It’s really been some time since I blogged. These days, it has been reports, more reports and a lot more reports. Reports that are useless yet you still need to do it. Well, just a brief about the past few days that considered quite major to me.

I’m sick! Finally, I claimed my first M/C for my TEP attachment. I didn’t know that M/C does not deduct your leave at all. I should have taken them earlier, to escape from all the stress I sometimes had while I’m in gym. Anyway, I went to meet Auntie Emily first before we head to my neighborhood’s clinic for a medical check-up. Well, just a few medicines for me and an M/C for $20. Alright, it does worth the money. =]

We had lunch together at my house (brought back) and after that, we watched Water Horse. Anyway, Auntie Emily stayed for dinner that night. I know her habits of eating but I won’t blame her. What matters most is she does eat more. I still don’t understand why gals can survive with such little food in their stomach…

Then there’s Friday, soccer! The gym schedule was so messy that I hate it. I was organizing for the dates of the tests and everything and from a usual 15 to 20 minutes of changing, it took me more than an hour to do so. Furthermore, some of us were not taking the afternoon shift, causing worries among the team. Yet, these issues were solved. Phew~

Anyway, soccer was as usual, Eugene, Jimmy, Jack and I. The rest should be went missing or went to the wrong area for play I guess. I managed to score a goal, thanks to a cross from Jack. Jimmy wants to head it but failed to connect the ball, which lands on my left foot, deflected to my right foot and into the post. That was pure luck but a good goal to save us, when we are losing at 1-0. We won the game in the end with Eugene finish the game with a long shot.

The 2nd game was not that good as we lost 2-0 within minutes. Partly my fault as I was not that alert but seriously, I can’t defend like a defender. I can head the ball but not defend. Probably a Owen Hargreaves tackle can still make it. Haha… Well, I guess I lack of match fitness and I’m gonna start training as soon as possible but first, finish my test for my 40 exercises or else I will be shagged when I’m doing the test after a full body workout.

Tomorrow I’m heading for the movies with Auntie Emily. Finally I get to meet her after not seeing her for a few days. The movie? “Rule No. 1”. I heard from my sister that it’s nice but hope it’s scary enough to ensure that the movie is worthwhile the money. Alright, nap time… Reports!! More reports!! Aargh…

Maybe some of the things that I’ve done do not mean to be regarded as stupid but I guess being puzzled easily should be the word. Well, it just take 2 days to make me realized how many crazy things I had done after thinking back.

My brain was not functioning right from the start on Saturday when I wanted to visit Benjamin at his church. I wished to see his performance but I ended up losing my way to the destination. That is how foolish am I as I lost my way, and worst come to worst, the passer-bys who were there led me to the wrong Caltex station, causing more trouble for me to find the right way, with a bad weather coming ahead. I ended up taking a bus to Tampines instead to avoid the rain, as well as giving up the search. Sorry Ben! =X

Well, I head to Pasir Ris after that to visit Auntie Emily. Guess what, my slippers were stuck on the shopping mall ground as the floor was wet. My slippers were not very good when contacted with water. This makes me go crazy, especially when I wanted to leave the place. I ended up giving a great splatter of the water puddle on the ground, giving Claudia (Emily’s friend) to show a shock face. My bad for that~!

Night came and I nearly slipped while walking to the bus stop, thanks to my slippers again. My Mum was saying lots of crap to me, asking me to change my slippers from now on. Well, I guess her wish is fulfilled. She threw my slippers away today and I have nothing to say but to admit that the pair of slippers is not really fated to be with me through thick and thin. =P

Working today isn’t that pleasure too. There were lots of troubles that the kids are creating to me but I managed to go through it without much difficulty. The main stupid thing that I have done was transferring a $50 to Azirah. I pressed the wrong thing and I send to her account; a $0.50 amount. Zzzz…. Great! I ended up going back to the machine to send her a $50. This time, she owes me $50.50. Nice isn’t it. Nice number for me to remember. Great!

Well, that’s all for all the stupid things I’ve done. Auntie Emily’s sickness has not recovered yet. Hope she drinks a lot of water and have more rest during her remaining holidays in order to get well soon. Anyway, Auntie Emily, don’t be angry alright? Even though I’m always away and have little time for you, at least, let me be the one who can create a smile on your face. =] Smile more…

The last time when the class of 5N3 gathered was a month ago. The occasion was not that right, as it was one of the saddest moments in our lives; the farewell of our dear friend, Te Seng. However, I’m glad to meet those who we have been not able to contact with these months and it was a great gathering for all of us, especially it was a short meal to chat about the past, present, as well as our future.

