Just saw someone's post that flares me up so easily.

I'm not gonna say names over here but if you do read this post, I just want to tell you some stuff.
If you think that I was in the wrong, then be it!

I dont understand why others could get a laughter or two when they do such a thing and when its me, I got a scolding. Yeah! Its not fair and I know its dangerous but does such an attitude you give towards me is fair?!!

As if no human beings make mistakes and you are right all the time?!

Please, if you think that you are right this time again, yes you are. On the other hand, please spare a thought to others feelings too when you yell at the top of your voice, as if I'm the only one in the wrong??!!

I don't show my temper for nothing. I have a reason for every matter what I do. It could be for fun sake, or just a kidding manner but you will not like me when I'm pissed.

For once, I'm a HUMAN too!! I'm not numb!

THANK YOU!

Well, I just got back from my work at Yishun Swimming Complex and I’m quite tired now. It had been several months since I last work as a lifeguard at the pool. This time round, I was assigned to work at the competition pool, also known as the deep pool. Gosh! Boring like hell for the past 6 hours. Cooling weather, little people, no blowing of whistle… I was just trying to keep myself awake at times…

Back to the main topic for this entry! It has been some time since I got to play a wonderful soccer game. The last time I played was like last Friday, earlier on was with my classmates; Raymond and gang; and after that, was with Jimmy and the rest. Although I scored a few goals at the earlier game, the latter was quite challenging for me as I was to play in a defensive position. I don’t play defensive positions, such as central back or the flanks yet I tried. It’s very different but still, I tried.

This week’s soccer, I did my very best to be the ‘god-like’ defender, similar to Adnan or Adam, who were both not around that night. With no one playing defensive at that moment, I just put my best pieces of play to push the ball back to the front to prevent the opposition from attacking. Although I made a few mistakes, I guess I was doing pretty well on the ball, especially the passing and of course, defending.

While we lost our next game after winning the first due to a silly mistake, the worst was up ahead. When we went head to head with the same team again, this time round, it was rough tackles and nasty play from the opposition. Their players could come as near as next to the player when we execute a kick from the lines and yet when we are near their goalie, yelling was what we got, as if we do not know the rules of the game.

The last straw came from me when I got the ball near the opposition goal post and was about firing the shot, when 3 players tackling me like nobody’s business. Pushed by the goalie and a player, with an additional tackle from the other, it was the last straw of my tolerance. I yelled with the ‘F’ word and cursed for their play. “Push, push, push! You want to hug me you can don’t do that alright?!” Walking towards a player, I guess he got shocked, thinking I was going to punch him but instead, I gave him a hug. Since that was what they want, then why not?! What’s the big fuss if you want a hug from me and yet you can’t get it so you start pushing?!!

Andy was yelling, saying that why I didn’t just punch him or something? Well, why should I? I meant, I will be stupid for punching him. Sportsmanship is about respecting the game, as well as your opponents. If I give a punch, that’s it! Must well I’ll be in the Wrestling sport instead. As we grow up, we should know our limits towards certain stuff. When rage comes first in your mind, you will not be cool enough to think of anything. Letting your anger to control you is a unwise and unprofessional decision.

Not looking at the perspective of playing professional but think of any tournaments if we are into one, if I give a punch, I’ll be booked and it’s the team loss. I don’t sabotage my mates or opponents for that. If you think of punching the person, then you are the loser at the end of the day. I don’t see Jack, who’s playing the hockey league, to whack his opponent’s head with his stick for being frustrated with the player? Now if he does, then he is nuts. (Well, I know he won’t do that??!!)

The game ended with a victory by us. I nearly scored but hit the post. Sad isn’t it. I was doing fine all the while and a good handshake at the end of the game settled the issue of my temperate character. Towards the team’s play, I’m still contented with it. Just a few errors and the negligence from the players for defense was the only concern for the day.

The only disappointment was no one was giving a chance for Jack to play. I mean… if you are injured and you want to substitute with someone, just do it. Changing your position does not mean that you will perform well. Every man for himself? That’s a nice phrase but if you are not performing, it means you need time to think how you are going to improve yourself.

Haix… Soccer for next week is stopped as I’m attending a wedding dinner at night. Alright, time to rest.

Its been more than a week from school and right now, I am in mu school’s library to type out this short post of what has happened during school for the past 1 week or so.

Well, as usual, once you are back in school, projects start flooding into your life and its time for me to plan my time again, to determine when I should complete all my projects and assignments. Mentioning about projects, the ‘Three Musketeers’ are back; Kenny, Andy and me! That is because we are known by our classmates as the invincible three, who could score the best grades when it comes to working together during projects and examinations.

At least, we get to do all 4 projects together as a team, whereas for the other 2 projects, one of the groupings doesn’t sound bad but the other, I will hope for the best in my grades to excel that module. To cut the story short, it all thanks to the school’s new policy, to reshuffle your groups so everyone will have a fair number of strong and weak students to work together in a project.

To me, it was a rubbish idea that I have no choice but to accept the fact. Hence, for Human Resource Management, I had Andy with me, which was a relief, as well as Farhan, Bei Yi, Shafira and Daryl. The only worry that I have was whether I could get the best out of Shafira and Daryl since they need to be pushed to get their work.

While for the worst combination grouping I got was International Business, which consists of Razean, Zulfadli, Wan Ting, Charmain, Daryl and me. I have already planned out what would be happening for the next 15 weeks in school. Razean and Wan Ting would be a resourceful person in all sorts of ways and Zulfadli would be vital to the team, especially he could motivate the rest to do their tasks. While for the worst part would be the ‘couple’, which I feel that more can be done to push them to work harder.

