to be consoled. I don't know and I won't think too much about it. Hehe... Alright!! Study time before I rest!!!


王力宏 - 你不在
你不在 当我最需要爱... =(
你存在 让我发现真爱... =D

Monday:
It is the first time I went to gym for a total workout in 2008. It hasn’t been easy to keep myself fit as I’m too busy with many stuff that I have minimal time for sports activities. I always told myself to keep fit by exercising more and train hard but seem that I need to organize my time for more gym sessions in the future. Well, Winnie (daughter), Cai Yun and I went to the gym first as the rest were not there yet. Slowly, Shuai Xun and Ping Ding (mother) joined us. I did not train enough as I ended up helping to do the admin stuff in the gym while the rest of the Bodywatch crew went for lesson. Sharks… What a bad timing to be there.

Once gym was over, it was time for theory lesson for V.E. later on. It was a recap for me as I had forgotten some stuff during the theory lesson that was held 2 years ago. That was indeed a long time since I brush through the various periods of music. Many were drawing while Mr. Ong was talking. For instance, you can ask Kah Hong and Shuai Xun what they were drawing during the talk. Hmmm… Artistic figures, different shapes and sizes… What are they, I don’t wish to tell… =]

Anyway, that night was the last practice for V.E. and next up will be examinations for the rest of the members. As I mentioned on my tagboard to Leandra, V.E. is like a big family and this family bond will last forever. No matter what happens, I guess everyone will still be back once exams ended, to continue the fun and hardwork towards music, as well as creating more laughter and… er hem… gossips… =P

Tuesday:
Nothing much happened that day but I had dinner with Auntie Emily. Hmmm… Think of it again, where did we went to for dinner? I have forgotten. I guess my memory is that bad after all. OH!! I REMEMBERED!! Its at Causeway Point. Actually, I was supposed to meet V.J. as he’s going to come over to my house to fix my Internet connection but he was busy with some stuff. I don’t blame him for that anyway so no hard feelings alright? =D Anyway, Auntie Emily and I had 版面 for dinner. It was quite tasty but I could not finish, so as she. Reason for me not finishing my food is because my food quantity keeps increasing no matter how much I ate. Haha… Oops, someone is going to strangle me again. =X

Wednesday:
V.J. came in the morning to help me with the Internet connections. I did work perfectly fine but when it was night time, it seems that the plan failed. I don’t know why but I guess its time for me to do something about this Internet connection problem. I hate it so much but I still could not do much at all. Haha… Still, what matters most is whether my laptop can access online or not. Why? Well, it determines whether I can use my webcam for the night. =]

Thursday:
Things went quite chaotic during lesson today but it was solved after that. It’s easy to see that the odds against Ryan are clearly shown. No one wants to be in the same group as him and in the end, Zara chose to be the one to join him. Seriously, if it was me, I will also put myself in his group. Not being sympathetic but I had suffered twice while with him, hence the third time won’t kill anyway. I guess this team is not really a team after all. Its considered as: a team of 10, and one individual. Hope that individual will get back to his senses soon.

Exercising was next! Ping Ding, Jia Bao, Cai Yun, Auntie Emily and I went to run around the school. I guess it’s the first time for Emily, Cai Yun and Jia Bao for running around the school campus. When we completed the first round, Jia Bao was not feeling that good by then. We stopped our running and look at the NYP team playing soccer against RP. The result was 2-1, which NYP won. Haha… While the rest went for shower, Ping Ding, Emily and I were sort of looking at Emily’s San Jie running. Overall, she got 2nd among the whole lot but still, flunk. Alright… at least she tried. =X

Friday:
I woke up and had received a call from my Mum. She said I do not need to enjoy my Chinese New Year and told me to go for work instead. Reason for that; Ah Ma had gone to a new world. Well, I guess I do not need to be so specific for that. Well, I didn’t feel anything at all after hearing the news. I went to the funeral that late afternoon to take a look at how’s things. The biggest problem that I find it weird was the expression that I supposed to give. To cry, laugh, angry?? I don’t know but I was like feeling nothing at all. Maybe Auntie Emily was right. I was not close to my Ah Ma, who I only get to meet her every year once. Anyway, I won’t think too much so don’t worry, Auntie Emily. =]