I was late for the gathering as I ended my attachment at 5.30pm. I was supposed to leave at 5pm but it seems that some stuff had kept me staying at the gym. It just took 2 hours to create mayhem in my mind. Issues that are unsettled such as the TEP program planning and the 40 pages report just make me go crazy. Thinking about it again, I felt that I was really stabbed on my back, which I think I have doubts in trusting people’s words. People tend to do things in one way, whereas they say it in another way. Thanks a lot, dude…

Well, quit the negative thoughts, now back to the gathering. I went back home, had a shower, before I head down to Marina Square’s Swensons to meet the rest. Luckily, I met Alex and Arfah, before we saw Ms Lee, or else I would be lost in the mall, just in search of the outlet. By then, there were about 15 people around there. At the end of the day, there were 19 of us.

The 19 of us; Eugene, Jimmy, Raymond, Jonathan, Gavin, Jack, Jia Long, Fitry, James, Xin Ni, Arfah, Suhaimi, Azimah, Farhanah, Wan Xin, James, Alex, Ms Lee and me.

I had my breaded chicken for dinner and some fries. Once I finished my meal, everyone was chatting about how’s their lives these days. While for me, I was chatting with Ms Lee about a couple of things, such as Te Seng’s death, the countries she visited and many more. The best part was when Jimmy tricked James to do some funny stuff, which brings laughter to the table.

Cake cutting session was next, and the lucky gal was Arfah, who was having her birthday that day, I guess. Happy belated birthday Arfah, since this entry seems to be quite some time before I posted it online, hope your wishes do come true. Too bad, I do not have any pictures with me. I gonna get the pictures from Ms Lee then. =]

Although a gathering for 4 hours or so is quite long to many, yet short to fill the memories, I think this enables the bond to continue among the classmates of Canberra Seondary’s 5N3. We are still the legendary class, as till today, there is no 5 Normal Academic class that has been named ‘5N3’. There is only 2 classes after our batch, till today.

Thanks to many for coming to this gathering. Its very easy to break a bond, yet to create and maintain a bond, it isn’t that difficult at all. =]

Communication; the exchange of thoughts, messages, or information, as by speech, signals, writing, or behavior; is a simple word that contains a vast meaning in it. It can be a simple tool to be used in your daily life but it does affect a person’s lifestyle easily through interacting with different groups of people around you.

Whether its at work, projects, home, sports and even just outside in town, it does really play a big part to each individual as communication makes one to understand the other and therefore, solutions could be created for problems, as well as bonds can be created and improve too. Although saying is one point yet doing it is another, it is still hard to do such a task such as communicating when the other neglects your views and don’t seem to blend in with your thoughts. Now that is the trouble that many has faced and yet still facing.

Work does not seems to be a bother to me, except for the report that is going to be due tomorrow and more to be up soon. Though projects and duties play a big part in our academic results, especially when doing this period’s stopover, it is not really that easy to do something with a group of people. As a teammate of the group, it is important that one voice out your opinion when something is not right or changes should be done immediately.

Currently, the only 2 problems that are surfacing in the stopover are the attitude against a person and the attitude of the members when someone is saying something. First of all, to all members attitude when someone speaks, I guess more can be done, such as voicing your displeasure if possible. It won’t make both ends meet if one party don’t agree in something and had to do it unwillingly. Now that’s call force and in the end, another party suffers.

While for the other issue, showing your cold shoulder to someone can be easy but putting yourself into his or her shoes then, what would it be if you are him or her, who gets hated by everyone in a workplace for the entire 9 weeks? Is this a place of torture and no trust? This means that the person will not satisfy others no matter how much effort he or she puts on.

Now, the main point of this piece of crap of mine is very simple; put yourself in a person’s shoes before you move on and do the next step. It will never be a success for someone who never tries to communicate with someone he or she hates. Hence, learn to grow up and at least put in some trust to that person. Now that’s all I’m asking from all of you. It’s a matter of whether you want to make a difference or not.

The next place would be homes, which is also known as the place that we live, for shelter, food and water. Not just the main three requirements, communication also make things possible for those living together under one roof.

For instance, couples communicate to make sure that things in life are going smoothly. Parents communicate to make the relationship going as well. However, sometimes it is hard for the kids to communicate with adults when the adults believes in his or her thoughts and regards others as fools who does not have a good thinking mind as them. To all parents, many things have changed over the years. Today will be quite different from yesterday as certain things have changed. Although the change might not b significant, it affects other people’s lives. One example would be technology. Today you can a 200 GD hard disk, the next month you see the latest version of 1TB hard disk. See the difference?

