It’s been a tough journey going back home today. I was yawning with Siew Boon while boarding the train back home. Come to think again, once he yawned, it was my turn next, and it goes on for every few minutes and vice versa. We both are tired and seriously, the fact that ‘Yawning is contagious’ is indeed true. Great! Fact proven! =P

Well, for this week, it has been quite hectic for most of us. I don’t know how the rest of the Bodywatch Crew think but the schedule is really a crazy one. I’m not saying it’s anyone’s fault for that but maybe, my body is not willing to adapt to such changes. My fault I guess?! Well, working in the afternoon shift yesterday and today for morning, which goes on for the past few days with such concept? Gosh! This week really sucks to the core!

Anyway, I will need to thank for these 4 people; Benjamin, Kah Hong, Paul and Ping Ding! Thanks for you all for helping me in my Physical Fitness Assessment for this week, I guess I would need to find another 4 more before I can relax and concentrate on other mattes for Bodywatch Gym. Anyway, I don’t know will you guys enjoy the test but I hope that its not an insult to your health status. You guys are really providing a great help for me to do my report. Arigato!! =]

Hmmm… Well, I don’t have anything much to type here but all I could say, these days are really enjoyable in the gym. The rest were playing ‘Wahjong’ as I was busy with my stuff. Siew Boon managed to attract a guy from nowhere to chat with him online, who seems to assume that Siew Boon is a girl. It’s because Siew Boon’s nickname will make someone thinks that he’s a girl. Anyway, all the cheeky questions came out until Siew Boon told the truth in the end, which made the guy, replied a ‘No’ to his request. Sounds like any typical Singaporean guy who looks for typical women like womanizers. I’m not that type! I swear, that’s because I’m not a womanizer. Haha…

Oh yeah, Auntie Emily got a new job at Vivo City. I’m not sure with the name of the shop but one thing is for sure, it is gonna be a store that sells candies. That is going to be a bad sign if everyday she brings back a new packet of candies home for consumption, maybe for breakfast, lunch or dinner? AR!!! I just need to pray hard and hope it won’t happen… =.=”

What matters most is that she is careful when she works at her new workplace. Not to be so blur and careless. I guess I’m just too worried about her adapting her new job but I shall not control much. Zzz… I really miss someone here, especially when we didn’t manage to see each other in person for the past few days. Haix… Luckily we can have dinner together tomorrow with rest of the V.E. members. =P

Alright, time to sleep! Too tired to continue… ZZzz…


新的工作 = 没时间陪伴彼此

也许见面的时间少了,
或思念的日子也久了.
我还是对你说这些话...
“不管之间的距离是如此的遥远,
只要闭上你那双温柔的大眼睛,
你就能看见我在你的面前出现,
在你身旁给你最温暖的拥抱,
让你知道世上也有个小笨笨
一直在想着你…”

Working for the entire day on Saturday morning till night is a torture. After a ‘great’ lesson learnt from yesterday, I guess I will reconsider of having work at the swimming pool in the afternoon, and having my morning shift in the school gym for my attachment.

Well, just a summary of what had, my Mum WOKE ME UP AGAIN at 6.30am to WASH MY CLOTHES (Damn… Why is it always early in the morning?!!) My blood was boiling at that moment and I have no choice but to say all the “XYZ” in my mind. I mean, can’t she do it tomorrow or later, why early in the morning? -.-“

I end up sleeping during my attachment, I managed to survive for an hour but knocked out. Once attachment was over, I went to have my lunch before heading to Yishun Swimming Complex for work again. It was unbearable but too bad, I must persevere! I managed to finish the whole torture at 9pm. With a nice shower, packed up my stuff, head for dinner and then home. Gosh! It is tiring… I wanted to watch Manchester United match that night but ended up falling asleep. In the end, I woke up to switch off the laptop… Zzz…

Anyway, I went to meet Auntie Emily today to Sim Lim to buy my laptop cover. Since I need it urgently as I don’t want to carry any heavy stuff to school everyday, I decide to buy a cover to use my bare hands and hold the stupid laptop of mine. I had bad shoulder pains these days due to carrying too much heavy stuff. Anyway, once I bought my laptop cover, we head to Bugis Junction to buy tickets for ‘L: Change the World’. Since we had 2 hours to spare, we had our meal at Yoshinoya, and then do some window shopping around the mall.

One incident happened while I was queuing to buy the food. There’s this young boy who was not looking where his Dad was, thought that I was his Dad. Without looking at me, he first tuck on my pants and started to pull. I thought he know he was with the wrong guy but guess what, he still didn’t know who am I. He hugged my leg, as if I was an elephant, going to lift my passenger for a ride… LOL… Luckily he looked at a direction and saw his Dad, or else he would be my adopted son by then. =P

After going to the bookstore, then take some NeoPrints, we finally went to watch the movie. It was a nice movie but if anyone is expecting to see the Death God, then you are not going to like this movie. This movie is more about the intelligence of L and how he cracks the case of the plaguing of virus case. Interesting and seriously, I do enjoy myself. Once everything was done, we head straight back home.

As usual, I’m tired by now and I need to rest. However, the only thing that makes me worried the most is Auntie Emily. She’s having all the strange pains again and I don’t know what to do with her. V.E. peeps, do you guys have any idea to get her see a doctor? Help?!! Zzzz… Someone’s gonna kill me now… Haha…

Alright, time to end now. Oh! Before I end, I just want to make a comment here. Te Seng’s case is now under the investigations of the Police. It maybe a simple suicide but his Dad suspects of other stuff have happened. Is it a plain suicide or a so-call murder? Now that’s a twist of the story…

As usual, attachment was a killer to me today as I was tired. Shagged of course! Imagine I had afternoon shift the day before and today with a morning shift, plus collecting the keys from the SA Office.