Dinner was at Subway with Auntie Emily and I was the idiot that fateful night. We had Subway Melt and when the person asked if I wish to add extra meat and cheese, I told them “Anything”. It end up that our sandwich was so big that I have no comments by what had happened. The staff in Subway were laughing and Auntie Emily was showing the [ -.-“ ] look. Haha… My bad… Dinner was settled but recalling the incident sure brings me some laughter for that night. I won’t do that mistake again… =P

Saturday:
I went back to NYP to participate in Raymond, James and Zul’s event. It was quite disappointing as I was the only one who turned up for the event at 1pm, which was the time the game commenced. There aren’t any of my team’s SW people and seemed like I was the only one. Luckily, some participants came and the game still managed to be run. The final of the Panna KO was fun but when it comes to the Winner vs. Organizer, it was an interesting game. I was the ball picker for the game but when Rahman asked me to do the penalty kick, I just accepted it and I scored. Claimed as the team’s secret weapon?? Maybe… but its definitely pure luck. =]

I was late to meet Auntie Emily as I helped out in the packing of the event as there were insufficient people helping out. I ended up leaving my house at 6.30pm, which was the time where all the V.E. members met together for the gathering. Emily and I reached Pizza Hut at Marina Square around 7 plus and seemed that I had ordered too much food. I was hungry that day so, my bad for the orders. Hehe… Anyway, bad karma didn’t let me off that night. While I was in the toilet, my jean’s zip went faulty. I ended up searching around Marina Square to get a pair of new jeans with Kah Hong. Anyway, thanks for accompanying me to shop, especially at this critical moment.

We went back to meet the rest of the V.E. Members at Esplanade rooftop and we took some pictures before I send Auntie Emily back home. She had to do her project early tomorrow morning so its best that she had enough rest. While for me, I need to rest too as I had project meeting the following day. Well, sorry for all the V.E. members for going back early. Yet, I hope you guys did enjoy the day. Smile alright?? =D

Sunday:
I was late for project but it turned out that everyone was late. Phew! At least I wont be ‘punished’. We managed to plan out the script and what we left for now is doing the acting and going once through with it. It’s a good thing to have Azirah and Firduaz to be my teammates. Cooperative and understanding is what we have to come out with a good script for the skit for our ICA2.

Once everything was done, I went to had dinner with Auntie Emily at Chong Pang. I knew it that she had her Fish Sliced Rice. Haha… That’s her favourite anyway LOL!! Well, once we had our meal, I sent her home and then head for the funeral. It was boring but I still continue to spend my day at there by doing some revision. That’s a good student isn’t it?? Haha…

I realized that bringing laptop to a funeral for use is quite cool and interesting. Some will say that you have no filial and respect if you use it during a funeral but when they look at the contents of your usage, they call you a good child. While for my sister, she was not having a good response for using the laptop. She was approached by an elderly who asked her this in Chinese; “Hey gal, are you the one who’s collecting the money??” The money is for the family members of the dead. However, one thing I don’t understand is why my sister is being targeted as the one who collects money. Or the laptop enables us to deceive elderly that we are collecting money?? Gosh, maybe they didn’t know that funerals these days are still not at a high technology level. =]

That’s all for now… Resting time…


有些话不需要用口来说,而是用心来表达...尤其是..."爱"...

Well, its not about a song that is sang by some singer but I just use this as a title for my entry. These days, the weather hasnt been that good. You can see the sky being bright but a few minutes later, it turned dark and gloomy and next up, rain started pouring down like no one's business. Gosh!!

I actually have the feeling of blogging this post now as I realised some stuff while working. I was getting quite bored as the sky darkens and when I was asked to clear the pool, it started to pour. Raining cats and dogs didnt add in the atmosphere as thunder and lightning spice up the whole scene. All I can say that I watched the whole situation; from the first drop of rain touching the floor till it ends. From the flashes of lightning to the end of the whole 'show'; rainbow, it seems that its telling me a story.

Although the whole story takes an hour to complete, it tells me that no matter how good or bad life is, one must continue to work hard to get what you want to achieve in life. Just like the weather, the harder it rain, the more chances you get to see the rainbow (that's commonly known by many that a storm will cause a rainbow to occur...) in the sky. Hence, the rain, thunder and lightning didnt give up, showing people that hope is always there and the BIG rainbow will show up no matter what.

