Finally, I got an official player in my team. The fifth player for my team is none other than Mr Sham's son... I forgot his name... I'm just bad in recalling names. Even the most simple names I could mix up. Why?? Easy... I'm getting old these days. Haha... Anyway, last night I actually want to blog a post but couldnt. Not beacuse of the computer or the Internet connection. It's because of of the Charity Soccer. On my previous post, I did say that Fitry was in my team. However, it turn out to be unsuccessful. Mr Siva didnt allow such things to happen. He said that a player is only allow to play for one team, not both. It really give me a big blow... That was just in the evening. During that time, my mind was in a total mess... Projects... Soccer... my injury... All these things pop into my mind instantly.

In the night, more problems arised... I called as many people as I could find but none of them want to play for my team. Most were busy, or not interested... Some even few that it's expensive. I mean... I dont mind asking the rest to spend more money... However, it seems that rejection is the only thing you people would give me... Sion... Alright, he has reconsidered the choice... I mean... He was in Hakim's team in the beginning. His rejection is definitely alright for me. However, for Fitry... I feel something like wise... He has a high chance of not playing and yet he still wants to play for Hakim's team... Like any stranger, I would ponder my imagination...

Seriously, if you are someone who has a chance to choose a superb team or a so-so team, who would you choose... Most people would choose the stronger team.. Why?? Trophy... The higher the chance of winning the whole tournament... Furthermore, with Fitry given a chance to play for both teams, he would get to choose what medals he would take... Some sort like a bet, if my team lose, he would be able to win something if Hakim's team won... On the other hand, if Hakim's team lost, he could concentrate on winning the game for us, to win the whole thing. I may not be smart but I know that everyone has a underlying reason to make his or her decisions... Just look at Hakim's team... with the names of Alex, Sion and Fairos, Fitry would feel like he's a winner for sure... Fairos, the school's best striker... scoring 6 goals against Holy Innocent High.. Amazing right??!!! Who wont want to pair up with him??!!!

To me, these issues doesnt matter at all... That night... Anger... Sadness... Thats all in my mind... Stress is how I feel... Pain is how I got... I feel that the world is super unfair... Superior would win every thing... However, I need to prove these odds tomorrow... Everything was againsting the team... Teachers, friends, rules... I feel like stopping the whole soccer tournament, maybe forfeiting it but I still understand how my teammates feel... Eugene want to show his true self... Jack also, as well as Jimmy... I know they would some sort put their pride at stake but winning the game is very hard... Teams with the best players are all around... I know I'm not that good but I'm willing to try... though i'm the striker for the day, I still need to support the defense for our team since Mr Sham's son is not a good player...

Thanks to Christine... Thanks for the poem you had wrote...(Although I wrote a poem back to you, I hope you would like it... By the way, dont eat too much painkillers... it wont help much to prevent the pain from coming back... It's best that you should rest more and see a doctor if possible...) I know what you been doing these days to cheer me up, as well as Diana... I really thank for what you people had done for me... Giving me motivative words to make me go on with all the suffering... By the way, my left foot didnt heal completetly... I still feel the pain while playing soccer today... I think I need to buck up... Tomorrow... Warming up is a necessary... Training is complete... Time to put my best performance for 6 matches... Good luck Wei Teck...