Well, we had soccer together as there is nothing to do much for WHP. Since NAPFA program is not really up yet and we really have not come up with any plans to build up the membership for the Gym, Ladies Hour and other activities, it will be good if we have some exercise to release some stress from our mind.

I managed to score 2 goals today in school, one from a header while the other is a tap-in. I have plenty of chances to score but failed to do so. Anyway, once soccer was over, I met Auntie Emily in school and we head to Bishan for dinner. PastaMania was a good place, compared to the other food outlets available. I don’t know what suites her taste so I end up choosing PastaMania then.

Anyway, thanks for Auntie Emily for her gift; a key chain for my keys; which was a Valentine gift from her. Thanks! =] I shall post a picture soon that what she had given me. =P

After that, I went back to SOCCER again, this time with Eugene and gang. Hakim turned up whereas the rest like Jack, Sion and Fitry didn’t. I was waiting for my turn to play in the game but it was a long wait before I substituted with Adam. I didn’t score any goals, just a few tries but tried to play hard to win the game. Why is this so? I just want to use this chance to play hard, just for a beloved friend of mine who had passed away few days ago. This is a tribute to him and the team does well, played hard, score hard, win hard…

I went to MacDonalds with the rest but didn’t ate anything before I head to Shu Yun’s block to past some stuff for Charissa’s birthday scrapebook. While walking along the dark pathway towards the block, I was feeling quite uneasy. In front of me was Te Seng’s block and soon, you get to see the garbage section, which it was told to be the place where he was found. I mean, there are such things as ghost and I do believe in it but what if I do faced one? I was thinking too much but if I do get to see him again, the only question that I would want to ask him is the truth of what happened that day…

Staring down from Shu Yun’s house was the view of Te Seng’s block and the garbge section. It was dark but I guess, the stains (I don’t know since its dark…) are still there. Are there any witnesses who saw the whole scene? Does anyone know why did he do this? It still does remain a mystery but one thing that I know for now is, he’s gone. The images keep flashing through my mind and it is hard to forget him instantly. It takes time… I need time…

Alright, time to rest now. Attachment from 9am to 1pm and soon, working at Yishun Swimming Complex from 2.30pm to 9pm. Gosh! Life sure sucks once you step into the real world… X_X

Alright, back from home... =] However, I'm not done yet. I have not showered and I guess I shall do some short entry before I end my day. I'm too lazy to blog but never mind, I shall do it now.

Anyway, I recieved Ms Lee's message just now about her concern about Amirul. I know the news of the late Te Seng is saddening but I hope all my friends from 5N3 and 1N1, do stay strong no matter what. I'm feeling the sadness of the lost but I told myself to be who I am today onwards and I did it. So, do have a positive attitude towards life from now on.

Anyway, I just want to post a last picture of my dearest friend, so-called "Itachi" (the only character that we used when we played Naruto) Buddy, with god bless, rest in peace Dude. =]

Our late comrade; Tay Te Seng

I was late for attachment today. Reason for that, I was meeting V.J. to get the necessary stuff that Siew Boon needs to use for the next 8 weeks of attachment under the Maintanence department. Well, I still manage to buy my breakfast from Canberra Secondary so I wont starve while I work.

I realised that for the past 3 days of working in the Gym, there isn't any stress for me. I guess I was not enforcing the ground rules for the gym too much. Talking about rules reminds me of what Jackson had told me during lunch today, about him creating some ground rules, that even the Bodywatch Crew should obey. Come to think again, I guess it is necessary for the Bodywatch crew to have some rules to obey, so things are done in a proper manner. Now, this makes me wonder if I should implement the change tomorrow... =

Well, I slacked for the entire afternoon doing nothing, at least having some editing on my 40 Exercises report and helping Farhan to create a map to the Gym. Other than that, I was not doing anything much. Well, at least Auntie Emily is playing Paintball now, which seems to be a fun game... Haix... How I wish to try Paintball once but the chances will come.. when I'm in for National Service. -.-"

Oh yeah!!! Zara's birthday is today and everyone celebrated with her by helping her to make up and tie her hair. Her picture will not be posted over here but seriously, I will post it once someone bluetooth it to me. =P With the beauty make-up, she was dragged to walk to the North Canteen and back to the Swimming pool, before being thrown to the water. Haha... poor gal but anyway, Happy Birthday, hope you enjoy the mini celebration from us to you. =]

Alright, I shall see if I want to blog later when I'm home. Now there's no one in the gym and I gonna do some workout. See ya!! =P

Its 11.40pm right now but as you look at the time of this entry being posted, it is exactly 3.00pm. Yes! This post is just for a friend of mine, a friend of ours... Anyway, I only slept for 2 hours the night before as I my mind was full of memories. The past of what we have done and what we enjoyed.

I'm tired by now but I guess his parents will be more depressed than me. What matters most is from now on, all of us shall learn to move on. Although sadness affects our day today, we must look at the bright side no matter what, cheer up mates...

