I'm suffering from mild stress at the moment and I need some time to chill myself from my project. It has been a long week for me, since I was busy with projects. 4 to be submitted in 2 weeks time and I have only done 1?! Great! I'm the BIGGEST loser for now. I need to buck up right now, to pull myself up and do the extra mile to complete my projects on time.

Monday was Entrepreneurship presentation and the gals were not wearing formal. My tone was abit harsh as I was eager yet abit frustrated for Li Zhen not wearing her formal attire, whereas Wen Wen forgot to bring hers. The bad thing was I felt so terrible when Li Zhen was sobbing after the words that I had said. Sorry anyway =X The presentation was alright but more things to be done, since everything is not done yet.

I was back to Canberra Secondary on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday to do my website project but it is still not working. I need to do something to make it work well but I get minimal help from V.J. since he's busy. I'm still struggling with it but I guess, its part and parcel of the whole game. I still have WHP not done, as well as my questions for NSA, which was like half-completed since last Friday?! Great...

Anyway, more about today... I went back to school to seek for help but not successful. Its not working and in the end, I had to went down to Yishun Swimming Complex to do my Coaching interview with Mr Lim. Thanks Mr Lim, for spending time for my interview. Although I have difficulties with my chinese translation, you still manage to give me improtant answers that are useful for my project. =] Well, I went back to school and went to the field to watch the Frisbee competition instead of doing my project. It was fun, since I was playing soccer for a couple of minutes.

Well, I got to know a few new friends but seriously, it end up with me having '2 children'; How Ren and Xi Ping. Who are they? My juniors but who am I? Their AH GONG or PAPA... Gosh! I end up giving away $4 to them for the Canberra Carnival yet I'm not going. Haix... Once in a while, we should help kids isnt it. I dont mind of spending $4 but sometimes, the demands from the school is too much, especially when they need to sell 3 booklets... Crazy... -.-"

I went back home and had my shower before I head for soccer that night. It was turning sour that moment when I came to the court. Andy called me before I arrived, saying that the court was not lighted up yet. He was so nervous but the thing that makes me angry is his failure to cooperate with me. Next was when I forgot to bring the Coaching book that I promised to bring. Yeah, I was at the fault but please, you sound that I'm the one who caused you problems, that is why I was angry and was playing a tough soccer game with you.

Yes! Soccer was tough that night at the early beginning as my mind was still angry with Andy. I was going to blow up when he keep saying this and that to me, making me to feel irritated. Its about anger management but seriously, you make me more angry when you think your way is right. I have projects too, so as you, so what's the difference between us if I just forget to bring a book? Haix...

The game was better soon after Jimmy and Yang joined and I managed to score a goal, which was hitting the post and squeeze into the goal. I'm happy for the first thing, I have not score a goal since the past few weeks. Well, at least I feel the happiness in me will do. =] The game ended with us winning the game but seriously, another problem came. I asked Jimmy what is his reply for the cage thingy on next Tuesday and his reply was, " But I think its too rush..." Alright, first thing first, I asked for a yes-no reply and you give me an answer that I dont understand. You meant by "see first", "yes", "no" or "i dont know"? I need a good answer, not a wishy washy kind. I was losing my patience but still, I need to laugh it off, thinking its my fault for the mistake then.

The rest left while Andy and I were at the court, discussing with Quality Management. I know it sucks but still, I need to control my temper and listen to the discussions again. I may not have the right state of mind but I tried to listen. At least I have some idea to type my report, which I had just stopped earlier on to type this post. Its strange at times... I can be Andy's friend but sometimes, he might not know sub-conciously what he's doing but he does piss me off. I was treated like a fool by him but I bear with it. I nearly exploded today but still, I controlled myself. The next time, or a bigger blow again, I might not be able to control that much longer. Will I? I dont know...

Stress is the factor towards the current gameplan and I need some time to relax now. 3am now and I need to sleep. As for tomorrow, its gonna be durian feast. =X I hate durians but I'm still eating it because of Dear Dear Auntie Em. Gosh!! Hope it does not smell bad...

我只希望有人能了解我现在的心情
而不是去谮加我的烦恼
希望你能明白我之前的情绪

=/