Finally, after almost 8 months of training, we are ready to face the reality. 

Everyone had been posted to their respective holdings and life would be quite busy after that. 

However, this will be a new beginning of our new journey as being part of the force. 

Good luck to my fellow squadmates! As for now, postings can wait, cause POC is here for us to celebrate!  =]

It was so real that I could feel the extreme stress of one whom had faced the similar situation as me. It is an incident where no one wants it to happen, especially when one shares the same job scope as mine. 

Mentally, you're stressed about your future, your career, your life. The harshness of it's consequences could make one go crazy, knowing that turning back was inevitable.

Even though it was a dream, it was so real that it reminds me that I must be careful I'm every incident I manage. 

Phew... What a bad nightmare I had.    

Time flies. A year has past after you left.

Memories are yet still fresh in my mind.

However, its sometimes too hard to put the past behind.

无论是谁在你身旁，你所得到的快乐，也代表我的快乐。

Moody... but what can I do...

Alot of things are in my mind now...

However, I think I had a better understanding of how some people behaved extraordinary.

Now that I understand... maybe... just maybe... should I be one of them?

**Random remark...

Good: to be the top few within the squad in terms of overall score.

Bad: chances of getting my 1st choice is higher than I thought, especially since I've score well and after knowing how the management works in their selection.

Whatever happens.. I just need to take it and move on. Feeling vex and worried. A wrong decision I've made?

Haix.. Vex... God shall choose my fate and I shall learn to accept it...

I've made a decision for my future! That sounds impactful but it creates more worries in my mind. 

When perspective of your job scope clashes with your desire for further studies, a decision must be made within the two. 

In the end, I chose studies as my next target for the gradual years, compared to the exciting and thrill lifestyle I wish to obtain from my work.

Regrets... I always have that weird vexful feeling that makes me go nuts at times. However, since I've made a decision, I must learn to stick with it and learn to like it.

No point regreting as what's done is done. There's still some hope, sort of, as the final decision goes to the management team. 

Regardless the verdict, just work hard in the future and aim for your goals. 

Nic, jia you...

After going through long hours during my night shift, I finally could go home to take my rest. Once I board the train from Novena, this old man came seat next to me and asked "Are you a Singaporean?"

I was puzzled but replied. He begin to talk to me about his past after having acknowledged my job scope. He mentioned he initially wanted to alight at Ang Mo Kio but would love to talk to me and accompany me to Woodlands. Shocked by his words but neither could I stop him for his actions.

He told me about his previous experience of being under the same job scoper as mine, explaining the few incidents that makes the job a memorable one for him. I tried to pay attention though I was feeling exhausted. Once in awhile, he would murmur his speech but I kept in silence to show my respect towards him throughout the conversation.

I arrived at my station and alighted, so did he.The old man asked me to join him for lunch but I refused. I really need that rest as my Sister was going to have a BBQ with her friends that night, sort of a belated birthday celebration.

Thanking him with full sincerity, we parted from the station with our respective routes. I appreciated him for his sharing though he's a complete stranger to me.

I guess, I'm getting the hang of talking to people from all walks of life, or probably, I have to get use to doing that as it's part of my job skill too.

Regardless how people sterotype these approachable people, or considered insane people for some, I think I'm having the hang of my job during the short week of my attachment.