"致：跟我就此永別的學生，

生命仲是在你不在意時丟出一稞手留彈，炸得你遍體凌傷。
在我感覺幸福快樂時突然起了變化，讓我覺得有點無助有點無奈。
完全想像不到的事即然發生了。

我無法明白，也無法解識，為何會發生。

他本來可以擁有很多很多生命帶給他的無數回憶
他本來還有很長的人生道路可以走下去
他本來可以擁有自己創造未來的夢想
但這已是過去，已是遺撼，已是悲傷的記憶。

我會永遠記得他那帶點灰色感覺的文章
我會永遠記得他那帶點哲學的思考角度的文字
我會永遠記得他那帶點文學家的憂愁
我會永遠記得他對閱讀的沉迷
我會永遠記得他對學習的執著和熱情

我會永遠記得他承今是讓我驕傲的學生。

（寫到這里，我終於感覺到眼淚已流下，原來我不是那麼理智的，原來我終於開始面對自己的悲傷，也開始整理自己的心情面對明天。。。。）"

- Extracted entry from Ms Lee's blog, to her beloved student...

As today is the cremating of his body, once the clock ticks to that time; 3.00pm, the time will halt for an entire 60 seconds before one minute is up. All I could do is say a slient prayer to a dear friend of mine...

I miss you Dude... R.I.P. Te Seng... =\

Offline Message Recieved:

err.. dunno wad time uncle nic will be back today, if u are working morning shift tmr, better hav enough rest wor. dun sleep too late. dun wan you to get tired. erm.. if got anything give msg mi ba.. i think i going offline le.. i'm tired. Sorry arh. can't wait for you to be online today =( haiz.. if u got anything unhappy that happened today, if u wan share with mi de hua i'm ok with it can be uncle nic listening ear. always here for you de ok XD

wan an le..

Sleep early arh

=)



*** All I could say to you is, sorry for making you worried. Lastly, I miss you alot and I love you...

When a piece of news is spread, the first thing you will ask yourself is whether that is a prank or not. However, when you check back to reality and realized that it was a fact, you will be asking yourself, how would you accept this piece of news…

“…一句话掉一滴泪, 今晚的我会是如何入睡…”

- JJ林俊杰　（原来）

This song was written by my favourite singer and composer, JJ Lin, and this piece of lyrics describes my feelings at that period of time. It’s hard to console myself while talking on the phone with Kian Wee as tears just flow out like a totally-filled dam had an explosion, with its water gushing through its gate, flooding the city with great destruction. Of course, the destruction for me is not getting myself being soaked with tears but the acceptance of the bad news.

The first phone call came when I was on the way back to the gym with my lunch pack. Eugene was the one through the phone, and when he told me the news, I thought it was a joke. He told me to check the papers and I could feel that he was serious after all.

From a slow pace to full speed, I ran all the way to the North Canteen and buy the newspaper to look out for any news. I failed to see any news and called back again. Yet, this time, the news was harsher then ever. I could not believe in it and decided to call the person with the main source; Kian Wee. Indeed, it was true, and I kneeled down, with my fists clenched and I folded my arms as I cried softly at the pathway, while the rest of the students were having their examinations on the first storey.

Never would I believe that this would happen. A true comrade of Class 5N3 has fallen; who was rumored to have plunged to his death. The reason behind for his actions still remains a mystery. Mates of mine in the gym consoled me as I cried out loud when I was at the gym balcony. The feeling was terrible and I just could not hide it when V.J. was talking to me. I tried to call the rest of my classmates from my Secondary School to inform them about the news… Some able to get through, some couldn’t.

Once lesson was over in the gym, I was kept busy with all the messaging and calls from friends as we prepared to gather together to see our beloved friend. When everyone was at the wake, I was just controlling my tears, like what Kian Wee was doing for the entire evening. I could see the brave image that the Mum of my fallen comrade was putting on, while the Dad seems to be at a relax manner but seems to not accepting the fact at all.

I was the first one to lead the group to the wake, also the first one to plant the incense joist stick on the pot, with his picture placed in front of my very own eyes. I feel like crying but still holding back. Everyone was discussing about the cause of his death while we gathered on the table. Harsh but true; he’s gone and will not be back anymore.

We waited and more people came. Schoolmates such as Kenny, Jun Yao, Sion and many more had turned up. Mr Siva and a few teachers had turned up. Ms Lee was there too, which was a shocking thing. We just had a greeting of hellos and never talked much. I guess it was not a good idea to talk about any stuff about academics, especially when the fallen comrade of ours was once her promising student, who has a great prospect of attaining high achievements in life.

Well, once everything was done, with the waiting for 3 hours for all friends of ours to turn up, some of us went for a dinner at Thomson Road, which was Prata. It was tasty but when Eugene asked me if I’m ready to delete his number, I just could not do it. Maybe it was not the time to put it aside or maybe, I just can’t put it aside. Once dinner was over, it was time for home and to get some rest.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day, for everyone close to me. It lets me understand how important life is to me, especially loving the ones close to you. That is why I don’t have any close friends in my heart, as everyone around me is the ones I cherished. Regrets are the part and parcel of life but whether to move on, that is the only question that I have not decided in my mind.