Anyway, today's rainbow is beautiful. I was really BIG and I love it!! The beauty of nature will never be replace by any mankind's works. Although science plays a part of it, no human can create such a scene in real life. Too bad, working in the pool does not mean that handphones can be used. Otherwise, I will take a few snaps of that beautiful rainbow.

Another thing I realised was the lightning. I always fantasied the wonderful displays of lightning in the sky. It can be beautiful yet dangerous. One strike that hits you and you will be walking to heaven the next. Haha... Well, ever watch fireworks display?? If you do, I guess lightning is nothing you should scared of. I remembered Auntie Emily covered her ears once she saw a big flash of lightning striking. Actually, one can treat it as a fireworks display. The mighty bolts could kill but like fireworks, it flashes and the sound "BOOM!" will come out.

In conclusion, its all in the mind. Those who are fear of lightning should give it a try, watch a thunderstorm and treat it as a fireworks display. It can be weird but interesting too. The beauty of nature captures your eyes, and your phobia will be tested. Be brave, to those who are fear of lightning and thunder... =]

First week of school is over and tomorrow will be another new week. Many things had happened during the past few days but I didnt have time to update it in my blog. I was quite busy and had no time for updates. Well, here I'm and I shall start on the few things that happened these days. =]

Wednesday was the day to promote the Push-Up event that will be held in NYP on Thursday. I didnt pariticpate in the event due to my illness. Anyway, Emily, Ping Ding and I were helping to distribute flyers to any fellow NYP mates in school to get them notice about the event. Once everything was done, I went for lesson and after that, to the clubroom to do my stuff. The gals were having sectionals, helping Jia Bao to learn her parts for the up-coming performance. Well, once everything was done, we did some stuff before heading home. (I forget what happened after that... =X )

Thursday was NYP Open House. We got a last minute confirmation that we are not having any performance and I was planning to run during the evening before practice. It was cancelled in the end due to bad weather and bad mood. Yeah... Bad weather due to the heavy rain but bad mood due to some stuff happened before that. Maybe I was the one who was at the wrong but I guess it is not our responsibility to think that we have a performance on Thursday. I'm not gonna say any names here but seriously, all I could say that things are all last minute.

Well, its the first time Auntie Emily sees me so moody. I apologise for that, not only her but the rest, especially Shuai Xun. It was me who caused the change of plans and its no one's fault. I hope those who needs to find an explanation for what had happened will be happy with my answer. I do feel bad when I saw everyone brought their running gear here and yet nothing is done. Maybe doing individual sports INDIVIDUALLY will be better. Sorry people... Other than that, sorry for making you worried, I wanted to run as to cool myself down....

Well, practice was as usual and I was not in the best condition to sing as I was having flu. I was sick so Auntie Emily dont allow me to run. =X Well, we learn the new song, "Introduction of Angel" (something like that...) but it ended up sounded like hell. Reason for that, the high notes are really too much for me. Haha... Guess its another mission to hit the high notes with perfection again. =]

Friday was performance day and I sang quite so-so. I was having a slight cough and flu, hence singing will be quite bad that day. Once everything was done, the ex-committee and new committee had a meeting with Janette. After that, I was back in the clubroom to do my revision. I failed to do that as I ended up chatting with the juniors for an entire hour. The rest left after that while I was in the room, waiting for Auntie Emily to finish her lesson. Once I met her, we went to eat at Yoshinoya, which was my first time being there. The food was quite nice and its a good experience having a meal at there. Everything needs to have its first time to take place, isnt it??!! Hehe...