Problems do exist in my family and I’m opened enough to say this; my Dad seriously a dumb and stubborn, which refuses to listen our thoughts and assumes that he’s right. Maybe in the future I’ll be like him since we have the genes in our body but I’m trying not to be as pessimistic as he does. I do agree that from all my relatives and I realized that he’s the only one who does not know about himself. He’s sensitive, selfish… many more, and thinking about his positive points, or maybe a point, I guess there is no answer to it.

I may know lots of secrets in my family but think again, it is better to remain quiet and be myself at times, instead of saying the negative views of both parents to the other. The best solution is to let them, the adults, to do their decisions to deal with this problem; communication barrier. Whatever the outcome is, I have already decided what I’m doing for my own future, and the responsibilities that I’ll be taking. I’m old enough to think, as well as old enough to earn a living and do something for myself, just that the time is not right for such things to happen. Studies are still a priority hence, its still a long race for me in Education.

Before I end this piece of entry, I think communication has make us, especially sportsmen, to know its existence and importance. Just like a game of soccer on Friday, with no communications, we conceded 3 goals. However, with each person asking for the ball and messages are past down, we win the game. Even I, as a goalie for a moment, scored a goal with a strike, after my ass to Daryl as he shoots the ball, yet parried by the opponent’s goalie before I sealed for the finish. I was the goalie at that time and imagine I ran upfront and did something like this? Not boasting around but if there is no communication, that goal won’t exist, that opportunity won’t arrive. See the effects of it?

Hence, learn to communicate! It is easy to say something to someone but at least, try to talk to that person to make the magic work. It won’t be easy but at least a try means that there’s an effort put in. I’m willing to try, so how about you?

It's been a few days since I've blogged. Anyway, I have changed my blog music to something unique and new. This song is by a Hong Kong singer, known as 古巨基 aka. Leo Ku. Anyway, if you never listen before or keep thinking when the song will end, then I shall tell you a 'good' news!

This song takes about 12 minutes before it ends. It collaborates all the chorus of different songs, combined together into a song. Wonderful isn't it?!! Haha... Thanks to my Fitness Instructor, James Tan, who introduce the song to Huai Xin and me. Well, I shall not say much but do spend some time to listen to this music if possible. The lyrics is added below. Enjoy. =]

古巨基 - 情歌王

(Forever love 王力宏)
爱你不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你每个眼神触动我的心

(两个人的烟火 黎明)
最爱你的是我
否则你怎麽让我否则我怎麽可能赴汤蹈火
你说什麽都做

((如果�爱 张学友)

如果这就是爱
在转身就该勇敢留下来就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉

(童话 光良)
我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使张开双手
变成翅膀守护你你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里

(很爱很爱你 刘若英)
舍得让你往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心

(我愿意 王菲)
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名只要你真心拿爱与我回应
我什麽都愿意
为你

(好想好想 古巨基)
好想好想好想好想
好想好想和你在一起

(明天我要嫁给你了 周华健)
明天我要嫁给你啦
明天我要(终于)嫁给你啦要不是你问我
要不是你劝我
要不是适当的时候你让我心动

(不得不爱 潘玮柏/弦子)
天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜I love you
我就是要你让我每天都精彩

(阴天 莫文蔚)
开始总是分分钟
都妙不可言
谁都以为热情它永不会减总之那几年
感性赢了理性那一面

(飞机场的10:30 陶喆)
Baby baby baby baby baby baby
是不是拥有以後就会开始要失去
我给你的越多
你却要想要躲爱已无法回答所有的问题

(那麽爱你为什麽 黄品源/莫文蔚)
离开你是傻是对是错
是看破是软弱
这结果是爱是恨或者是什麽

(你怎麽舍得我难过 黄品源)
最爱你的人是我
你怎麽舍得我难过对你付出了这麽多
你却没有感动过

(爱我别走 张震狱)
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

(让我欢喜让我忧 周华健)
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受

(原来你什麽都不想要 张惠妹)
原来你什麽都不想要
我不要你的承诺不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍就算虚荣也好,贪心也好
最怕你把沉默,当做对我的回报原来你什麽都不想要

(用心良苦 张宇)
你说你想要逃
偏偏注定要落脚
情灭了爱熄了
剩下空心要不要

(祝福 张学友)
伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在烂灿的季节

(吻别 张学友)
我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等着迎接伤悲

(把悲伤留给自己 陈升)
能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走

(征服 那英)
就这样被你征服
切断了所有退路
我的心情是坚固
我的决定是糊涂

(听海 张惠妹)
听海哭的声音叹惜着谁又被伤了心

(味道 辛晓琪)
和身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道

(我怀念的 孙燕姿)
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦我怀念的是争吵以後
还是想要爱你的冲动我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