When people leave us, it will be the memories that we had together that stayed. While for this friend of mine, the scars and pain will make me remember him. He’s the one who caused me a fractured tailbone, the one who teaches me History when I’ve difficulties in class, the one who will be motivating me when I’m doing Trigonometry for Maths lesson, the one who will always be the boss of the class with huge strength, the one who knows I like singing a lot and calling me a “Singapore Idiot” all the time… the one… the only one…

I have enough of crying and once tonight’s over, I will be a better person and move on with things that are right now in its state. I guess this Friday’s soccer will be getting more friends of ours to come over and play with. As Eugene and I had suggested among us, the games we played will be a tribute to our dear friend in Heaven. All goals will still be counted in the Tally but what matters most is, we play hard, we score hard and we win hard, just for you. =]

For now, its time to rest and lastly, to the fallen comrade of 5N3, who’s pen is always mightier than the sword, rest in peace. I hate to say this though this might sound gay to you but Dude, I love you!! Rest well…

Gathering at Eugene’s house is a good idea as most of us hardly get to meet each other every week. The only ones that I get to see are Eugene, Jimmy and sometimes, Jack. While for the rest, it will take some chance of fate to get us meet on that day. Hence, thanks to Eugene for organizing this gathering for all of us for the Chinese New Year though some didn’t attend.

Well, let me start the sequence of events that occurred since Saturday morning then. I met Eugene and Jimmy at Yishun MRT Station for soccer, whereas Jack couldn’t make it as his leg was hurting. Well, off we went to the street soccer court and I managed to score 2 goals at the end of 5 matches, which took me about 3 to 4 hours for the day. That is frustrating enough as we need to wait for our turns, approximately 30 minutes a game?! Gosh!! That’s indeed very long… =.=”

Eugene was frustrated during the game as our teammates, who we do not know who they are, were playing typical soccer, primary school style. Instead of the normal passing techniques, all they did was kicking the ball hard and tackled the ball as a group, which I think the game was not really fun by then. Without passing and continuous shooting for glory, I guess I be the ball-picker instead for the game. Anyway, tackles were flying around and I did hurt my ankle but glad to say, it’s just a knock. It will take a few days to heal, so Auntie Emily, don’t worry alright?!! =X

I went back home, had a shower and went to met Auntie Emily, before heading to Eugene’s house. I was having this terrible headache, which I probably got it for being under the sun for too long. Once we were in Eugene’s house, I went to have my ‘breakfast’ while Auntie Emily was reading her magazine and newspapers. I felt bad for letting her to be alone while I was playing Mahjong with the rest. Haix… I tried to persuade her to join me but failed. Next time I guess I gonna use a magnet to ‘attract’ her to join me… Haha… >_<

Soon, Jack and Nicole came but I couldn’t do the introductions to them, until Kian Wee came, which was like past an hour ago and we were eating??!! -.-“ Alright, it was my bad for the late introduction but at least I still did it. Anyway, Kian Wee was quite ‘blur’ when he came in. He walked around and was near the table for nearly a few minutes but yet did not spot Auntie Emily. Haha… I guess he forgot to wear his contact lenses that day. =]

Well, Black Jack time!! I managed to win a few strikes with an Ace and a Ten, earning my cash of a few dollars. I did felt bad that I didn’t be the banker that day but at least, I gave my share for the Toto that the guys are buying next week. Just chipping in the amount will also make them feel better, isn’t it? I hope so… Anyway, it was quite fun, especially when Auntie Emily and I got a strike at the same time. Coincidence… Haha…

Although we left early from Eugene’s house, I think it was a bad idea to leave after winning the money. Anyway, hope they won’t have any bad view of us backing out. Its just that I don’t wish Auntie Emily to be late for her gathering at her Grandma’s house, while for me, going back home and rest with that stupid headache that is affecting my day. Haix… That is why I didn’t manage to turn up at Jia Long’s house to watch the match between Manchester Unite and Arsenal.

Talking about that match, Manchester United won 4-0!! I don’t know what Jimmy’s reaction is but what I messaged him when I went home came true; Man Utd will win! Haha… Just be fair and square, Arsenal’s squad was not perfect at all. Hence, the win was quite obvious but when it comes to the Premier League, it will be different. =]

Alright, Saturday was fun enough to be described into one whole chunk of crap. Today was boring, staying at home and was doing some packing, which was done around 8 plus in the night. All I could say that I have too much clothes in my wardrobe (picture below), however, I gonna past some of them for my Uncles, as well as my Mum to wear it as I seldom wear them. Let’s not waste these clothes right??!! Hehe..



Alright, that’s all for now. Tomorrow is Auntie Emily’s exam!! Good luck to you!! 加油!! Don’t give up! =P

I just came back home from my attachment in the gym, as well as a short 15 minutes of soccer at Sembawang. I just feel like playing soccer these days as I’m tempted to run around, just like a kid. I guess my hyperactive cells could not control themselves, so I need to exercise, maybe sweat it out to make myself happy. =]

Anyway, just some update about the past few days. I went to Auntie Emily’s house on Wednesday to accompany her for breakfast. I guess next time if her family is away for overseas, I will need to meet her out just for her to eat something. By doing so, at least I can make her get fat by a few kilograms weekly. =] Once we eaten, she went for her work whereas I went back for my attachment.

Nothing happened much during my attachment that day but once I went back home, I started to do some brownies to prepare for the next day; Valentines Day. Anyway, I forget about that!! V.J.!! Thanks for the buying of the chocolates!! I guess that was a good gift for her, as well as for me. Thanks a lot!