Saturday was another performance. Again, I was late meeting Auntie Emily before heading to school. Perfomance was bad as I was not in my right voice to sing. The moment I was in stage, I started singing and till the end of the performance, I was sweating like no one's business. Gosh!! My sweat glands are at its hype mode??!! Once perfomance was done, I was listening to the Mayflower secondary Alumni choir singing. Hmmm.... Wow!! I bet they are better than us but I guess, the best part was seeing Ben joining them for practice. Hehe... =X

After that, it was K-Box!! Haha... Before I went for K-Box, I went to say 'Hi!' to Eugene, who was working at the sushi outlet at level 1. Haha... Hey, I was sorry not to join you guys for soccer that day as when I reached Yishun, it was 10pm already, My bad... =]

While in the K-Box, lots of things happened. I cant say everything out but for instance, Gerald's bird singing... Kah Hong and Shuai Xun's "Its My Life"... Winnie, Shi Pei and Emily went high... Yi Tian's birthday song... Haha... Well, anyway, its fun being out with my V.E. mates. Once everything was done, I accompany Emily back home before heading mine. Haha... Tired but I did enjoy the day, with some gift from the overall treatment; no voice to sing for the next few days... =X

Sunday was working day. Nothing much happened but I guess, I was going crazy today. Since I have no voice and I was sick, I didnt talk much. Tired... That's all I could say... Hehe... ZZZzzz... Stopping here now... I'm getting quite bored blogging at this hour now... -.-"

I was back to school today and when I first met my classmates, they were saying, "Wei Teck (Nic) wont be feeling cold today. He wont be switching off the air-con again..." Yes!! The stereotype view of me being a gangster is still in many people's mind. Gosh!! Seriously, I still look innocent and blur right? Not the person who sees one and kills one, isnt it. (By the way, what I meant was a translation of "见一个,杀一个"... Hehe...."

Kenny was asking me today, whether I have anything that occured during my holidays that affected my thinking. I dont know what he was talking about at first but come to think about what is happening for the past 2 days, it seems that everyone thinks that I have changed completely. I'm now like the devil in the class, who seems to have a hack-care attitude towards the people around me... Something like that... but that's not true!!

Well, hope a week or two will show my true self, or should I say, back to my old self. Haha... Well, a summary of today's happenings. Lesson's at 10am and after that, lunch with Auntie Emily before we head to the library to do some revision. Mine is my own revision while her's was her preparations for her test later that day. I was back for my lesson again but it ended earlier.

I met Auntie Emily again to do some stuff for the V.E. notice board. Alright, it was quite messy but we managed to complete half of it. Haha... Well, once its done, home sweet home. Hmmm... There's school tomorrow and I guess I need to start revising tomorrow morning once I wake up. I dont want to slack anymore!! Wake up!!! Haha.... =P

People often say the first impression does tells everyone who you really are. Well, today's first day of school for me and I gave the impression to the class that I'm like a gangster. -.-" I did not mean to act like one but my classmates think that I have become one after what actions I have done.

All I did was to switch off the air condition since some of us were feeling cold. I was one of them, who did not have a jacket with me today. You can say its bad luck or I was stupid for not having my jacket with me. My Mum washed my stinky jacket on Sunday, which means it still needs some time to get dried. Whereas for my SW jacket, its with Reeza. I forgot to bring it back on the day where I stayed overnight at Chris house. Now I dont have a jacket, I was shivering for the past 3 hours in the room. ZZzz...

Well, I guess it was the way I walked to the air conditioner switch that shows my attitude of a gangster. I didnt mean it!! I was very sloppy, thanks to the boring lecture that was so dry. Well, I ended up being asked by the lecturer to switch the air conditioner on but at a higher temperature. -.-" My bad!! Hehe... Well, everyone started to stare at you, laughing and some seemed to be gossiping. My classmates were lauging uncontrollably. Hmmm.. Never mind, I have no intentions to show my fierce side. I'm a kind person, dont I look like one?? =D

Lesson ends at 5 today and we had our first exercise that is to be submited to the lecturer. Things are going so fast that I have no idea if I can catch up or not. Next week will be the ICA for the module and guess what, they are testing on today's topic. Nice try... Hate classical for having such tight schedules. =X

The new V.E. Committee has been announced. Although its a good thing to pass on our current committee's responsibilties to the new batch, it is also quite sad for us. Imagaine that we were given the duties a year ago and we created revolution, implied on this CCA and changed the concept towards the management of V.E., that is indeed brilliant and wonderful. A year sounds very long but think about it again, it seems to be like a few months had past. I can say, this committee is the best I have ever been with. We dont have disputes, we dont have differences... We work together, bond together, complete our 'missions' together. That is why, I like V.E. that much, because of the team effort we had. My passion for singing wont die and my love for V.E. will stay on no matter what. My 3rd home.... My 3rd family.... =]

Well, tomorrow's gonna be a new day again. Hope someone feels better tomorrow after a good rest. You should know who you are... I was worried but I guess I cant help you much to stop the pain. All I could do is pray that its gonna be gone soon, and make sure that you are alright at all times. Rest well, @_@ , you know who you are after looking at that sign... Hehe...

