One said that practise do makes perfect. However, if some things cant work out, its either the effort is not enough, or the person is not trying at all. It seems that the concert for the Phantom of the Opera is just 2 weeks time and I felt that I'm not ready for that. I have not memorise the scores and adjust my voice range. Thursday was a 'lecture' for me, since Mr Ong, our conductor, was telling us that he's worried about the concert and we seemed to be not doing our best. I know that once I'm in this CCA, there's no turning back. First of all, I like singing, or should I say I love singing... Whatever, it seems that both sounds the same, just different variations of its meaning.

Anyway, Mr Ong realised that my singing was not the right position. I was not using the right technique to sing and he tried to help me with that. Yet, I still couldnt do the right thing. I was so angry with myself that I feel like whacking anything that's around me. All I could do was to clench my fist with fury and keep telling myself, 'Bear the anger... Relax... Dont explode in front of them...' Cai Yun could see how frustrated am I and she tried to comfort me through SMS. Thanks anyway... Haha...

After V.E., it was home sweet home but I seriously dont feel like going back home. While on the way back, I feel the bitterness between 2 friends of mine and yet, I have nothing to do. Since she said if I interfere one more time, she would not talk to me, I dont mind. All I just wish is to see everyone be happy and no conflicts would occur. Furthermore, the concert is so near and its best not to start any conflicts that may cause disharmony in V.E.. Since I was told to leave, I leave. I alighted at Kathib and wait for the next train. Cai Yun was not happy with my attitude. Fazilah was stunned, as well as Joann and Yi Tian... (That's my assumption... If I'm wrong, sorry then...) I messaged them that I was not feeling that good and told them not to worry. I just want to be alone for awhile. I keep thinking what am I suppose to do to my vocals. How am I able to memorise everything. Would I be the burden to the Tenors because I was a bad singer??!!! All the questions keep popping up. My whole body was feeling very hot suddenly. It's like I'm going to melt if I'm an ice, probably I was burning with fire... I just realise that I need an air-con to chill my body temperature... LOL!!

Cai Yun told me in SMS that she's able to read my emotions and it seems that I should learn to control my emotions. To me, I prefer to let it out... Its seems that what I could do was to be my true self. I'm me and whatever I do, feel, react, there's a reason behind that. I would love to control my emotions but still, its a tough job to do so. You're able to control it because you are determine to do so. However, you are you and I am I. We are different and different personalities have different ways of letting out their emotions, or taking the 'damages' that we would faced. Well, Cai Yun, I just want to thank you for being there for me on that day. I was feeling really down and I need to chill for a moment. I would prefer you smile than you worrying about me. Each time I got stress in practise, you would be the one who SMS me and get me to cool down... Thanks alot... And sorry to make the rest of you get worried. I'm fine now and I'm gonna make sure that this concert would be a success, not a failure.

Chris had her performance at CCAB just now. It was the NCO Band Camp, which are mainly for Band majors and Drum majors. Hmm... It was a nice show but I still prefer the play at the soccer court. LOL!! I forgot to mention that after the performance, we went to borrow a ball and start playing soccer for a moment. Haha... In the end, Chris was ready at around 8 plus, after finally managed to change her clothes. We begin to take the bus back to Newton Circle but in the end, we walked all the way to Newton Circle. Although its my suggestion, I still think its the best idea to follow. Though everyone were tired after the walk, we still managed to reach Newton Circle for OUR lunch??!! Yeah... Sort of for the most of us. Haha...

After the dinner, we went back but trouble started with Gavin leaving early due to some internal conflict. I dont know what happen but I just hope that everything gonna be alright tomorrow. While for Chris, she was really 'smart' enough to bring the lollipop into the station but luckily, she wasnt fined for $500. If she do, I dont know what her Mum gonna say this round. Haix... Eugene and I were confused by her actions. Why must she eat the lollipop at that period of time??!!! OMG!!! We took the train all the way to Marina Bay and back to our respective stations. By then, I was too tired to do anything... Stress... Tired... Exhausted... Haix... I rather sleep than I talk and I need more energy to do my homework with Huai Xin tomorrow at the library. Haix... Gonna rest now... Very tired... Sleepy... That's me...

2 weeks time... Am I really ready for that?? Am I prepared for the up-coming battle?? Hmm... We shall know the answer next week... Derik and Ben, I need your help... Haha... Time to beat the clock and give the best performance I could have... Stress-mania??? Hm... Just bring it, dude!!!