haix... C.I. is starting soon... in just 5 days time... Even though it will be a new school, a new me... I still hate to attend the school. Looking at my friends getting their pay... Earning the money that i would never have... It really makes me jealous. I really hope that i can earn more money to buy a MP3 player just for myself. too bad... My Mom is not happy with the decision I've made to quit my C.I.. Most of all, it seems taht there will be only me and Charissa to attend the C.I.. Even though there's Xin Ni, Farhanah and Azimah, my buddies are not going to attend the course... Shit... Must my life be controlled by my Mom at all times?? Even though I have the freedom, she still cant give me the lif I wanted... The life that I prefer.. The life that I wished i could have forever... Haix... This crappy thing of Life and studies are killing me... No wonder my brain cells are dying off.. causing me to lose my memory... Just simple as that...

Right now, I dont have to work but i keep getting tired. maybe I worked too hard with my past job... 12 hours of working... 1 hour of journey back home... 5 to 6 hours of sleep... 2 hours of nightmare... Haix... This is getting crazy, irritating and pathetic for me... My Gundam... i have no time to fix it yet... What am i going to do now??!!! I will get my full-time MC tomorrow... Just sleep for the next 24 hours would cure my sickness.. of boredom.. and to complete the things I had not done yet...

Today's party at Suhaimi's house was quite fun.. Fun in the sense that we finally get to talk to eac other after the 'O' Levels ended... We had not chatted to each other for nearly 2 months or so... but its really quite good to see everyone again... We played Carem.. I really dont know how to spell it but its a game which you try to shoot the circular blocks into the net, using another circular block... I did a nice shot by hiting 2 blocks into the net at the last minute.. Cool!! I eventually lost the game.. With the rest having 8 blocks while I have 3... maybe I need to practise my skills... haha...

Anyway... the party ened at around 8.30... HAix... It ends so fast... Wish it could be a two day party... haha... maybe I've been thinking too much... alright... Time to take my rest now... Hope I could celebrate New Year with my friends during New Year's Eve.. haha... Realy piss off with my Mum... AR!!!