24th October 2009; a day that I will still remember. Maybe not for the date itself but for the events that took place.

First of all, my first 25km run in the North Face 100 Endurance Race. Partnering with Ming Fei, I guess it was another source of motivation, rather than doing all this alone. At the end of the day, I've completed the race, with soreness and cramps killing my both legs for today. Not forgetting the bird shit that struck on my head during the race. AAHH!!!! =.="

Thanks for the call-up from Ming Fei to join the race, though its last minute, I still enjoyed it, especially when I know that this race is a gauge for me to determine how I fare for the up-coming 42km Marathon in December.

Next! My first experience of my Uncle's skills in his driving! My Uncle got his driving license recently so using my coach's car, he drove us to the Singapore Science Centre for a buffet at Sakura. However, half way through, he had to change his driving seat with my coach as he lost his way. Good driving skills but bad indication of the directions. Poor Uncle, you've tried. =]

Lastly, of course! I went CLUBBING! Its my first time going to club so everything was still new to me. All I could say was I had a fun experience, especially when it comes to seeing the different things that could happened in the dance floor. Er... Not to say too much of the contents... but Double O was the place I went.

In overall, clubbing hurts me. Not for the money but for my ears. I could not take the loud music, as well as drinking too much liquor. (I only drink a few sips that night.) Well, I would reconsider to go to another club for a party the next time but frequent visits, I dont think so.

Thanks for the clubbing visit guys; Jonathan, Jimmy, James, Jia Long and Kian Wee. It was cool! Last but not least, happy belated birthday to Jia Long. 21 years old already, so be a man alright!! =]

Less than 2 hours and still, the clock is ticking. I'm helping my friend to run for North Face 100; 50km team category; and of course, I'm taking my first ever 25km run later today.

How's things gonna work out? I'm not sure but hope I can still do well.

Adios! Good luck, Team Blue Mushroom... I dont choose the team's name by the way.

=X

Time check: 3.57am, and I'm still awake. I'm feeling sleepy but the laptop makes me feel more energetic than ever, probably I've missed it so much since I'm away for the past days that I'm hoping to use it once again.

Well, what am I doing at this hour? Simply watching videos and playing my 'Pro Evolution Soccer 2009' game, as usual. Before that, I was cycling around Sembawang, and Woodlands area.

Initially, I was having dinner with Jimmy, Jia Long, Kian Wee, Ivy, Gavin, Chris and Yun Ting. It was Jimmy's first book out dinner so at least, I should show some appreciation by turning up. Feeling bored, I had the desire to cycle since I've not been touching the bicycle for quite some time.

And there I go, cycling from home to Sembawang to meet them for a meal. I went back to cycling around the Sembawang neighbourhood, partly I dont feel like going back home early, also, to take a look what has changed over the past month. Little changes but of course, with improvements with the infrastructure, thats all.

I would rather want to spend some time to be alone, to enjoy the night's peace and quiet atmosphere, which hardly could I get these for quite some time. I need time to reflect, forget and stay positive. I'm learning but sometimes, your mind forbids you to do so.

I'm still smiling. However, she isn't and maybe, I know the real answer. Its should be the day that makes her world crushed down. It was that moment, which had past for 2 years. This time round, I'm not there for her but at least, as a friend, I just said my advice and left via MSN.

What else can I do? Really... It makes me wonder... Well, with her new pair of wings that has brought her a new understanding towards love, I hope her new guardian angel could make her happy, at least for yesterday, later today and tomorrow. She needs some support I guess.

Wee hours of Saturday morning... I'm blogging... Bored... I wish to get someone to join me to cycle or jog even though my bones seemed to be taking its toil or my muscles are pleading for a rest. I'm having soccer in a few hours time. ZZzzz... Maybe I just want to train and stay focus at the moment? Plus, I dont want others to spend time on me to join me to do tiring stuff. More plans for later today so rest is required for all of them.

Well, time to rest I guess. Let me put it in this way before I head to bed.

"Stay positive everyday and you can manage all problems that lies ahead."
"Every morning, I looked at the mirror and brush my teeth,"
"Sloppy face, stink teeth, dark eyebags... etc..."
"Yet, if I learn to smile, at least I look better, more cheerful and more positive"
"Hence, try this if possible, smile..."


