Chinese New Year Day 2 and 3 was quite alright. I do enjoy the day at Jeremy's house on Day 2, since he was challenging a game of Winning Eleven 9 with me. Alright, I did win him but yet I lost after that. Yao Xing, V.J., Jeremy, Jeremy's Dad and I went to took the food from a nearby neighbourhood in Sembwang, of course, for the occasion later in the afternoon. After bringing the food to his house, we continue the game. As usual, Jeremy wants to win the game and he did, after a few times... However, he was so engross with the game that his Mum was nagging at him to eat first instead of playing first. Haha... I left early as I need to visit other places in ang Mo Kio. I went back to his house again in the evening, which turn out to be a bad thing. We bought liquor and I realised that his Mum and Dad wasnt please at all. My bad. I should have stopped them from ordering too much liquor. Haix... Never mind. I know my mistake and so, mistakes are mend to be learnt. Haha...

Day 3 was abit bored. I went to Cindy's house at 12 plus. She was really a weirdo. She messaged me, telling me not to go to her house yet as her Dad is at home. Okay, I dont mind at all. However, the biggest prob was that I dont have her address, so how am I suppose to find my way to her house? Haha... Alright, I know you read this post, you will be mad. Anyway, thanks for the offer. I do enjoy visiting your house, especially the wonderful view outside your house, where I could see the court in front. Now that's what I call free entertainment, just like a stadium view. Maybe I would consider buying a house that has such a splendid view?? Haha... I went to Ang Mo Kio again but it was just a 5 minutes visit and I left the house. My coach, Mum, Sister and I went to have Swenson's for dinner, which is breakfast for me actually... I had a chicken cutlet and ice cream. A nice meal which last me the whole day. At night, I was doing my AFA till I go crazy and posted the stupid post, which was last night. I continued my studies till 4am today. Amazing...

Woke up at 11 plus, thanks to Kenneth, who wants to ask me Statistics question. I dont mind helping as its a good way to start revision, fresh in the morning. Doing the question was alright and I think I need to start my revison for Stats again. There are still some loopholes in the topics but I think I gonna continue my studies later till tomorrow morning. I think Canberra students would see me in the morning, Shagged... I would be staying at Jia Long's house for a night to watch the match between Liverpool and Barcelona, as well as studying. No choice, I need to fight all the way. Haha...

Before I end my post for today, I need to type some stuff to release the pressure in my chest. Well, believe or not, while on my way to school today, I saw someone trying to jump off the building. I wasnt sure if its a male or female but I do know that if you see a tent at the parking lot, this means that someone is jumping. Its either the person is throwing another person down, or the person is trying to throw himself or herself down. To me, I do look at the scene but just managed to see the tent, and many other spectators watching the whole show. I dont feel like knowing and I was thinking that the person who is doing this is rather stupid. Stupid... Yeah... Stupid.. You have your life, and you dont cherish it when problems occur. How about the people who are born with illness in themselves. Why are they still perserving to stay alive?? That's because they have dreams and passion that they long to fulfill.

I have no rights to judge a person's doing but I do believe in people's judgement for survival. If someone is so eager to jump, why do it now?? You should do it when you are a kid. Alot of things come into my mind after watching the incident. I feel... nothing... Numb... Lost... Thinking about my existence in this world... Is life gonna be like that?? I sometimes realised that I was the noobest person in the world, who cant protect or help the people around me; people who I care and love. Even if they accept my help, it seems like my help is not needed. All I did was like extra... Haix... alright, I have nothing to say but think I'm too sensitive... Maybe...

I really wish I could just protect someone from sickness, from pain... but fail to do so. Hope to be the person's wings, bringing that person high up the sky.... Yet... Reality hits back... its all a dream... Wild thoughts of mine? Probably... In fact... Its hard to lose someone... and I dont know how am I gonna face it in the future... Cry?? Run away?? Stay calm?? I actually have the perfect answer.... Feel numb.... numb....