Well, I dont understand why my brain could be so powerful. It seems that even moments such as before I head to bed, when I step into the toilet, or even brushing my teeth, she's just in my mind. Alot of things are still yet to be put down. Maybe she had already put everything down, without remorse and is enjoying her life as she wants. I dont know since there's no communication in between us at this period of time.

I have nothing to say much right now. I can concentrate with my stuff but the image of her still floats in my mind. Let's call that a fantasy illusination then. Great... From a real, perfect human body, I'm trying to fall in love with someone imaginary. Even though the person is for real, I guess imaginary dimension is the only place I could go to when its about love. Alright, what nonsense am I writing. I have no idea what I'm doing now.

Well, my shin is hurting, probably using the wrong muscles during my workout. I used the leg extension few days ago and with the cushion placed on my shin instead of ankle, I kept lifting the weight of 50kg (that's more than my maximum) and till today, my shin is hurting.

More to come this coming week, as well as next week. Bukit Timah hiking for this weekend and Charity Soccer the next. I wish to tell Andy about the stuff for Charity Soccer but I just cant do it. That's because he's not in the team and the truth do hurts when you tell a person about such bad news. Alright, who wants to help me tell him, please MSN me before you do alright.

Oh yeah... The squad for charity soccer is the same as last year's, just that its gonna be little teams participating. I only know that one of the teams was Fairos's team, together with Sion and gang. I'm trying to stay cool with it but there's a strange and feeling within me. Fairos is an S-League player, our Secondary school's top striker... Haix.. Still, like what Jack told me on MSN, take it easy.

I hope it does makes me feel alright. Anyway, I guess she's having her presentation now. All I could do is wish her good luck. I dont dare to message her to avoid damping her feelings again. Other than wishing, I guess Facebook could do the trick. Haix... What life do I gonna go through without her... Right, Ş (someone who's facing the same crap problem with me) ?

Signing off now...