Its been nearly ages after not blogging in... These few weeks was too busy for me to blog and may probs that I have been settling with these days... Haiz... Getting sick of being a human after all... Now in my mind, there are 2 issues that cannot be solved. One is, why people love to quarrel when it comes with money. Another prob was why some people are getting onto my nerves... I really dont know why...

The first prob happens last week, where I got to sell my Christmas cards and pens in order to earn a living. I dont know why my sis wanted to charge others the price of the cards $3.30. Heard its for the charges on transport and bringing the cards to them to sell... But the prob, which was more serious on last Thursday, was the people were "fighting" about the the charges... I felt sick and tired about this whole thing and my sis complained the issue to my Mom, thats more worst... The situation was terrible, just like everyone wanted to have a fight... Then on last Sat, cant believe it that my Mom was coming with me to the industry, where i'm returning the cards back. That was consider the most pathetic day of my life, and I had to leave earlier with my Mom and sis, to avoid another conflict from happening, Haiz... Another thing, to Janice, so sorry about that day, for leaving abruptly... leaving you alone to wait for the rest... Really sorry about it...

Well, the second prob was playing soccer with the rest... I really dont know why but I get extremely "hot" when playing with them. Its like I cant click with the rest, especially Jia Long. I do admit that I'm not a great goalkeeper, which is the fact after all. I'm really fed up when others ask me to be the goalkeeper... Ask me do once or twice, still alright, if always, count me out guys... The only 2 positions that I can do are defenders and midfielders... others.... quite hard... I love to score goals but I'm not that accurate at that. only low balls would do for me... Volleys... another time... I also had been a lack f communication with the rest, maybe I'm too sensitive or what but their behaviour ometimes make me boil towards the extreme... But I think its alright after a day or so....

The rest are still alright but not Jia Long, who injured his leg last week. As a friend, I really abit concern about his injury but in the soccer match, no mercy would be put on him from now on. I truly dont understand what on earth is he doing, kicking the ball high up for what?? His comments about my playing also make me feel sick, why cant he say himself first before saying others... To be honest, Jia Long, your level of playing is not up to standard. You REALLY lack of speed and workrate... Especially now, with your injured leg, its best that less running and shoting can be done, or your injury will heal a longer time. Thats all I can say, the play is still on your hands, its either your lost or gain, so its ot my prob for that...

These few days are the terrible days I ever had. Is that the true reality of life, just like soccer, to be selfish all the time and with money or power, you will be the best?? In my heart, mix feelings can be feel... I maybe need to learn more on self control towards my temper and sensitivity... But soccer is part of my life. Didnt know that soccer can result in this... Like everyone wanted to be the next person to be promoted from their job, just like in soccer, snatching the ball and scoring a goal, makes you the man of the team. Whereas the loser team, will be blame y others, point fingered and other stuffs... Seems like I had enough from all this... Gonna play well in my soccer... If needed to be selfish... it leaves me no choice... Haiz...