This year's Canberra Secondary School Charity Soccer 2009 is a big flop for some of us. Although we aimed high and we won something, we did not really win as many matches compared to last year's. In overall, we won 2 matches and lost the next 3, yet we still managed to get a 3rd placing for the entire competition.

The squad for this year still remains the same group of people but with some add-ons. The line-up for last year was Jimmy, Yang, Eugene, Jack, Kenneth and me. This time round, there's an addition of Johnson, one of Eugene's camp mate and Kai, Jimmy's friend. However, Kai could not turn up due to unforseen situation. The team was left with 7 out of the 8 people but the match shall go on.

First match of the day was against some American guys from nowhere, which only Mr. Siva (teacher-in-charge) will know where they were from. They were friendly opponents whom were playing not too rough at all. We scored 3 goals against them, with one from Jimmy and 2 from Yang. The second goal was played partly by me, with me assisting the ball to him to slot it into an empty net.

Second match was against some team which graduated last year. The score was 6-0, with Eugene hitting a hat-trick and some shots from Johnson. Eugene was the lucky man, with all the tap-in shots that makes the goals increase. Anyway, that team had a big fall at the end of the day, only scoring 2 goals but conceding more than 10 goals. They did not win a single game, which means they could not qualify for the next round. However, it should be a good experience for them, in preparations for next year's tournament.

Third match onwards, it was falling down, and down, and down. Sion's team was a hard to be defeated, and when its the introduction of Fairos into the team, all hell broke lose, with us conceding 4 goals. What can I say but he's Canberra's best striker, as well as a S-League player. That's a big deal to take on.

Then, there comes Alex's team. We lost narrowly by 1-0 but I suffered with a hard blow from Alex. He tried to get the ball but knowing that I was infront of him, he pushed me, which end up elbowing me, causing me to lay flat on the ground, with a full force down on my head to the mat. "Bang!" and that is when I felt numb, clueless and seeing stars. I was substituted but was feeling fine.

The semi-finals came with us again versus Alex's team. I suffered some hard knocks but we still lost the match with a 2-0 defeat. With no substitutions in our team as Kenneth and Jack had to leave early, its all about playing with the limit number of manpower. We tried so at least, we did not really lost too bad.

We thought we had to play for the 3rd and 4th placings but end up, getting our place via a walk through, with our opponents leaving the tournament. You could call it lucky but I guess we did a good job too when playing against the rest of the teams. Anyway, the opponents were the Americans, which we won earlier that day. Hence, we had peace in our minds for what we had achieved.

For my own reflection, I had enjoyed the game but too bad, I was not in good form since I failed to practice soccer for 3 weeks or more. It seemed that I've been giving up the sport after my work commitments and also, for what the sport had inflicted hurt in my relationship once. Probably the stress factors that lead to today but I guess I was not playing with enough determination. Not saying that more can be improved but I guess my fitness levels gonna improve first before I could do other things. I'm lazy to train... really lazy,.. Haix...

Well, although we got third, I think I had the most blows suffered in the team. I'm now having cuts on my left elbow and left knee. My muscles might be sore but I could feel the aches after the knocks I suffered from today's fierce and gruesome tackles. However, the worst was the fall I had, which I'm suffering from some pains at the back of my head. Not a concussion yet but it still hurts.

I dont know why but my head is hurting and chest is feeling painful too, which is not the lungs or the heart but the ribs. I dont know how serious it is but I guess, if its not gonna be feeling right for me, the doctor is the next person I should visit. I guess, I shall rest early too... and I'll be fine.

** BTT is always a first try for all starters so a fail does not mean that getting a pass will be difficult again. I hope you could try again and wish you get a pass. Well, I might be feeling pain now for all the injuries but I dont wish you to worry, although I have no idea would you be worried or not. No matter what, I will still be there for you. That's all I could say... Good luck for your up-coming attachment.

I dont know how serious the injuries are. Its hurting badly but I hope tomorrow I'll be alright. To me, if I'm really gone one day, I still wish to say that there is still someone who loves you with his entire heart and soul. Good night... My da blur blur...