Packed schedules and commitments make it harder for me to breathe. The hectic work during the month of March and April was a killer, causing me to lose track of my priorties, relaxation and fun.

Luckily, my trip to Hong Kong and Macau during March was long planned to ease myself from all these stress. Imagine you are away from work, away from any problems that is in relation to work. Unfortunately, my Sister told me that I was a workaholic that I end up performing my core duties as a good fellow while I was in Hong Kong. I'm too engrossed with work I guess. =.="

Well, when I thought that I could enjoy myself when I'm back into the group, I was wrong. The first wrong step was made when I made a decision to do the right thing by going through the left way. You can call it "lucky" but sometimes I don't understand what's the seriousness of doing the left way in solving a problem. Isn't it what they call it, "think out of the box?"

They implement rules for the lazy, for the idiots, for the spoilers, yet they encourage people to be more creative, to be professional, to be street smart. Then, why with the rules to tie people down? That's sounds like a contradicting statement issued by the 'hunks' and 'babes' of that society class.

I know that I was in the wrong, and deserved the obstacles I'm gonna go through for that grevious dumb mistake that was done. Yet, I still believed my own philosophies. I guess, they don't mind losing a man through a low BP than a person who got out of his restrictions.

Worst, the past is always brought up to condemn oneself from moving forward. You want to improve but with your memories all about the past, why can't you just admit it that you can't put the past aside and accept that you're getting old, probably senile in the future when we grow or mature. Plus, I can cope with the past crap senario that was given. I didn't ask for a reformation of the environment change. It was implemented by the 'hunks' and babes' and not me, Fool.

Seriously, I'm having a great diet lately with 2 meals per day due to the weird schedule that I had to go through each month. Change after change. I had lack of sleep by sacrificing them for sports, especially after a night's out. 30 hours without sleep to do something you like, each week? You think its cool? Yeah, I'm now known by my buddies as 'Mr Ultraman' but its super tiring to save the world with fatigue, stress and irregular monthly torture.

I had explained what I wish to say to the people who feels the burden for my actions. Like it, hate it, all I could say is that I don't mind being looked down. I never think myself highly but if I am one of the worst person in the group, then let me be. At least I shall be the role model to others that they should learn not to follow.

Retards... ZZzzz.. I have done with my saying... See ya in the "court room" while I face my judgement day in front of the eyes of the jury as you decide my fate towards justice, Judge.

"Spears and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." - Anonymous