When you are angry, it is always best to stay calm and do what you have to do first before you vent your frustration on someone else. To me, anger management is my worst task that I could ever overcome in my entire life. I know I myself have a bad temper and if you don’t know me well, then too bad when you disturbed me and got all the nonsensical yelling as I vent my anger on you.

I just wanted to do something by myself, just this tiny bit of thing which I think that it’s worthwhile to do it for tonight. Yet, with my Mum’s profuse naggings, it just makes my blood boil and I was trying to stay cool all the way. Then Dad came home and asked a few questions and assisted me to do this and that, which I find it quite boring, especially when my mood was already been spoilt. With more disturbance, I had warn Dad about I’m gonna blast soon or later and PLEASE go away, don’t disturb me. Yet, he didn’t and he got what he wanted; a yell from me. He may feel angry and yell back to me for being disrespectful but at least, I did have the courtesy to talk to you nicely again and ask you to go away. I don’t mean it but too bad, I warn you and the hazard cautions are treated as nothing. Hence, it’s not my fault at all.

One point that I really wish to tell my parents is that I’m soon to be a 20 year old guy, with a brain of my own, life of my own, soul of my own and choices of my own. I do not think its necessary for both of my parents, to be conscious with my doings. I mean, its time I should fly with my wings and not still under your care. At least, give me the chance to do some stuff that I like or wish to do, don’t object my decisions. Let me have the taste of failure before you guide me back to the right path again, which is why lessons are learnt, right?

I really wish to say sorry but words just could not come out from my mouth. The words are in the mind and soul, which I guess, I don’t wish to continue my actions anymore. Morale of the story is, whatever caution that is given to you, one can chose to obey it or do what you prefer to do. However, when things happened, you should face the consequences and not blame it on others. It’s you who choose your own path to such things that happened.

Learn to respect my decisions, and not showing your care through naggings. Times have changed so am I. I am still your little cute son that has grown right in front of you throughout the many years but I am not the same old son, who has the little intelligence while doing the stuff I like. Meaning, I’ve matured and nurtured… Trust me…


** Sorry for the bad mood but Happy Valentines Day to all. I shall be alright tomorrow… =]