(领悟 辛晓琪)
啊!多麽痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚任意追逐
别再为爱受苦

(月亮惹的祸 张宇)
都是你的错在你的眼中
总是藏着让人又爱又怜的朦胧都是你的错你的痴情梦
像一个魔咒
被你爱过还能为谁蠢动

(我们的爱 F.I.R)
我们的爱
过了就不再回来
直到现在
我还默默的等待我们的爱
我明白
已变成你的负担只是永远
我都放不开
最後的温暖

(你把我灌醉 黄大伟)
你把我灌醉
你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪
我拼命挽回你把我灌醉
你让我心碎
爱得收不回

(眼泪 范晓萱)
Oh 眼泪...眼泪都是我的体会
成长的滋味Oh 眼泪...
忍住眼泪不让你看见
我在改变孤单的感觉...
你从不曾发现
我笑中还有泪...

(情非得已 庚澄庆)
只怕我自己会爱上你
不敢让自己靠的太近怕我没什麽能够给你
爱你也需要很大的勇气

(你是如此难以忘记 梁朝伟)
你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平息

(心太软 任贤齐)
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强

(Forever love 王力宏)
Forever love
forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你从今以後
你会是所有
幸福的理由
Forever love Forever love Forever love

Finally, my dearest BABY IS BACK!! It’s glad to see my laptop to be functioning properly again, after the wound/ illness that she received a week ago. Now, I can go anywhere I like with her and do my blogging in the buses that I board each day to ease my mind with the craps that I typed.

Just a brief entry on the happenings during the weekends, it has been training and working for that two days and I was mentally drained by Monday. Saturday was my first ever swimming training for the Month. I missed quite a number of lessons this year due to work and external entertainment with friends and others. Training was tough but it was alright, thanks to the ‘little’ warm-up on Friday with some soccer. =X Sunday was worst than I thought. I send Auntie Emily to work first before I head to the Swimming Complex for work. Tough day for my sister and I as we have 2 kids that messed our busy Sunday. I was angry at that moment but think again, I feel better after ranting at the kids, for being fools in the pool, disturbing and bullying others. Gosh!! Kids…ZZzz…

Monday was fine, with a rainy day to start the weekday. I was tired but managed to pull through for the entire attachment hours. After that, it was V.E. time. Luckily I had my roti prata around 4pm or else I would be starved for the entire night till 12pm. Anyway, we learnt a new song called “If”. I remembered the tune before but that was like, only the first verse of the entire song?! ~.~” I guess I need to find that song and listen it.

Tuesday was worst than I thought. It was raining cats and dogs and it was terrible, especially when I’m meeting Auntie Emily that night for dinner. Well, it was Physical Training for Kah Hong, my client, in the morning. Anyway, I’m really sorry not to meet you for lunch that afternoon, Kah Hong. The TEP Admin came just in time so I was caught up with some admin work. Thinking that everything was over, Winnie called and I need to do my PFA test on her before I could eat my lunch. What a day to spend with, all the tasks to complete and my lunch had to be sacrificed.

I was late meeting Auntie Emily that evening as I was tempted to do some workout. What was the sport? Yeah… Soccer again. This time, I was enjoying myself until it rained and we played until the rain stops. Its fun but at least, my flu seems to be better after the exercise. I had my shower and off to meet her. We had dumpling noodles for the night before I send her back home again. This time, it was her turn to have flu. Oops! Guess my flu virus has been spreading to the people around me. =P

Today was still a rainy day but the good thing is, I got my laptop back and I finally had a haircut. I went back to the gym during mid-afternoon and was doing my 40 exercises crap. It’s long and torturous but still, deadlines are to be met at the end of the day. Luckily with the aid from my teammates, things are to be much easier now.

I had a chat with Ms Lee, my form teacher during the evening. It was a surprise to have her to chat with me since the last time we chatted was like many months ago?! Well, in 2 years time and she’s heading to Hong Kong to teach. To me, it seems to be another teacher going to a far away land for a long period of time but to her, it will be a new beginning again, to see and experience the things that are away from our own world. I wish her good luck while she teaches at a Hong Kong school.

Life maybe short and we need to cherish everything in life, every moment, every day. Once we missed an opportunity, it will not mean that we can get it again. Once we lose our close ones, it won’t mean that we will reunite once more. However, the make sure that one is the happiness person in the world, that person should be determine to do his or her very best, faces challenges and never gives up. Even though you might be a happy go lucky person or an idling fool who rots at home watching television everyday, it just takes your own will to do something that is simple yet do make a difference in yourself or the people around you, then that will be the best achievement that you have done in your life. Not everything that you have done is considered a nothing. If you try your best and there’s results proven, now that is something. =]

Alright, time to alight the bus. End of post!!

