This is probably my last entry... I will try to crap it as long as possible. These days, alot of things really come into my mind... I dont know how to explain. However, it seems that the world is changing at such a rapid pace that I'm unable to catch up. Relationship; studies and sport. These 3 aspects in my daily life, is changing... It's like a big revolution has taken place a few hours ago and my world has collasped. You can say that I'm becoming nuts but I'm actually not. I have seen enough and I have had enough. I might not be suitable for this change yet. I maybe need loads of time to do so. I dont know...

Relationship wise, I wish everyone who has a partner with you, stay happy as always... Friends of mine has always make me feel so jealous after all... Haha... Kidding. However, I just want to say is that, treasure what you have now. Although it's probably puppy love to all of you people, or maybe a very serious relationship, just... just treasure the moment you have with that gal or guy... wow... I'm talking crap again... I know loving a person is and I have experienced it. I dont wish to see people hurt themselves. I heard people slashing their wrists, wanting to jump down... What's worst, saying 'I wana die' from morning till night... Oh come on... At least, be strong enough to stand up and move on... Looks like I dont have any and I'm acting so bossy as if I have one. LOL... The guys in S(B) always say Gabriel and I are like buddies. Our sight-seeing is so bad that they think that we are only attracted to guys only, not gals. Haha... Wow... if that's true, I would be laughing my head off.

Family matters, try not to quarrel with your parents. Once, I did quarrel with them. However, after thinking about it again, I realised that the most important part of life is still the days with your family. You will miss them terribly when you parted from them. I once hate my sister, to the core, because of her attitude towards my friends and I. However, sometimes, she is still as sweet as she was young. I understand that our family has this mentality of helping friends towards the end. She's one of them and I'm one of them. Now I realised that she's like me, so there's nothing to hate at all. Wow... Crapping again... Never mind. Since this is the last post, I wont do much about it... Haha... Just use all my broken english and singlish style of writing would do... Had enough... Told you...

Studies... People!!! Work hard!!! I know you are not retards like me who dont know how to concentrate on studies. Please!!! Dont be like me... I seriously dont like people to follow my footsteps. Even if I'm a good student, a good student also has bad grades. Just work hard will do. People like Christine, Diana, MeiQi, Christina, Ivy and all the Secondary dudes... Work hard... I know you all can do it... Getting good results gives you a good future. I bet you have heard this crap alot of times but trust me, you wont regret it after you score well in your academic. You will love to study rather than work... hehe... Seriously, working sucks... You do the same thing, again and again, till you are sick of it... Most of all, treasure the school days you have now. Like me, I always go back to Canberra because I miss the school. Haha... Never mind... VJ will still be in the Computer lab, I will be always there too... to use the com and talk cock, sing song and play 'Mahjong'... haha...

Till here, I will write some things about me... Sports... Hum... Soccer... I might not be the best but I will still work hard. I'm not going to give up, that's the way for me to survive. I always have this feeling of not giving up, probably I dont want to lost or I hate losing. However, after the fight with Gavin, I realised that no matter how suck is the team, it still takes teamwork to build up the spirit, to build up the set-pieces for soccer, as well as giving people the opportunity to score goals and winning more games. Soccer's most important rule is to score goals, not do tricks... Jack told me that and I know it... as a good striker, Jack is still able to maintain his position... Haha... He's as good as before... While Eugene, he's always good, with all the Steven gerrard passes and kicks, you better run for your life if the ball is in mid air and he's gonna whack it... Jimmy??? He runs, he dribbles, he make a mess out of you... Blah and blah... He's the Theirry Henry of our team... God-like... hahaha... Jia Long is not bad at all too... His kicks are better than before.. Less high balls but passing wise, still can improve. I see him grow to become a good player and he did well this time round... GOOD WORK!!! As for the rest, Kian Wee, Jonathan and Gavin, you people started to have the interest in soccer is a good thing for us... We have enough people to play now... Lol...

Before I end, this question is popping into my mind... Is success and money that important in life?? I really dont know how to answer that. A friend of mine told me that he wants to earn alot of money to help others. That sounds 'artificial' to me. Maybe I'm too sensitive to what he has said. Last night, we have a chat and I dont know how he treats it but seriously, I was not in a good mood. Brother... If you know who you are, I hope you would forgive me... for this post and my reaction for last night... Maybe I'm still naive and I dont understand a hood about money matters. However, I wish you could join the competiton because you are the one who inspired me to sing and in the end, you are the one who said you are not joining because you need to pay money... Come on... I would not go for the lessons too... I would like to try it out. Though I have a chance to be out of the competition, at least we have the experience. Then you told me that the money that I earned is to make my Mum's life better... Not to be poor and be famous... Seriously, right now, fame and money is not that important to me... Does money allows you to buy friends??? Family??? I would rather be as poor as now, than being famous...

I compose songs to allow people to enjoy, not for the rich and famous... Composing a song is my interest and you are the one, AGAIN, that inspired me to do so. You are a brother to me and I really wish we can compose a song together but it never happen. I wrote songs for the sake of my hobby, to tell my life to others, especially to my friends. What's the use if you know how to write all the lyrics but dont know how to play the piano or guitar with it??!!! I would rather sing it to my friends. If they are happy, I'm happy... that's simple... I have a bad voice, poor in my languages and I'm writing a song, people would be laughing like mad now after knowing that I actually a pathetic person who dont know how to write proper songs... LOL!!! My entrance to V.E. is another thing that you inspired me... You make me feel that singing is so great that I join V.E.. However, this seems like I'm heading nowhere. Music is used to allow people to appreciate it... and since your words last night... I dont think so that I'm able to survive in V.E.. What's V.E. if you dont like singing?!!! I would rather be a nerd in the Poly, with no CCA, with my spastic spectacles and uncombed hair... Like that I would be better off...

I'm not picking a fight or what... Just espressing my views... I dont wish you to do this kind of job since its not suitable to you... I know I have to tell you this but this job dont suit you... I'm npot saying that I'm looking down at you but at this market, to sell these products, you need to go to places or households who are health concious. I could lend you my Marketing book if you want to see it, which will make you understand more about business... Such lines are hard to maintain... Its either your rise up high or you're going down, all the way... I dont mind you work as that for the next few years but I dont wish you to work like this for a living till you retire... I think there's other jobs for you... or you can open a shop and be successful. I dont mind to see you going successful or wealthy but I dont wish that you would buy the idea that with money, you can make things the better. There's some things that money cant buy... I may not be a good rebuter but what I can do now is to advice you... Political stuff... This is what you gonna face when working life starts... I dont wish you are being screw by others...

As a brother to you, and you as a brother to me, I wish you would not work as a salesman till you retire... Hope its a short trial... and also, join the competition... Told you... It's for the experience... by the way, I wont force you and you cant force me... However, I might not be taking the competiton if that day comes... who knows... as what I have say, my life my rules... I live because I'm happy with my life, even if I have alot of troubles... This shows me something... Money cant buy me happiness...