Time to sleep now... 9am lecture is not a fun thing to attend early in the morning... @_@

School’s starting tomorrow and I’m not mentally prepared for it! Well, I guess I am loaded with activities during my holidays that I ended up complaining here and there. Serve me right for being occupied with these activities.

Alright, just to make a few updates about the past few days. Friday was Canberra Secondary’s CCA Orientation. I was there to help the Band but was late eventually due to some CCA activities and also, lunch with Auntie Emily, in Poly. Well, back to Canberra, the Band only managed to get about 20 people to participate in the CCA. This is sad news for me as it shows that youths these days are not interested in the Arts anymore. Maybe they are Secondary 1s’ and their mentality for music are not ready. I don’t know.

Though CSSB has been my 2nd home all these while, since young till now, I cannot do much to help them but to show my moral support in whatever the members do. Well, to all the band members who are helping out in the CCA Orientation that day, well done for getting the new Secondary 1s to participate Band. However, your hard work is not over yet. Make sure you guys ensure that they will continue to stay in Band. The responsibility is past to all of you, so show me, prove it to me that you can make them stay for Band. “One Band, One Sound, One Spirit”, that’s the way I want CSSB to be, always…

Saturday was BAKING for the entire afternoon. I met Auntie Emily at Sembawang to get all the necessary ingredients for brownie and cheesecake before heading to my house for baking session. Lots of things happened in my house while baking… Incidents such as I, touching the bowl when I forgot that it was hot… My sister forgets to add sugar in the cheesecake mixture… Auntie Emily opening the yoghurt, which she ended up having some dips of yoghurt on her… LOL!!

In the end, we managed to make 2 brownies and a cheesecake. I don’t know whether Auntie Emily did eat ½ of the brownie last night but let’s just hope she didn’t do that. Haha… Well, Auntie Emily, nice haircut!! You look nice with that new haircut of yours.

Swimming was after that and my sister and I were late. Well, it doesn’t stop the aches that we got later. Butterfly stroke and Backstroke were the ones that caused the aching but it was alright. The feeling was very good after a ½ hour’s workout. The muscles were feeling tense even after I reached home to rest. The most saddening thing that day was that my freestyle for a lap, to and fro, takes 1minute 33 seconds. Gosh!! That is too slow, I was trying to hit a 1½ minutes but I failed to do so. I guess more training can be done to improve my stamina and strength for swimming. I got to have a “Never say die” attitude!!! =]

Alright, typing in the bus right now is not a good thing. Let’s hope tomorrow is a new and good beginning of school for me. Study!!! =P

I lost the plot for today’s game, losing everything in an instance. Everything was perfectly fine but the problem was, my temper took me to a no man’s land and I was not playing like I’m supposed to be. Maybe I was frustrated but to find the real answer to my anger, I will keep asking myself, “Why?” all the time… What is wrong with me today?

Well, in a game, there is always no right or wrong answer. My own perceptions towards various issues can be different from what others think. Not trying to pin-point or saying names but in my own view, things are changing. Our team is not like the team we are before. As people goes missing and the numbers decreasing, it is impossible to play as a team like before. Soccer is a game of teamwork but if one wants to be the one who gets the credit, being selfish seems to be wrong after all. How many times did you ever think of your teammates while you get the ball? One or two times, with more than 5 shots been made?

By then, I don’t feel like playing at all. If one wants to get the credit, I don’t mind, just go ahead and do it. Adam and Nan were talking to me, asking me what was wrong with me today but I replied nothing. If I voice it out, displeasure will be shown in front of me. So why should I voice out when things are already not working at all??!! I guess everyone in the team, not the guys like Nan, Szaywan or Adam but the rest of us… The gang… There isn’t any communications in the game anymore. If you are thinking I’m wrong, then I have nothing to say. However, use this example, compare the times we played against C.C.C. and the playing we have now, any difference?