Shagged as usual when one needs to be back in school working for morning, after working in an afternoon shift the night before. I find it quite stupid for changing my shift on Fridays. Although it is a basic ruling that those who worked on Saturdays are to change their shifts on Fridays to be morning shifts. Yet, I change it, probably due to my soft-spoken personality that resulted like this.

Someone told me that working an afternoon shift won’t affect much at all. Maybe that person has his or her thoughts but for once, it’s about the distance of where that person lives and the time taken to travel counts. I know life is not that easy but what for would someone needs to change when shifts are allocated. If that’s the case, I won’t be doing the chances for each week. You can come anything you like and it won’t affect my day and that’s it. Life is not easy being a leader but his or her teammates do adds or lessen the trouble, depends on the team’s characteristics.

Alright, that ends my ranting for the day. I won’t let such mistakes from occurring again and I swear. Not adopting a dictatorship but just a few things that I need to do. Whether one can considers my job as a privilege or duty, life goes on and no matter what kind of shit I will get to face with, I will survive!!! =D

Back to my crap for today. I need to thank Jia Bao for coming to school and help me out with my PFA. I’m left with 2 people before I could say I’m done with one assessment that I need to submit in the end of my attachment. Once gym was over, I went to buy my lunch, went back home, ate my food and find some entertainment before I knock out at 3 plus in the afternoon. I was totally tired and I need sleep.

Training in the swimming pool was 7.30pm and I was reluctant to wake up. It seems that I could sleep for ages and seriously, thanks to the attachment, I guess I need more than a day to prevent myself from aging to fast. =X Training was tough but I managed to go through it, and came back home in one piece. My legs are feeling the soreness; probably I played too hard on Friday, with soccer and basketball as part of the physical sports for W.H.P., what a torture.

After just watching a frustrating Man United match, which Man United lost the chance to be in the FA Cup semis, I guess its time for me to take an early rest for tomorrow’s work. There’s still hope for the Red Devils to win the Champions League and English Premier League titles but the only question remains, how long can they persevere?

Fridays are often considered as W.H.P. for all Sports and Wellness students, especially those who are doing their TEP attachment in the gym and EPM, aka SPT. The good news was the gym people are ready to have some games to be played but the bad news was, they isn’t any EPM students that would be joining us. They were having some events at Sentosa, or probably somewhere in Singapore, which I don’t know what they are.

Well, the gals in the gym initiated for hand ball, since they have not been enjoying W.H.P. for the past few weeks, thanks to us, the guys, for playing soccer every week. However, they failed to attract the guys or anyone else to play the game. This ends up the guys playing soccer again, with Huai Xin’s face turned quite black that day. -.-“ Scary…

As usual, we played like no one’s business and I was scoring goals, again. It feels good to score goals but when its time to play for the real match, I find myself to have a problem playing as a striker. I have the speed but not the techniques to score. Moreover, I’m not good with chesting the ball and shoot. Although I scored a goal to get a victory of 2-1 against a group of unknown guys, I guess winger will still be the best position for me to roam around the game.

I didn’t cross much, did passed the ball a little and score a few goals. They might be considered as luck or good timing but all I could say is that, it’s just for fun. It’s a matter of working hard and playing hard for games, especially when you are within a team. Siew Boon was a good defender to against, though I got to put the ball between his legs a few times towards victory, if the team has a goalie, he’s sure to be a solid defender like Sami Hypia. Haha… anyway, Siew Boon, no offence but I respect you very much as a player. =] Cheers!!

Soccer ends soon and after that, guess what, James Wong called, saying that the execution of our plans will take place on Monday, which is like a bit too rush? I don’t know if things are ready or not but the way he put it was like we are afraid. Gosh! We are not but at least, the plans are not fully complete and to execute it, there might be a few problems that will turn out soon.

Aerobics instructors are not finalized and the Ladies Hour sessions are still in a doubt. WHP plans are like vague and if there are any programs that we are going to plan for the TEP students during their stopover hours, what are the activities? Questions are now popping out of my mine and asking me not to worry sounds more like asking me to seat back and relax, watched the proceedings of the ‘show’ and wait for the verdict, of maybe a poor result? Nah!!

Hope we will work hard and make sure everything goes well smoothly from Monday onwards. My dear laptop is not back yet. It’s still under maintenance. I miss my baby, yet I missed the webcam function more than her. Why? Now that’s a reason for some to find out. =P

It’s supposed to be a surprise for her but ended up to be a failure. I decided to give Auntie Emily a surprise visit, to accompany her back home. It’s been some time since we get to meet each other, even though it just past a few days or so. Time and constraints permits us from meeting each other hence it will take up till next Monday before we meet.