Looking at the grouping combinations, everyone showed me the ‘sad’ yet pitiful face towards me, showing their disbelief but concern to me, for getting such a ‘wonderful’ group combination. I do not know whether this is a good or bad thing but I guess, I still need to face the fact about this grouping. Love it or hate it, work still continues to be done. I have finalized my targets for the module so I gonna be working extremely hard this semester, considering this is the final round of my studies, I gonna do my best for good.

Well, other than the groupings, everything was quite fine. I just find that the first week was quite tiring for me, probably I’m still not used to the change in my sleeping hours. I would wake up at 7am, as usual, to the timing when I woke up for my IPP attachment. Gosh!! I need more sleep! I guess I get to be quite lazy after the attachment and I need to get more sleep instead of having the habit to stay up late for the past few days.

Alright!! Time to motivate myself for this week. Plus, there’s SW Gathering tomorrow. I gonna sleep more tonight then. =]

After 2 and half months, I’m finally back to my blogging world, the place where I’m supposed to ratter all my thoughts to this blog, telling my own life stories and experiences to anyone who is out there to read my entries.

Well, first of all, I’m done with my attachment and back to school straight. How was my life after going through school for the first week? It is quite alright at the beginning but I guess, all hell will break loose when it comes to mid December when projects and assignments keep flooding in. Last but not least, lots of deadlines will need to be met and by the end of the semester, I’ll be seeking for a good medic to heal my spirit from any stress. Cool!!

Back to this post’s title, it is Auntie Emily’s birthday. Like it or not, she is 18 right now and she has all the freedom to do anything. Not saying that I’m jealous but sometimes, I’m just worried that she would go to pubs or clubs and get boozed with the drinks. Blah and blah and blah… Why am I saying that? That’s because I’m just worried about her. =]

Alright, back to today’s issue. When the time strikes 12 on that faithful day; 8th November 2008; I tried my best to be the first person to message her at the most accurate timing. It was quite lame of me to check the timings through the website, which provides the actual international timings. I did that as my timings, from my laptop to my house clocks and to my hand phone, all timings are different and not accurate at all. Hence, I need a source to keep me in the right direction to send that message to her the right time. Lame but still workable and lastly, it’s a piece of effort from me to her. =]

(Hence, if you ever think my words are not for real, try visiting my house if you get the pleasure to be invited and look at all the 6 alarm clocks in my house and you can see the differences.)

Although it was still mid morning around 8 plus to 9, I could not get to meet Auntie Emily for an outing as she’s heading to Johor Bahru (JB) with her sister. I don’t know what she went there for but I guess, it should be some shopping and sight-seeing. I only manage to meet her during the evening for a meal at Curry Flavor Japanese Restaurant, which specializes in Japanese Crusine, especially curry. I wasn’t new at that place but decided to give it a try, so both Auntie Emily and I could enjoy the food at that place.

Since our meal was a buffet type, we got to chance to eat a few dishes that are considered quite tasty. One of the best dishes would be the soft shell crab. Strangely, I kept calling that dish into different names, such as ‘Sea Shell Crab’ or ‘Fish Shell Crab’. Gosh!! What’s wrong with me at that point of time? I think I’m still new towards crabs as those who are close to me would know that I learnt to eat crabs, probably since last year?! Haha…

Overall, I could say is the food is quite nice. The curry wasn’t too spicy and it would be a favourite for those who are meat or seafood lovers. However, if considering of a having a variety of foods to eat, I guess this restaurant will not be suitable for you. Their dishes are limited so I will say it could be a big disappointment for you. Wondering where is this restaurant which I had been to? It’s at Novena Square, Level 3. Its pricing for the buffet is $22.80 plus but there’s still al-carte thus no worries.

Once the meal was over, I went back home and accompanied her to her neighborhood MRT station. Sounds sad isn’t it when I have actually planned all the sequence of events for her birthday but she was too busy that she could only afford to meet me for dinner. At least I still get to see her and have a nice dinner with her since our last dinner was like… 2 weeks ago? Gosh! That’s quite some time for me.

The good thing is I will still be meeting her for movies tomorrow. Although it would be a horror movie, the coffin, I guess it will still be good to get us stay together and cherish the time we have. How excited am I now as I can’t wait for tomorrow. Wait a minute, it’s already tomorrow??!! Haha…

Throughout this attachment at SSA, I really have no time to spend with Auntie Emily. It was always work and work and not for other stuff. My Saturdays and Sundays will be burnt if there are any events. Other than that, she had to work and I had my other commitments as well. It has been tough for her during the past 10 weeks, for being understanding and tolerant with my temper at times. I do feel that she fail to understand what I am facing during work but sometimes, with a clearer mind, I feel that I did not give her enough care, concern and love.

Auntie Emily, I just wish to tell you that how sorry I was during my last few weeks of attachment when I was too busy with work. However, it’s been 11 months and our relationship is still moving on, which is a good matter indeed. I hope you would still give me some time when I fail to care or show concern to you. Yet at the end of the day, I still really love you like every other day in life.

Before I end, happy birthday Auntie Emily! 18 years old is a new start of your life hence you should enjoy it. Last but not least, best wishes in everything you do and smile more! Although no presents are given to you yet, as well as flowers, you still think that what I have done is enough for you. I may not be a perfect boyfriend but your understanding motivates me to be a better man. Thanks dear and I love you.

For other entries, I will post it as soon as possible! This includes my school life and ATTACHMENT AT Singapore Swimming Association (SSA)!! That’s all for now!! =]