Thursday came and it’s VALENTINES DAY!! I carried quite some stuff to school and was feeling quite irritated with the bulky stuff in my bag. It’s not the gifts but the laptop and the clothes for changing. Haix… I need a BIG bagpack for that. Well, I treated my team members the brownies. Also, Da Jie (Shi Pei) gave me the cookies that I’m supposed to share with Auntie Emily. Thanks Da Jie…

I met Auntie Emily at 6.30pm and we went to Ajisan Ramen at Douby Ghout for dinner. She ate only the fish slices while I ate my spicy ramen meal. It was spicy but I don’t know why I ordered it. I like spicy stuff but don’t really know how to enjoy the taste of eating spicy food. Once done, we walked around Plaza Singapura before we head home. We wanted to have a Neo-print but failed to do so. It is too bad that we cant find the machine, maybe next time… =]

Anyway, it was a nice night for me, especially it’s my first Valentine’s Day with someone special. I mean, normally, I went out with a bunch of friends for dinner on this day. You can call it a Friendship Day or Valentines Day but what matters most are having a meal with someone who is special in your heart is really a unforgettable experience. Thanks Auntie Emily… =]

Alright, tomorrow there’s soccer at 9 plus at Yishun. Time to get some rest and get refresh for tomorrow. =]

我敢承认我不是个百分之百的浪漫情人
也敢承认没给你心中的那完美的情人节
但我敢承认的是…
不管你在哪,有多遥远,
我们的之间就像个无断的线,
两个心,联合成一.
就象童话故事一样,
在一起的日子,一致持续…

When you are angry, it is always best to stay calm and do what you have to do first before you vent your frustration on someone else. To me, anger management is my worst task that I could ever overcome in my entire life. I know I myself have a bad temper and if you don’t know me well, then too bad when you disturbed me and got all the nonsensical yelling as I vent my anger on you.

I just wanted to do something by myself, just this tiny bit of thing which I think that it’s worthwhile to do it for tonight. Yet, with my Mum’s profuse naggings, it just makes my blood boil and I was trying to stay cool all the way. Then Dad came home and asked a few questions and assisted me to do this and that, which I find it quite boring, especially when my mood was already been spoilt. With more disturbance, I had warn Dad about I’m gonna blast soon or later and PLEASE go away, don’t disturb me. Yet, he didn’t and he got what he wanted; a yell from me. He may feel angry and yell back to me for being disrespectful but at least, I did have the courtesy to talk to you nicely again and ask you to go away. I don’t mean it but too bad, I warn you and the hazard cautions are treated as nothing. Hence, it’s not my fault at all.

One point that I really wish to tell my parents is that I’m soon to be a 20 year old guy, with a brain of my own, life of my own, soul of my own and choices of my own. I do not think its necessary for both of my parents, to be conscious with my doings. I mean, its time I should fly with my wings and not still under your care. At least, give me the chance to do some stuff that I like or wish to do, don’t object my decisions. Let me have the taste of failure before you guide me back to the right path again, which is why lessons are learnt, right?

I really wish to say sorry but words just could not come out from my mouth. The words are in the mind and soul, which I guess, I don’t wish to continue my actions anymore. Morale of the story is, whatever caution that is given to you, one can chose to obey it or do what you prefer to do. However, when things happened, you should face the consequences and not blame it on others. It’s you who choose your own path to such things that happened.

Learn to respect my decisions, and not showing your care through naggings. Times have changed so am I. I am still your little cute son that has grown right in front of you throughout the many years but I am not the same old son, who has the little intelligence while doing the stuff I like. Meaning, I’ve matured and nurtured… Trust me…


** Sorry for the bad mood but Happy Valentines Day to all. I shall be alright tomorrow… =]

Working Attachment in the Bodywatch Gym is sort of a fun thing. You get to work out a little when you are bored, or maybe just use your laptop and enjoy some games to kill the boredom. It’s been 2 days since I’m attached in the gym and seriously, I don’t feel that I’m ready for the job as the Admin.

Maybe it was just the beginning of the whole gym attachment thingy and I might not be used to it. I prefer to do something, rather than doing nothing at all. I admit that I’ve been in school playing my Pro Evolution Soccer 2008 all the time and I was not serious with my work at all, I guess its time I adapt to the situation and be more focus with what I should do for my job. I always tell myself that its time to buck up but I failed to do so. Hmm… I need solutions for that, what can I do this time to motivate myself?

Anyway, just a brief summary of what I had done for the past 2 days. First day was quite messy as we had to shift everything here and there, left and right, as there was no proper allocation between the SPT members and BW members. However, afternoon was all done and we had some briefing for our jobs for the next 9 weeks on duty.

The 2nd day, which is today, was quite slack. I worked in the afternoon shift and was nearly late. I guess I need to wake up earlier for the next time to be punctual. Haha… Well, everything was changing, signages, systems and many more. Lateness problem will be very strict and no one will have an excuse for coming late for work. It sounds boring for many but rules are rules; law by law.

By night, everything was quite flexible. I was playing mahjong online with Huai Xin, Zara and Auntie Emily. Haha… Each of us did win once before we call it a day. I like working in the afternoon shift as its quite peaceful. However, I still need the boost of motivation to keep myself going for the entire 9 weeks. I guess, with today’s bubbletea that I had drunk earlier, I should be ready for tomorrow, to work hard for the day on my project and complete all reports on time.

Guess I gonna list a whole lot to remind myself to do the necessary things while in the gym:

- No playing of games during working hours. (Except for breaks)

- Ensure working counter is clean and neat at all times.

- Know where the whereabouts of all members, using the ‘Movement Chart’.

- Be alert and concentrate at all times, especially when there are meetings.

- Always aim to do important stuff during the afternoons, from 1pm to 5pm. (My most energetic period of time when comes to doing serious work)

- Plan before I have any meetings, using my own personal diary.