Well, I wanted to get her some food to eat, probably her favourite Sotong ball but too bad, I can’t find a store that sells that food. I ended up buying her favourite ‘3 little ball ball’, which is the Tako balls, I guess. Once I bought it, I rush to Vivo to wait for her. Unfortunately, my plan failed. She managed to see me hiding at the walkway. Actually, I was not hiding but she just managed to see me, and had that feeling that I would come over and visit her. I think gals’ sixth sense is always very good. That’s why they are able to outwit men at all times, especially when guessing men’s thoughts and secrets… ZZzz…

We sat one corner to enjoy our Tako ball before heading home. That was my dinner but seriously, it was good enough for me that night as my stomach stop rumbling after eating that. That is really a good way to prevent myself from feeling hungry.

Alright, next time when I gonna meet Auntie Emily again secretly, I guess I should be wearing a wig or something? Hmmm… Depends ba… I need to be good in disguising first. LOL!

Learning is the key towards good knowledge but there are some things that will not be able to be gained through learning; that is experience. I was talking to Kenny during the evening, chatting about some personal opinions about doing my job as the Administrator in the Bodywatch Gym, and the disagreements that I faced towards a certain point during work time. However, it makes me realized that there are some stuff way beyond our control and some, through human nature.

Sometimes, it’s about doing your duty well and the other factor is, to have responsibility. When it comes to responsibility, the first question you can ask yourself is this; how many in your team have such an attribute? There might be a few but not all at the moment. Yet again, will everyone has the chance to improve their behaviour of being responsible? It will take experience for that to ensure that one succeed to be a leader.

I don’t mean by saying, you must be full responsible at all matters, even if its out of your job scope but simple issues such as submitting stuff punctually and without being asked repetitively is one ideal way to show your own responsibility towards things. Although it takes time, it is when you make mistakes and people reprimand you and then, you will learn. Now, from then on, experience will be playing a role to develop your own character. However, if all the learning you have received has not brought much help to you, then it is your own initiative to do something for now, to learn the easy and gradual development way or the hard way? You decide… =]

Well, I was going crazy for the past few days. Guess that’s because I was sick and my mind was not functioning at its best. Haha… Well, I went to accompany Auntie Emily for breakfast today, since we didn’t meet last night for dinner. Its been some time since we met again. Gosh!! What a torture to wait... Time is so slow... =P We went to Toa Payoh to eat but after walking a big round around the neighbourhood, my bad… After that, I sent her to Vivocity, accompany her for awhile before heading to Bukit Merah for the meeting with Mr Hans, an adidas stuff.

Meeting was smooth but ends in 10 minutes or so, what a waste of time for traveling. I was back to the gym to discuss the issue with the rest but initiative wise, response was bad. Well, I guess it takes some days for the rest to reconsider their decision. Then, I was busy with my 40 exercises crap but still, WE DIDN’T TAKE ANY PICTURES. ZZzz… Blame me for being lazy. =] Its been past 3 days since we decided to take the pictures for our report. Gosh!! What a drag… LOL!

Alright, for now, I shall stop and tomorrow, its time to pass my laptop to V.J. the doctor to see any wounds could be healed with antibiotics to be added into my computer. Haix… what a week… LOL!!


Misses you for the past few days...
and I know its gonna be hard as we move on...
but I believe its alright as long as we perservere...

Missing you lots, Auntie Em... =]

Angry!! >_< I’m so angry right now. I don’t what happened to my laptop but before I switch it on in school, it was perfectly alright. I switched it on again, this time in school, it also went well. What in the hack happened to my laptop when I switched it on once I reached home?!! Its not working and MSN won’t work! There’s no internet connection status bar! OMG!!

I wonder who was the last person using the laptop in school? I mean did anyone insert something into my laptop or download some stuff, or maybe putting a virus thumb drive into it? All I could say is that I’m also in the wrong too. Maybe I was the one who accidentally installed a virus? Well, all should be my fault!

Why am I so kind? Why should I lend it to others for usage? If I don’t, nothing will happen. Haix… Guess from now on, once my laptop is repaired, I shall be selfish at all times; never let anyone uses it. Its like barely 4 months and she’s going bonkers just like that?! UNBELIEVABLE! Yet I still need to believe in it. Sharks!!!

Gosh! It isn’t getting better today it seems. I thought playing a few sports will be good enough to lighten my mood but NAH! It didn’t. I’m not sad or angry but just feeling weird that’s all. Ranting so much by typing this post makes feel that I’m like a crazy retard. Never mind, it’s best that I lose my anger here rather than in front of others.

