Time is running out for me... The N Levels are around the corner. Just less then two weeks and I going to take my first step to hell. I have not prepared my things yet. All the revision in the school is making me feeling so exhausted. Gosh, I really hope that the exams would end earlier. However, I hope when I get back my results, it will be a good sign, not a bad one... Oh I hope...

Meanwhile, this week is truly horrible for me... really don't know why. Firstly, I get a scolding from Ms lee. Why? It's because I did not pass up my history source base. She said she did not expect me to do such a thing and she said only she is the one, who felt the urgency for the N levels and not us. I really feel the urgency about the N Levels but I'm too exhausted to continue. I have been 'sick' on that day, as I have done too much source base this week. But, I really felt sorry for her, for her contribution and hard work towards us. I really apologize to her while on the phone. During the conversation, the only sentence that came out of my mouth was, "Sorry, Ms Lee". Don't know why. Maybe I'm do not know what to say except for sorry or that's the only word that I can tell her.

Sion and his mother again quarrel on Wednesday. I really don't know what happen to both of them but the problem is solved anyway. Before the problem is solved, many of us in 4N3 wanted to help Sion. Even those people from 4N2, maybe known as extras but they also felt concern about Sion's matter. Anyway, the rest of us quarrel after Sion left for home. That's because the rest of us wanted to help Sion, especially me, who wanted to confront Sion's mum. When the rest did not agree with me, I felt that they seemed to be scared. Maybe I did not think of other ways but felt that this was the only solution to the problem. However, after we quarrel about the matter, I finally cool down, knowing why I'm sort of foolish. I believe that some actions that we done, we should not regret about it. When you think of the better solution of the problem, it would be too late to solve the problem. Anyway, I'm sorry for that day for being too unreasonable. I will try to control my temper. As for Sion, we really hope you and your Mum would not quarrel again. Family is still the best people that you can click with. Without your friends, family members would be by your side, supporting you. So don't quarrel again... Must relax... hehe...

On Friday, I saw someone who I had never met since last November. She still looks the same. That person was my ex-state, Pei Fen. She still looks the same and she was the one who called out my name. At first, I was shocked for a moment but I just say to her, "Hi". I did not talk to her after all, as many boys were around her. Sometimes, in my heart, I really miss her a lot. Don't know why. I'm still concern about her. Every time when I chat with my cousin, I would ask whether did she saw Pei Fen. In the end, the reply would be no. Now, I don't mind whether she mix with who. I just hope she would be happy with what she is doing and the people she mixes with. That's all I can do for her, as a friend, as a 'brother'... Haiz...

Well, that's the past. There's no turning back or to cry about. Right now, I must concentrate with my studies. To the rest of my friends taking the N Levels, good luck to all.. Time to rest now.. Haiz..