Nan was telling me to drop the ‘Goal tally’ crap since its not working at all. I guess everyone wants to score goals; some for their love ones whereas some for the sensational feeling. I don’t have anything to achieve at the moment while scoring but if being the lead of this annual competition of ours makes one happy, just go ahead without me then. I mean, everyone is scoring goals and no one is doing their part as a TEAM, playing will be boring by now. If things wont change, nothing is solved.

All I requested is a bit of teamwork and not having the competition we have internally as a stepping stone for all our individualistic doings. Everyone does mistakes, so does I. Maybe reading this is a piece of crap to you and all my wrongdoings will start bombarding into your mind. Well, I know my mistakes and I have learnt, yet trying to continue this learning each time I play. Jack always shouted “Passing!! Passing!!” I did it finally with more teamwork is done. Though selfish at times and greedily for a winning goal, there is a still some improvements made.

Therefore, ask yourself if you are playing the game as a team, or an individual, not about the passing, not about the scoring but the set-pieces and shooting opportunities you have done for today. Reflect! That’s a simple thing we can do to improve and learn. I’m doing it, so can you.

Well, no biasness for this entry and I’m not shooting on anyone. If you think it’s you, then it is you. If you don’t, then that’s good. In a game, once a match is over, it’s over, no point stressing yourself too much. I did stress too much but after a clear mind, I was wrong. What matters most is I must learn to control my temper the next time I play. Well, it’s all in the mind, isn’t it?

As the journey for 2007 ends, people tend to set their targets and goals that they wish to achieve for the next year. Resolution!! That’s what I’m talking about, not verbally but through the typing. It is easy to set your own resolutions for the New Year but how about doing it and achieving it? It takes one’s perseverance to ensure that such promises will be made, whether its mentally, physically or physiologically.

While for me, attaining goals have been a big problem during the past. I still remembered lividly that my Secondary school teacher would ask us to write out our list of resolutions for the New Year and everyone will start writing this sentence; “I will make sure that I score well for my exams this year…” Wow!! What happens if we wrote other stuff like, completing my computer games that I had bought last week? I guess my teacher will kill us after seeing that. In fact, the whole crap over here means that during my Secondary school days, there is no such thing as a real resolution done by me. I tried to follow but due to the consequences that I would get if I decide to forgo the goals that I have “set it myself”. Come to think about it again, without Ms. Lee’s (Form Teacher) scolding, I don’t think I can get such results for my ‘N’ and ‘O’ levels, coming to this stage of being one of the students of Sport and Wellness Management. Anyway Ms. Lee, thanks for the terror and torture that you gave me for the past few years. Do hate it yet it hurts!! LOL!!

Since this is going to be my first time creating my own resolutions, I guess I will need to think of something realistic, to ensure that I can attain them within the 360 days that is left for now. 360 days seems to be a long journey but compared to last year, 365 days was like a few months. The Chinese always say “时间是宝贵的!” while I believe in my own philosophy, which is “时间是拿来浪费的!” Even as I matured over the years, I think that no matter how precious or boring time is to us, if we can do things that are to be done within that period of time, which is an achievement that we had made in life. Fighting against time is always a challenge to me and to be the best, you got to beat the time.

Here I go, with all my resolutions for the New Year.

To be punctual at all times
(Probably this is the worst thing that I have done in my life. Punctuality is always unavailable in my mind and I have to learn it, through torture or fun. The only thing I can be excused for being late is according to my own priorities. By doing so, I get to understand the importance of being on time, as well as enjoying life to the fullest through fun and hard work. Hope so…)

Scoring goals wherever I go
(Soccer is part of my life and it won’t be easy to say quit. Since playing soccer in my secondary school, I did learn a lot and change in many ways, whether it’s the play or the bond that I have with the team. Scoring goals is one sensation that no one can describe and for me, a target of 50 goals will be enough for this year, no matter where I go and play with. This is not part of the ‘Goal Tally’ that my gang’s having but its just part of my own records. Like Shuai Xun has did, some things must be achieved by yourself, then you will feel the achievements that you have made.)