Anyway, just a brief description of today’s events, Kah Hong came to the gym for the first time as my PFA client. How great, isn’t it? I managed to ‘torture’ him with all the upper body exercise but I hope he will lose weight and get his muscles tone for the next few months if he continues to work out. Then, next was the Personal Selling stuff. Boring as usual but you still need to be there to listen…

Soccer was after that. I scored a few good goals today. =P Then, it was dinner and soon, basketball with Siew Boon. It’s a good thing that Siew Boon gave me some coaching tips on playing basketball. He’s actually a good coach and has lots of patience. Cool!!

Alright, that’s all for today’s events. I don’t feel like crapping that much as I’m going crazy with the laptop of mine. Sharks!! Anyway, Auntie Emily, don’t feel worried or angry alright? You can be angry but all I can say that, I keep it from you is I don’t want you to worry. I wanted you to enjoy your chalet. =] Sorry. It won’t happen again, I promised…

Also, with God bless, I hope you will protect the one, who’s now recovering after her operation today, protect her… Hope she recovers soon. Her children are still praying for her so please don’t lose faith on her, since her children don’t. = \

Monday blues… That’s all students will be saying when it comes to Monday, especially to those who are having lessons that are long hours, making your day to be so boring and miserable. For me, my misery started yesterday while staying at home. It all started with a terrific weather that caused the flu bug to pester me, which results a block nose for the entire day.

The worst came today, not only with the same old problem; I was having discomforts at my throat area. Maybe it’s because I was hungry that I ate too much oily food. Drinking plenty of water doesn’t help at all and getting extra rest by sleeping in the gym won’t cure the irritating sickness that I’m suffering from. The question of ‘what is wrong with me’ keeps going around my mind. Gosh! WHAT IS REALLY WRONG HERE?!!

In the morning, I was late for a few minutes, due to some tummy ache that I had no idea how it occurred. I assumed that I was hungry but the feeling was like I might vomit anytime of the day. Great! What a day to spend Monday, the start of a new week! I had breakfast with Siew Boon and I got better. The entire day was boring and gloomy, thanks to the weather as well as the workload. You can give me lots of work to do but the main problem is, I have no mood to do it.

I ended up went to swim with Cai Yun, Yi Tian, Shuai Xun and Ben around 5 plus, to distress myself. The water was cold enough to freeze your actions, or maybe, try speeding up? Well, I was swimming like a crazy fish, pushing myself to swim faster and end up, injuring my bicep or deltoid area. I have a hard time lifting my arm while changing my clothes after shower. Sharks… What a day…

V.E. was after that and I was having troubles while singing. Although we got to sing a new piece, ‘Little Red Ridding Hood’, a hilarious piece that portrait us as wolves, hunting for the little girl in the story Cheesy yet cool!! Yet, enjoyment of the piece was short-lived when the soreness in the throat makes you feel that the high notes were hard to catch. The worst came when I have a minor chest pain. What a torture yet I still managed to bear with it.

Well, now that I’m hungry and tired, I guess I will need to sleep early. I gonna eat my medicine before I knock out for today, or else I won’t have enough time to recover from my illness. Let’s just pray hard and hope that tomorrow will be a good day for me. Worst come to worst, I might not be going to school for attachment if it got worst. I’m trying to bear but I’m losing control these days… My body… Oh, my body… -.-“

Anyway, Auntie Emily, I try to meet you tomorrow for dinner alright? I will still use means and ways to make sure this dinner will be on. Since we only get to meet each other like, probably once or twice a week? Hmm… I felt rather stupid for changing my shift with Charmain, which I guess I should be more selfish than ever. Well, what’s done is done. Maybe next week I will try to be selfish? Haha…

Anyway, Auntie Emily… If your Mama is cooking dinner tomorrow, then its best that you stay at home and eat alright? =] Hope you enjoy your chalet…


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多希望下一秒就见到你


** 想见你 (无印良品)

I accompanied Auntie Emily to her new workplace yesterday. It’s at Vivocity, at Candy Empire. I didn’t know that the place was called ‘Candy Empire’ right from the start. I always have the tendency to remember the route to the shop but not the name of the shop. Well, now I know it… LOL!

Anyway, I met her first, before we head to Vivo. I bought my breakfast, aka lunch and share it with her since she only wants to eat a little. I sometimes don’t understand why but gals have small appetite. Why? Anyone tell me the answer?

Alright, once she’s done, off she went for work. Whereas for me, I was waiting for V.J. to turn up as we are heading to Charissa’s party at Sentosa. I finally met him at 2 plus and we took the tram to Sentosa. Anyway, the party was short for both of us. We waited for an hour, sing a birthday song for her, ate the cake, and then, SAIYONARA! Sorry for leaving that early as V.J. was feeling hungry and for me, I feel so odd when I’m with the rest. I mean, I feel uncomfortable when I’m with people who I do not know. Sorry! However, hope you enjoy your party. Smile!!

