Going through those emotional periods lately had been difficult for me but I realized what was the reason to all these: I'm aimless with life.

Hence, I have decided that studies will be my next motivational level that I will try to attend. Part time studies isn't easy but I believe if I'm determine enough, I can manage it. Yet, the only reason is still work concerns, affecting my schedules in future. 

Initially I only got to know that 2 mates are pursuing their studies but now, there's 3. I was stunned on the spot upon hearing the news but I guess, I will need lots of self studying to improve my grades. I just gonna see what lies ahead in the future but if worst come to worst, moving on from where I work may be a good way to pursue my interest. That shall be my concern in the later months.

Another concern, probably a reflection that I had earlier tonight, was about being man enough in a boy-girl relationship. I don't know but I realized that I'm not a pretty bad guy after all when it comes to romance.

I may have love and lost the 2 gals of my dreams but to be honest, I think I did a perfect job during the start and midst of the relationship, until the latter. I don't know how am I supposed to continue this reflection but I really want to thank them for playing a part of my love life, especially Auntie Emily for the life changing experience that I had gone through.

At the end of the day, a man should put in effort in a relationship to ensure it works and add in some romance chemistry or else, woman will find it bored when being with you!

Also, when it comes to comparison on who loves who more and who sacrifices more, please!! It's not easy to measure and will measuring them make both ends happy? I don't think so. If such minor stuff can make things rocky, I think the gal can deserve better.

Lastly, if you wish to get a date with the gal you are fond to, just DO it!! Ask the damn question for a date and don't e pessimistic all the time. These stuff can worry at the later part. Gambate!!

Well, no one is being referred in this post so I have come clean.

I am just at the comfort zone of singlehood and why? I had been loved before. It's good enough for now, I guess. Thanks XX and Auntie Emily for the love you once gave and cherished. I'm contented with that. =]