- Have patience with my teammates, and ensure that each member are given a job to be done in the gym. (Delegation)

- Ensure that everyone are in the right attire; staff or members; to make the gym to be at its best when showing our service standards.

- No lateness or forge of attendance in the future. Everything must be written on the time sheet.

- All tasks and collection of stuff/ SOE to be punctual at all times.


I guess that is the things I could think of for now. I cant think of anything else but maybe these are the rules I should remember myself and ensure that my job is done correctly and efficiently.

Alright, time to take a nap now...
2 more days…. =]

Day 3 of the Chinese New Year was quite boring at first. I need to work at Yishun Swimming Complex and I was really tired. Imagine working during the holidays, one will feel that his or her day was ruined. However, things start to get interesting as night fall.

Auntie Emily came to my house for steamboat! Haha… We had a few rounds of mahjong before having our meal. It was a fun time playing mahjong, since the last time I played at home should be the time when there was house warming. It was such a long time before we have our family game to be played again.

Steamboat was quite enjoyable, especially when I fooled Auntie Emily to look at the television, and once she looked at that direction, I tried to put some food on her plate. However, the interesting part was my Mum also added some food on her plate, together with me. Now this shows the chemistry my Mum and I had. Haha… Poor Auntie Emily, she needs to finish the food. =P

Although I didn’t send Auntie Emily back home, I really need to thank my Sister’s friend, Han Xiong, for sending her home with a cab. She was tired so she need more rest, or else she will be yawning all the way home. =P

Well, at least I get to meet her again on Sunday, which we were planning to watch a movie. AUNTIE EMILY WAS WEARING A DRESS! WOOT! Alright, there’s no need to have a high mood but it is really rare to see her wearing a dress for an outing. At least, this is my 2nd time to see her wear skirt-like clothing. However, I still need to admit, she looks nice with that dress. =X

We watched the movie, Ah Long Pte Ltd, which was acted by Fann Wong and Mark Lee. We didn’t get the tickets for the earlier timeslot so we watched the next one, which was 2 hours later. It was a long 2 hours as we walked around Marina Square and Suntec City until it was time for the show. Anyway, it’s a nice show as there were many funny incidents took place in the show. I enjoyed the show very much, and have many great laughs. =] Once the movie ended, I accompany Auntie Emily to buy some donuts from the Donut Factory before heading home, which is indeed a long day for us yet we enjoy it.
Alright, attachment starts today and there are lots of things to handle and settled. I guess I need to sleep more as I’m feeling tired very soon. Time to be more alert and responsible, and cant be the '笨笨' that I always be when I’m outside. I can be 笨 when I’m outside but when it comes to serious work, I must start to wake up!! =]

Motivation for the next 9 weeks, it will be tough but I’m willing to endure. Hey team, will you guys gonna join me to endure these obstacles and do well for TEP? We can do it!! Hehe…

With just 3 hours of sleep, it is not easy to survive the day with a refreshing mood. I went to the Sembawang temple in the morning with my swimming instructor, his wife and my sister. We did some praying and it is my first experience praying in that temple, even though my Secondary school was just nearby. I guess I need some time to familiarize the different parts of Sembawang, probably exploring the four corners of it with a bicyle one day. =]

Once all the praying was done, we went to the hydroponics farm to have a mini gathering with the “Goh” family. I mean, my coach’s surname is “Goh” so it’s his family’s gathering. Why am I being involved? I don’t know but all I can say is that, I was just accompanying my sister since the holidays are so bored.

Marcus, Kenrick and Jeremy were there, as well as the other kids; Christine, Chang Rong, Zhi Jie, Dawn and many more. However, I was too shy to interact with them at first but slowly, things start to build up and conversations started. Anyway, I kept sticking with Kenick and Marcus as we are the ones who could click with each other, whether it’s our interest or our perspective towards things. We are swimming mates during our training, which makes me feel that we won’t have any lost of topics while we chat.

The rest started to gamble soon after but I didn’t join in. I don’t like to gamble as I’m bad with such things. I am always a loser when its time for gamble, and I will lose quite a few dollars when playing. Hence, I told myself that I will fulfill the 3 things that I shall not do in life, maybe for now.

1) No smoking

2) No Flirting

3) No Gambling

Alright, these rules are strict but the main 2 issues are smoking and flirting. I don’t flirt but have the intention to meet new friends so don’t get the wrong idea about me. As for smoking, it will never gonna happen at all, and I assure that! =] While some of us got tired with gambling, we went for a drink (some weird fruit juice) and had a nice chat for nearly an hour, about our own stories and funny incidents we had in school. It was fun talking to Marcus and Kenrick, just as if we are good buddies.

The fun ends and I head to Jeremy’s house for visiting. I was supposed to be there at 1.30pm but reached there at 6pm. I had some games of Winning Eleven and some food before I left. It was still enjoyable overall though I have to entertain myself for the entire period. Anyway, Jeremy, it was fun, so thanks for the treat. Nice food by the way, with a good curry and Indian rice, the catering you had is excellent. =]

Alright, work is tomorrow and its time to sleep now. Hope tomorrow is a nice weather to work. Not too humid or cold, just perfect… =P

First of all, Happy Chinese New Year to everyone, especially the Chinese, who are going to visit homes and meet your dearest relatives that you have not been able to meet for the past 365 days. ( I tend to meet them once each year… =/ )That is not the interesting part!! The best part for all young people like us is OUR COLLECTION of red packets. Haha… **I’m evil!! =P

Well, I was lazy to type an entry for the past few days but finally, I have the mood now. I need to dry my hair first before I go to sleep, which is currently 4.54am in the morning of the 2nd day of the Lunar New Year. I was back from a movie at Yishun and I walked all the way back. LOL! Now my legs are like jelly, I could feel that both legs are vibrating but I just not find the ‘switch’ to off that vibration machine within my body.