Understanding FASHION
(It will be one of the difficult tasks for me to handle. Fashion is not my favourite thing I look upon in the past but as one matures, their mentality deepens and developed. I’m losing out to fashion, one way or another. In the past, I don’t seem to care about my looks and my dressing but as I get older, things have changed. With the aid from my friends, I guess its time for me to do some shopping and understand what are the nice clothes that suites most of my age group.)

Studies!! An ‘A’ grade please!!
(I’m not asking for all ‘A’s but I just wish that I could get another ‘A’ grade for my academic results. Although it is not easy to get such a result in Polytechnic life but at least, I’m will strive my best and score high for my studies. I only managed to get my first ‘A’ grade last year, after being in this course for a year and a half??!! Gosh!! Time to study hard and play hard I guess…)

Singing goes smoothly
(As all V.E. members will know, my singing is always the ‘best’ among all. I mean, I tend to go haywire these days while singing. I guess I didn’t rest my voice enough or I’m using the wrong techniques to sing. Well, I don’t know what is wrong with me but I guess, singing the right method and less shrieking noises should be cut down from me. Haha… Time to buck up!!)

Alright, I guess these are the major resolutions that I should be having. Hope I will endure the whole year with all these targets and make sure I’m going to achieve them. Happy 2008!! Tomorrow’s gonna be a new day and its time to start anew!! =]

Any plans for the New Year??!! Well, I have no idea what are my plans or resolutions for this year. I was too lazy to come out with some resolutions for 2008, maybe one resolution that I can have is not to be lazy? I dont know.

Well, New Year's Day is always a happy day for many. For students like me, it is a gift for most of us; a day to stay away from school and preparations for those who's having their ICAs for the coming weeks. While for working adults, its a day to accompany their family members and friends. Below are the pictures that Shuai Xun had taken when the fireworks at Esplanade kicks off. Moreover, there are pictures of those who were there. Here's 4 pictures that I've got from him, thanks Dude!! =D



























Well, the pictures tells it all!! Hmmm... A new year and full of obstacles ahead. I dont know will I be able to overcome it but I will give my very best!! Haha...

During the late afternoon, I went to meet Auntie Emily at White Sands. I treated her sotong balls (her favourite) while she treated me Strawberry Kiwi Sorbet. Its my first time trying that it taste really nice. Hmmm... Compared to Strawberry Milktea, it will be the better option as its ice blended. Cool!! The sorbet was enough for me that I didnt feel like having my dinner once I reached home. Haha... Anyway, thanks Auntie Emily for the treat.

Planning for the notice board seems to be a difficult task for me today. It is not easy to gather the rest to turn up for the discussion but luckily, Winnie, Auntie Emily, Li Fen and Ben were there. Nothing much was changed but some modifications have been done. I guess tomorrow I gonna hunt for some stuff at the bookshop for the decorations of the notice board. Hmmm... Let me see... They are:

-> Stick-on pads (paper form)
-> Bluetach
-> Pictures (updated ones)
-> Cardboard (treble clef)
-> Paint (for background and treble clef)
-> Glitter

Year 2008 is here and I'm gonna be busy for tomorrow. Well, not that busy compared to the rest but I guess, I should be ready soon for school. School's starting on the 7th of January. After that, my holidays should be in June. No breaks and no time to waste!! Well, let me enjoy my 'last' week of holidays this week. Haha...

Before its time everyone gets ready for the new year, we will always cherish the past that we had for 2007. As for me, I will need to blog a few stuff before I can throw all the memories of 2007 to one side and start anew for 2008!!

Saturday was supposed to help the SPT members on their basketball event but I was eventually late. I'm really sorry about it. Anyway, I helped the group to the preparations before the game starts. Mopping the floor was quite tough as it was impossible to dry the floor, especially when the ground is not even and the water keeps flowing back in all the time. Well, at least I get to learn some stuff about refereeing in Basketball.

Most of all, I realised that my actions are rather slow this time. The person asked us to cover our ears as he wanted to blow the whistle but I failed to do so. I ended up being the one who was deaf for the next few seconds. Gosh!! Well, before the event ends, I rushed back to Sembawang to celebrate Jonathan's birthday.