Sharks... I just remembered I've plenty to do tomorrow morning. Another family member down with an injury and I hope its not a serious one. Bless God-grandma...

And lastly, to Eugene's Granny... rest in peace. = /

The truth was there and now I got to understand what some mentioned that pictures dont lie. I saw it. She's now in the arms of another guardian angel that I guess, its best she belonged to.

The picture of her holding his hand tells it all that what I've guessed is probably right. Yes, my fault for losing her but maybe, it should be my mistake for letting her join the photography club in the first place. I guess that was partly the reason where we distanced. I respected too much of her decision? Maybe... My bad for being a good boy who listens to her all the time.

Well, it could just be fate that I brought them together but of course, others' efforts had made them to be closer. After seeing the picture, my heart sank deep down but whats the use at the end of the day? I wondered if she really have a tiny-winy bit of feeling for me... Its alright, I'm used to be alone I guess.

As what Cai Yun once told me, time will heal the wounds but also, make the feelings mild. Its getting quite mild though I still miss her and love her still. I guess, that guy is a lucky chap, who wins the heart of the princess that I once adore, who captures the heart of the gal that I wish to be with for eternity.

Lucky chap, treat her well. Thats all I asked from you. Whereas for her, I hope you found your true love. Just remember me as a friend, for the happy moments we've been through before, and not treating me as an enemy.

I hope their love story goes on, happily ever after.

As for me.... Life goes on... but happy or not... I guess the next chapter of my lifestory gonna be me who creates the plot.

Now... Sort of a self-consoling entry but at least, I felt better... Time for my sleep...

I've done pretty well for my first IPPT, with the following results:

Sit-Up } 43 (5 pt)

Pull-Up } 12 (5 pt)

Standing Board Jump } 230 (3 pt)

Shuttle Run } 9.7 sec (5 pt)

2.4km Run } 10.12 min (5* pt)

Overall } Silver


As shown in the results, standing board jump is a huge upset! The previous night, I could score at least 4 points but on the actual day, 3 points. ZZZzzz...

2.4km Run was a better result which its my first time hitting 10.12 minutes for the past 8 years of my life. Since the introduction of 2.4km run, I never hit less than 11 minutes. Finally!! However, to get a gold, at least 4 points and above for all stations, ending with the 2.4km run of a timing less than 9.44 minutes.

Eeeekk! More training to be done. Aiming for a gold for the next IPPT.

Na... Nothing much but just want to motivate myself for this entry!

IPPT should be this coming week but how do I fare? I'm not sure.

Anyway, good luck to me. Its gonna be my first attempt so I gonna aim for 'SILVER'!!

"Namo Amituofo"!!!

Bless me yea??!!


=]

All I can do now is smile, and said that she's happy. =]

I heard from Yes 93.3FM one night during my lights out at camp, where this guy send a SMS to the Deejay, which goes like this. "无论你牵着谁的手，我只想对你说，我爱你."

Well, thats all I could do now... Smile... To see the gal I loved the most, to have a happier life with others, compared to the previous relationship that we have. If I could say one last sentence to her, I wish she would hear that phrase. Once again, Nic still loves you but will move on. =]

Every time I see a couple, I would just give a smile for the sweetness of their relationship. I dont know why but maybe, I just dont want couples to face the same situation as I once did; to quarrel over stupid incidents and break off. Well, past is past but I'm happy for the present at the moment.

My current wish for a couple would be my bunk mate's relationship. Though rocky but I hope he would cherish the relationship he has with his gal. Its always a good feeling to see your gal make such a sacrifice to wait for you outside your academy camp, accompanying you back home. Haha... As for me, I gonna send myself home. Too bad.. =P

Right now, I just want to be a good police officer after all. Not to get hold of all the baddies but seriously, I have plenty of things to do in life. The eldest of all gonna live up the standards to protect the family at all cost and this is time for my duty now.

Family problems... Its never ending but to be honest, they need me... more than I need somebody.

我会学习去。。。
爱护我的爸，
疼爱我的妈，
和护着妹妹。
因为在这最混乱的时刻，
也许只有我，
才能把一切回复原型
挽回我的家庭。

The time is now... Grow up, wake up and never give up! Nicholas Teo Wei Teck =]