Anyway, it’s gonna just be a few updates for now. I’m going to crap a few stuff about it, so here we go!

Projects are over yet attachment is starting next week. I just need to do some editing for the project for BM0085 and submit it by Monday and that’s it!! I won’t get to see that stupid project anymore. =P

I was supposed to meet Auntie Emily on Tuesday night for dinner but she had something on and so I went to Chris’s house to help her in the setting of the Chinese test paper for her students. I ended up leaving my keys at her house when I left for home. What a luck!! Luckily, Dad came home not long ago or else I gonna be sleeping outside my house for a night. -.-“

I managed to go back to Chris’s house to collect my keys the next day. Thanks to this incident, I was able to leave the house and also, to meet Auntie Emily. I actually wanted to meet her for a meal once I finished visiting my Secondary school to do some stuff but Dad (the culprit) who wanted me to do all the praying, so as Mum, hence I need to rush back home and do all the stuff. I didn’t visit any teachers as most had left the school. I was back in school to do some printing stuff for my TEP stopover stuff. Now that’s how busy I’m during the “soon-to-be” holidays…

I was pissed at first for the nonsensical reasons my Mum gave me for coming back home late. I just feel like knocking her head and yell at her but I refrain myself from doing that. Many things happened in the house that I don’t feel like praying and I was in a foul mood. Haix… But well, at least I still get to meet Auntie Emily that day after all, secretly, before heading to my Aunt’s house for reunion dinner. I felt sorry for making her waiting for me for an hour and yet I could not turn up and meet her. Now that makes me feel bad…

The day arrived and it is the 1st day of the Lunar New Year. Everyone does their visiting but while for me, I was staying at home, playing computer games (PES6) from morning till evening. I was like a no-life kiddo, which my uncle keeps questioning me why my game could not be completed. Gosh!! I wish to but ‘m addicted to the game. I guess I got to tie myself and stop my mind from playing soccer using the computer. LOL!!

I had my nap during the late evening before having my dinner at 10 plus and head down to Yishun for a movie with some friends. Oh yeah!! I managed to watch “斗牛,要不要” before I left home!! Alright, the show is quite exciting, since it’s considered action-pack when the guys do their stunts in basketball. Cool!! No wonder Auntie Emily is addicted to the show. Haha…

Anyway, movie was a… well… I don’t know. The movie was nice but I shall not name the title of the movie that we had watched. There were Kian Wee, Christina, Christine, Ivy, Reeza, Christina’s friend, Yun Ting and Yun Ting’s brother. Hmm… I ran to the cinema but ended up, they bought the tickets for 1.20am show instead of the initial plan, 12.20am. =.=” Never mind, I supposed we are watching Jack Neo’s movie but we ended up watching another movie, which stunned me for quite an hour.

Bored… Luckily, the show change my facial expression from gloomy to smile. Phew… I think the movie worth to be watched again. Funny yet touching… I didn’t sob but it was still a worthwhile movie to be watched. =] Anyway, Chris, don’t feel sad or what. I don’t mean that its your fault for such a surprise movie but it was nice. Thanks again! =]

Alright, I gonna wake up at 9 plus later to pray and all the crazy events later in the afternoon. Hehe… I guess a pig is sleeping now since there is no new message shown on my phone. Hmm… Pig!! Rest more for today since you are tired since 2 days ago till now. If you want dinner, just give me a call, I won’t mind eating with you later night… =]


虽然一天只有二十四小时,
但不代表我们天天能相见.
可是只需要不多过一小时,
彼此之间会有无限的思念.

The weather could be bad these days but at least, I still like the weather. These days, you will feel the chilling night breeze blowing through your open window. I had a wonderful night on Friday as I was able to enjoy my sleep. However, project does make a person goes insane and I’m the one who is going bonkers every minute when I glance on the project. Finally, it’s going to be over soon, which is TOMORROW!

I shall do some updates of the past few days. After visiting the National Library on Friday, I went straight to Sembawang to meet the gang for soccer. The rain was heavy but I still manage to reach my destination, thanks to the shelter around the neighborhood. As the heavy downpour turns to light drizzle, the guys decided to change their attire and head to the court for soccer. I was at first reluctant but still pulled myself all the way to the court.

Standing at the court was a terrible thing. The wind was strong and the drizzle adds on the difficulty to play a game of soccer. What matters most at that moment was the temperature. Jimmy past the ball a few times while we were training and he gave up, wanting to hide behind the lamp post for some shelter, which didn’t help much at all. I was just shivering all the way till we start up for the match.

We won the games continuously and I managed to score 2 goals; my first 2 goals for year 2008. It was a tap-in and a steal from the goalie that adds on to my tally. A 50 goal margin is not so hard at all, which depends on whether the person is willing to be determine enough to do his best in the game. I tried but I guess I need to train more. Sorry to say this but I guess I’m not fit enough for such games. My stamina is dropping and I need to improve.