Jonathan's BBQ party was quite fun but I was just standing there, dazing all the time. I was very tired and I guess I wanted to watch Man Utd's match. Too bad, they lost but its alright. I mean, these things is unpredictable. Haha... Well, I managed to eat some food, as well as working out with a midnight jog. Since everyone were busy with the eating and I really wish to jog or play soccer, I just ran at the track across the blocks and managed to run about a kilometre or two. Its really fun, especially it relaxes my body muscles and makes me stress free!! =]

Sunday was back to work, at the swimming complex at Yishun. I was not in the mood for blowing the whistle, warning the people and many other tasks. Reason was quite simple; weather was hot and probably its bad luck, I scratched the sunglasses that my coach given it to me for work. Gosh!! How bad can the day be??!! At least I have my entire breaktime, throwing darts while eating my food at the same time. Dont worry, its a burger so its quite easy to manage while throwing darts. Haha...

Monday was the last day of 2007. During the afternoon, I met Jimmy first to pass him the thumbdrive he needs before meeting Auntie Emily at AMK Hub for lunch. Auntie Emily was really good with vegetables, as she had a lecture for me on what kind of vegetables to buy in the future, probably its to remind me, what vegetables suites her when I prepare any food for her. LOL!! Kidding...

V.E. was next and it ended early as the temperature in the room was very bad. The air condition was not working but we managed to sing for 2 hours. We survive the heat!! Haha... Most of us managed to go to Marina Square for the outing that was planned on the spot. Phew!! I thought we were going to AMK Hub again for dinner!! Haha... Luckily we didnt.

Alright, who was there for the outing??!! The list of people are here:

Emily, Kah Hong, Benjamin, Shuai Xun, Cai Yun, Pauline, Yvonne, Li Dan, Yi Tian, Winnie, Suii... and of cause... ME!!! =P

Alright, we had dinner at Marina Square before some gaming at the arcade. Auntie Emily was a pro in this whacking game. I dont know whats the game called but it sure does show that girl power's dominance. Haha... Once gaming was over, we went to buy some food before heading to an empty area that we found outside Esplanade to get ready to watch the fireworks. The time was 8.40pm I guess. That was an early arrival...

Since there's nothing to do, "Five-Ten" was the best game to be played and everyone seemed to enjoy themselves. With me shouting for each person's turn to take place, I'm actually losing my voice soon. Haha... The one who guessed it correct will need to have the players from both of his or her side to eat the packets of biscuits prepared for the game. Haha... I ate a few but seriously, fun was the real factor that brings the game to it toll!

Auntie Emily and Li Dan left and we waited till it was time for the fireworks display. It was beautiful but I guess, its a pity for those who didnt watch it just now. I mean, its very rare for Singaporeans to see fireworks display live!! Hence, there is always a next year to watch it live. What matters most is everyone enjoys themselves and make sure that all unhappy memories in 2007 is being thrown away, starting 2008 afresh and make sure that life is being cherished to its fullest. =]

Well, I guess its time to say goodnight for now!! 4.10am in the morning is no joke at all. Haha... Auntie Emily was tired for the past few days... exhausted from work, insufficient sleep and other reasons. I'm not gonna mention all or else she's gonna kill me. Haha... Anyway, hope you enjoy the outing for New Year's Eve.... Later's there is work for you to attend so rest more!!! =]

While for me, I will be sleeping at home, like a pig. Haha... Not only resting myself for having sleepless nights, I guess injuries that I suffered for the past few days need more time to heal. Haha... Its just some minor pains like wrist pain, kneecap pain, chest pain... yeah!! Small ones indeed but wont let me die so easily!! Haha... OOpS!! Hope someone doesnt kill me after seeing this. LOL!!

So long, 2007!! Here comes 2008!! New Year!! New Challenges... Its time to strive hard and do my best!!! Never give up!!! YAAHHOOOO!!!! =D

1st - Eugene - 22 goals

2nd - Jimmy - 20 goals

3nd - Wei Teck - 18 goals

4th - Gavin - 5 goals

5th - Jack Long - 4 goals

6th - Jia Long - 1 goal

7th - Jonathan - 0 goal

7th - Kian Wee - 0 goal


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Winner of 2007: Eugene (22 goals)
Runner-up: Jimmy Yeo (20 goals)
2nd Runner-up: Wei Teck ~ Nic (18 goals)