I didnt post much about this week. After the crap review about the NYP Open House, I was getting ready for my ICa presentation. I dont know whether its a screw up job but I hope everyone would be happy and relief that projects are getting lesser. However, the bad news is that in less than 3 weeks time, its time for exams. I have not start studying yet so I think I would start studying tomorrow. Probably doing my homework at the nearby Macdonalds or maybe at a quiet void deck either in the Ang Mo Kio or Sembawang area.

Just merely 5 days and a lot of things happen. I got stress up with projects and I have to do the rest if there's any problems. There's no reason for that but as a team, we must help each other and make sure that everything would move on smoothly. I agree that for Microeconomics, I was working like a bull. I have to do certain editing until I got fed up with it at times. I dont blame the team for that as they did do their part. Whereas for P.O.M., I think everyone did try their best to do their tasks but however, there are rubbish given to me at times. Sometimes, I have the phobia of working in a team. Its sad that sometimes your ideas are rejected or team members would feel that your contribution is very little or none although you have been trying to help. Sometimes, I feel like carrying the monitor in front of me, slammed it at the person's face who give me rubbish work. That's life. We dont expect good things to happen too often. However, we could make sure that the bad things wont affect our day too. As what I have mentioned. I dont wish to say any names on my disappointment towards my teammates in projects. I just want to tell them, 'Thank you' instead. For those who did put an effort, thanks. For those who didnt or at least, nothing at all, thanks too...

Monday's presentation was a fun one. We started as the 3rd group but when the lecturer left the class for a moment, we skipped our slides and when he returned, we told him we had finished telling the class about the 1st queston. Phew! Mr Hew, our Microeconomics lecturer, believed it and we went on and end our project without any Q&A for us. Phew... I cant believe it Dennis called Mr Hew as 'Mr Hewie'... Diao... It was a good laugh indeed. Haha... After Monday's presentation, then come Wednesday's. A frustrating project that I have done, P.O.M., which nearly killed my whole brain cells in 2 hours. We acted out the skit, which was funny too but our presentation was too long. We exceeded 1 minute but I dont mind losing the 5 marks. I think we could have done better if one of my teammate was willing to do a proper task in the work given to that person. To ask that person to write a script for the presentation, and its isnt a fairytale story which is complicated. Yet, that person didnt do that at all. Haix... I feel like killing that person but too bad, the law doesnt permits that to happen.

After a good presentation, I went to watch Singapore vs Thailand in the National stadium. This would be the last time I would be seeing this big stadium, with a full house of 55000 fans. The game was a rough one, with tackles flying everywhere and injuries occurred. Alam Shah did well to score the first goal for Singapore, which gives us the lead. However, Thailand was able to score back by rounding the keeper. It was a fair challenge to the referee but to me, it wasnt. The Thailand player elbowed our fellow footballer, which allows the defensive flow to be broken. Luckily, a penalty was given for Singapore to win the controversal match. Thailand's walk off from the pictch stunned everyone. When referee blows the whistle after the tackle, everyone shouted. Then, he showed the penalty signal, which leds to everyone to stand up. However, once Thailand left the pitch, all hell break lose. Fans were cursing and swearing. Dont worry, I'm also doing that, which is a normal process for all fans. When the penalty was taken, Singapore led 2-1. Although I dont know when the match ends, many of the Lion fans were blowing the whistle, trying to bluff everyone that its final.. Haha... Nice job.

Thursday's tuition was not a good one. I nearly blast myself in front of my student, Henry. Although he's only Primary One, kids usually would be mischievous. I wanted to scold him but I cant. He wasnt paying much attention and it makes me go crazy at times. I dont mind him playing but not with my pens in my pencil box, please!! The question he gave me was a question for me to do some soul searching... Am my teaching techniques wrong?? Are my questions too hard to answer?? Is Yong Hong better than me in teaching?? Well, Yong Hong is indeed better than me. My buddy introduces me this work so its definitely he got the assurance to do such a job. After the tuition, I just walk back to the bus stop, took a bus home and rest. I dont feel like doing my projects at all. I want to think, think about that day's event. A friend of mine told me that maybe I expect too much from him and asked me not to think too much, since kids these days are hard to handle. Yeah... I understand but sometimes... I dont know... Feeling lost again.

By the way, I just came back home from basketball and soccer. I wanted to relax myself by kicking a stupid ball into the net. However, we end up playing basketball. In the end, Eugene's team won but seriously, it doesnt matter to me. I dont have the confidence to win during that time. I dont mind to have a weak team but I think I wasnt determine to win the game. As a person with great determination and fighting spirit, I had lost the fire that I once had. However, after some struggle, I was back, not totally. In the end, I'm suffering from cramps at my legs, both legs... OMG!! I hate it when its soccer tomorrow. Oh yeah! We bought a new ball today, which cost us $21. Not bad. Its the new ball that the EPL is using right now. Cool!!!

Before I end today's post, I was wondering what would happen in the future. 'Seeing is Believing', that is what Lance Armstrong had once said. Things are going crazy in Derik's blog but I dont wish to interfere. Since I'm just a reader, and this issue doesnt concern about me, then it should be alright. What I hope is that the quarrel would stop. I might be thinking too much but honestly... I dont know... I cant explain that now with so many things in my mind now. Things like relationship is hanging at the pivot of a person's life, not me. A friend questioned me... What is the real meaning of 'LOVE'? I couldnt answer. Its not because I'm cold blooded or what but I think it should be defined by oneself.

If a guy is willing to sacrifice everything he has to the gal that he wants to be forever with, is it a good thing? Gals would be thinking it should be a fairytale story but I dont think so. Sometimes, you wish that the person is there, even with a simple SMS would do. Although the age factor could cause problems, for example, 5 or 6 years gap. Yet if both of them knows what they want in life and its to be together, then that's what I called 'Love'. I would admit this in my blog. I dont understand the word, 'Love', probably I'm losing it. I understand 'Motherly Love', the kind of friendship that contains 'Love' and the passion of doing a thing that you like. However, the true meaning of 'True Love', to me, I have lost the privilege for that. I dont know why.

That is why I hope my friends or anyone who knows me would be happy, thats all. I dont mind to be single for life. Maybe that's the route I have choose to take. There would be regrets and changes but who knows, I may find one someday. However, all I can tell my friend is that... Good luck, Dude!! Love is indeed in the air... Haha.. Resting now... Tired...