what a match... nearly kills me through boredom... keep playing as the goalkeeper for nearly 3 matches. Even though I have a chance to play as Striker, it is just ONLY 1 game... I repeat... 1 GAME!!! How in the hack can I get back my form. Even though I have train for a few minutes, is it sufficient?? That's totally a BULL!!! Sorry if you hat my impatience but I'm getting to explode soon, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW!!! You call those people to exchange roles with you and what the hack they say? 'Nah, dont feel like changing with you...' Never mind about that, what about letting me playing for the last 5 minutes of the game, before the lights goes off and everyone goes back home... 'Ar... Wait ar, let me play first... You wait first k... Until i finish this game...' WAIT!!! WAIT!!! That's a fully loaded crap of yours!!! So, I dceided to walk off... WALK OFF!!! Sick and tired of this man!!!! Accept for Jimmy and Eugen, I can understand that... Eugene wanted to play a match and he did swoop roles with me... Jimmy didnt want to change roles with me but I dont mind, as the team needs him in order to win. Alex is a good striker, anot a good keeper... Sion.. he's paling for another team... Never mind... Jack... YOU PISS ME OFF FIRST... WITH YOUR BLOODY EXCUSE.... Never mind... How about Jia Long, let me have a chance to play for 5 minutes... NAH!!! Forget it... Next time I just pass you people the ball and you defend the post by yourself!!! AT ALL MEANS!!! Pissing me off just like that... GREAT!!!!

Today, I found out a secret.. A extreme,extreme, extreme, extreme, extreme DARK DARK secret.... Really hurts me alot for sure... I keep playing soccer with this secret in my mind... I really dont know why... It seems that no matter what I do, it will not change the fact. MAybe the problem lies in me... Really me... Great!! I just keep this a secret as I dont want it to be too obvious... Only some people know about it... I hope that the secret will change but it will not happen... for SURE... now, I really believe that the phrase 'The truth really hurts' is definitely a good phrase, a meaningful one... I seem to eb the only fool in this world, who doesnt know about it... Why everyone want to make me a fool... for goddness sake... It seems that i lost everything... Hopeless... Goner!!! GAME OVER!!!! FINISHED!!!! A pathetic, lonely, irritating, bloody fool of the century... What a day man!!!! WHAT A DAY!!!!!

Problems still exist in my home... My 'dear' father.. SMoke all day, polluting the air in my home... he can kiss me goodbye if it goes on for the next few years... I will be getting sick of this smell.. That bloody stinking smell that fatally put my family's lives at risk... Hey father... you are a 'good' father... a stink 'good' father... I really hate you sometimes, even though I respect you. I cant wait to say that I really want to give you a punch in your face... But I'm still bearing it... BEARING IT!!! My Mom..??? Nags all day... yeah.. Sometimes I agree that people say Women nages alot... hey do care.. They do show their love... But do they know they are extremely irritating when you are totally stressed up??? You get to feel the temperature in your body to rise up... Blowing your top!!!! Piss me off when my Mom nags at me.... Cant you just shut the hell up??? I'm the one who is studying and you putting me in this state of mind... Are you nuts??? Or am I the one who is nuts?? I feel like screaming in front of you to stop interferring my problems but I cant... You are my Mum, I respect you... Dont force me to turn my back on you one day... Dont ever make me do tahat Mum... DONT!!!!! My sister... Irritating like a 'B'... When she has problems, find me... When she got gossips, tell me... When I need things from her.. sometimes give me an attitude.. Do you know that I've enough of all the crap.. especially you tell your friends about your hatred towards my friends!!! ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! You dont ever interfere my life dude... I have my own friends. i know what's right, what's wrong... No need for you to worry... ANyway... Thanks for YOUR CONCERN..... I had enough of all this, making me angry for every word I'm typing right now....It seems I'm going to whack all of them up, upside down... Gosh!!!! My family is so SUCKY!!! SUCKY!!!!

Dear friends of mine, I know you dont know the real me... But I'm going to say this... i can be nice.. I can be your most perfect lamer, fool, arsehole and many more... Howver, I have patience... i can bear all the laughs, taunts and other things about me taht are done by all of you... I bearing... BEARING... and I'm exploding like a bomb.. You dont like me when i'm angry.. Especially when I'm out of control... Doing the most foolish things that you never expect from me... I can be a nice guy.. but i'm not a total blind person... a gay... a lamer or other names taht you call me... I maybe a weak jerk but I have my desire... My dream... My favourites... Dont force me to put you people in a difficult position... seeing the different Nicholas in front of you... And I saying these things... I mean IT!!!