Saturday was a normal day, staying at home without leaving the house at all. I had the temptation of playing soccer with Jimmy, even without Eugene’s accompany but the idea was called off when I realized that the Project Management project is waiting for me. I hate that particular module but no choice; I need to do a good job, isn’t it. I did the whole crappy thing till night and I was only half done. -.-“

Sunday was a continuation of the project and I have work during the afternoon. Luckily my Mum was smart to advice me to bring my jacket along for work. The weather turned bad and it was drizzling for the entire late afternoon. It was nice, cooling and cold. That’s all I could say for that period of time. Nice is due to the number of people turning up to swim in the pool. Cooling is that I like such weathers for naps; it makes you want to sleep more. Cold is due to my weak body that could not bear the weather. Unhealthy body has its disadvantages. I once think that I need fats to keep myself warm and increase my weight. Come to think of it again, I guess I’m too fat now, that my fats didn’t aid in keeping me warm after all. -.-“

Once I was back at home, I was rushing my project again till 4am, where all my members were sleeping. I was dying and my head was aching but I preserved to move on. I tried to sleep but failed to have a nice nap. The project guidelines are circulating round my mind and I was sick and tired of a stupid bird that sleeps on a tree near my flat, chirping and howling like nobody’s business at 4 plus or 5 in the morning. I forget to add on, it was the sound of Gerald’s bird cries. I’m not saying its Gerald’s fault but I might be planning to get Gerald to stay over my house for a night, to communicate with that bird to ask it to “SHUT UP!” Thanks… =.=”

Project resumed today and I finally complete it just now. Tired and having headache for now but still the pressure will end after tomorrow. Haix… I hope everything goes well as I’m having a breakdown soon. I appreciate some for giving me proper work but sometimes, the leader would suffer greatly as their members will do crappy work that are not at the leader’s standards. If doing a task is so difficult, why don’t let me do it nicely for you? If it was so simple, then I won’t be asking you to do it and score a good grade for a stupid brain damaging project. I hope priorities for you will be at the right track when the next stopover is to be conducted. It won’t be easy to be a leader but I’m learning to develop, just like you, or you didn’t?

Alright, that’s all for now. Resting time!! Happy Chinese New Year to all!! Enjoy your days collecting red packets for the next few days!! =]


Miss you a lot for the past few days but…
I still get to meet up with you today… =]


Gosh!!! I'm going crazy again, thousand thanks to the project... =.="

I volunteered to be the admin for Bodywatch Gym!!! Huai Xin is my ASSISTANT!!!!!! Okay!! Let's do a good job and make sure we get peace from everyone, James Wong and others!! =]

** Edited **

It hasn’t been easy these days after many tasks have been rated as high priority for me. I’m referring to the projects that my group and I have been assigned by our respective lecturers from the 2 modules; Customer Service and Project Management respectively. It is been some time since I lay my fingers on the keyboard and start typing a report. Is this a blessing or a problem for me? I don’t really have much thought about it. All I have in mind now is to complete the projects as soon as possible and get alive with new responsibilities when I’m attached to the Bodywatch Gym in NYP.

New responsibilities?! Many readers will be curious with my words but I will explain for that. I have been appointed to be the school gym’s admin person for the next attachment stopover; the Bodywatch Gym. I was intending to place myself in a smaller role in the gym; Membership. However, Mr. Damien Lee’s words inspired me to achieve things that will help me in my future. At that moment, I know that more can be done to unlash my characteristics to be a stronger person and I decide that I should give it a try. Life won’t be easy when I have many responsibilities to take care of but at least, let me try for the next 9 weeks, let me show my leadership within the team now rather than at a later time. As the saying goes, “You will never know unless you give it a try”, I’m willing to try, learn my mistakes and create good habits as a leader. Will you?

Anyway, projects were 1/2 done as there are still some patches of Project Management to be done. Customer Service ended yesterday after we present our stuff to the lecturer. We had to present earlier due to Farhan’s departure for a soccer trip overseas, organized by the school. Well, we managed to get through the whole process smoothly, just that a few mistakes were done and I felt that more could be done to make this project a splendid one. Maybe this project is the start of motivating myself to do the wrongs to turn to rights. I’m taking charge of the Project Management project and I have no regrets whatever we have done today, though it’s still rather messy. Before I end this academic crap, I got to thank a few people first. Charmain, for being a great leader for C.S. project, as well as the rest of the team for the effort put in it. While for Azirah and Huai Xin, thanks for the sample report for Project Management. Without it, we will be like fools doing that boring project that lowered our morale as every minute pass by. =]

Now its some sports update!! Bing had organized a Handball event and my team got 2 points out of the 8 games we played. I don’t know should I be laughing or not but it was seriously a fun game indeed. I mean, there was teamwork but we don’t have a good protector for our defense. I can’t blame my team for the lost, or even myself. It’s just that we do not have enough male players in the team that are tall and well-built. Our opponents were all tall, probably 1.8m and above? I guess so. Like many other games, I was on form for the 1st match but the fire died instantly. Haha… I still need to do more workouts in the gym. -.-“ The best part was Razean, hitting the ball on James Tan’s groin are purposely. It was a hilarious act that all the Sport and Wellness students were laughing. I could not control my laughter. I wont dare to try it on him but to be honest, it was a nice move by Razean. =P

Alright, its going be the end of this entry that I’ve not been typing for the past few days. My bad!! Once projects are done, I guess I will have the time to do some entries again. For now, so long! =]


When a non-living thing is lost, one will feel the pain for some time.
However, it can be replaced with something new easily.
When a living thing is lost, one will also feel the pain for some time.
However, it is so deep that it remains in the person’s mind for life.
Learn to move on, accept and put memories behind,
Now this is the life one should do to grow and mature...