Went back to Vivocity and accompanied V.J. to have his meal. Once he’s done, we went to Candy Empire as he wanted to buy some sweets and chocolates. Haha… Auntie Emily was really hardworking while doing the job. She never shows a grumpy face, which I know that she is ‘sian’ and tired. Luckily, she has the nature smile on her face, if its me, gosh, all customers will run home. LOL!

Soon, I went to have my lunch, aka dinner at Burger King. Once done, I just wander around the mall, finding a seat and do my reports stuff for my attachment. There are no holidays for me and it is a good thing that I brought my stuff along, or else I will be bored. Once 10 plus arrived, I went to find Auntie Emily to see if she’s done or not. I went home with her but I know, today I won’t be able to join her. =\

Sorry arh… Hmmm… anyway, I know you are hungry now since you ended your work. Go back home, eat something, bath and sleep early. =]

Oh Yeah!!! Alex, belated birthday... Sorry to wish you at this time. Anyway, do smile as always and come play soccer more often! =]

29th February, also known as the Leap Year, which occurs every 4 years. I don’t know much about the history or the cause of this day but one thing that I know is that those who born on that day could celebrate their birthdays uniquely. Imagine right now, some are less than 10 years old but actually they are older than you. Cool!

Well, 29th is a good day to end February but for me, attachment was as usual and the workload was more than before. Early in the morning was a meeting for all Administrators for the TEP attachment period. For me, it was a boring meeting as I have to turn up early in the morning and listen to craps. It was 20 minutes instead of the initial 1 hour; a blessing in disguise??!! I wanted to have more sleep but failed to do so. Haix…

The reason behind that? James Wong came to look for me once I had my breakfast and I had to do some paper work for him, from 11am plus till 1pm plus, and continue at 3pm to 4pm. Gosh! It’s a torture and, seriously, how come am I the ‘suay’ one who gets to do this job? I have to rush my 40 exercises report as soon as possible as I do not want any delays to occur.

Well, once done, it was time for soccer. (Gladly, I did not miss it =P) Well, many goals were scored but I still add up my own self-imposed goal tally with 3 goals. First of all, a tap in, secondly, a shot that curled to the left and lastly, another tap-in that go between the legs of the keeper. Cool! Now the bad news, the aches on my legs have not end yet. I play hard, work hard and now, getting sores on my leg. Guess it will take a few days before the soreness ends. =P

Anyway, once soccer ends, it was time for dinner (my lunch) and back to the gym to do some stuff till my shift ends at 9pm. Long day for me, tired and sleepy but I still hang on. Alright, I shall stop for now. Prepare to go for Charissa’s BBQ party later at Sentosa.

Happy birthday Charissa!! =]

V.E. outing to Newton Circle was quite fun. I mean, it’s been some time since everyone gathered together and have a nice chat and talk some crap. Well, first of all, it was my bad to give Auntie Emily the wrong information. I guess I didn’t read the message carefully and told her that the place was at Novena. Sorry arh… I also assumed that its at Novena so I was quite blur.

Well, once she came and those who are supposed to be turned up had come, we proceed to Newton Circle to have a feast. Most of them were enjoying the feast, part of their celebration of graduation (For the Year 3s) or end of their semester exams (For the Year 2s and 1s). While for some, it is a feast before they have their attachment, like Pauline, who’s going to be attached to Swiss Hotel soon, which is a cool thing I guess, to do the duties of the frontline. I wish to be like her, to be at my best in customer service but too bad, I have a temper that no one can tolerate, even myself. Thinking of being in the frontline again? Hmm… Second thoughts I guess. =P

While for me, I’m feasting as I missed everyone, that’s why I’m here to feast! LOL! Feast for everyone’s happiness and also, good luck to those who goes for attachment. Yeah… Talking about attachment reminds me of having school the next day. =.=”

I ate quite some food but it was good enough for me. Vegetables (favourite) and stingray was the best dish I had. I wondered how did they make that chilli for the stingray? Yum Yum… Once everything ended, we walked to Novena, to a mall, which I forgot the name. Yikes!! Haha.. However, I went back home with Shi Pei (Da Jie), Sheryl, Jin Bao and Auntie Emily. I have attachment the next day and I can’t afford to lose my sleep. Hehe…

After sending her home, it was my turn to go home then. Tired but energetic, I was really hoping to run for a few rounds in the school stadium the next day. I want to work out but the adrenaline was high for a minute or two before it died. Alright, that’s all for now. =]