Everything seems to just turn out to be sudden. Few days ago, it should be a miscommunication with someone, today?!! There's another miscommunication!! I dont expect that to happen and I hope he would be alright. Most of all, for today's incident, I'm very sorry. I'm so sorry about it, Zhi Wei. I think its partly my fault for coming today and without Derik and you knowing about my attendance, which caused both of you to cancel something that is important. I understand you came because you guys thought that Benjamin would be the only Tenor while I'm missing. Hence, for once, I really feel so sorry for turning up.

I didnt expect you to be so mad since from the start till the end of the session. Anyway, I think this wont happen again and I wont let it happen. All I could say that its my irresponsibility that caused such problems. Ben shouldnt be in the wrong since its his first time doing his duty in the committee. Whereas for me, I'm felt that I have not started my task at all. Positions and resposibilities... What are they?? I had a nice talk with Derik during the break and I was feeling hurt, till now. However, I gonna let it all out today and BOOM!! That's it! Everything would be history and I'm gonna be ruling my life the way I always should be.

Anyway, first thing first, I realised that Diana's incident was totally my fault. I should classified that as I was the pest that pesters her everyday, sort of conducting spot checks on her. I'm sorry about it Diana but I'm not sure you would read this post or not. All I could say that blogs are mend to be read by the owner and seldom friends would read it unless its an insulting post. Back to the issue, after reading your blog a few minutes ago, I realised that I could not understand your feelings. Sometimes its hard for me to understand people's feelings and my 'concern' is a nagging after all. I wanted to talk to you but it seems hard. I have no comments or things to ask... to start a simple conversation like in the past we do have. Yeah... You're right, people do change and I think I would look at that prospective of having a new life instead.

Moreoever, I think if you cant communicate with someone, then you would go find someone which could understand you, which is a wise decision. I wont be having the courage to talk to you now and I would try not to nag about from now on. I'm just a bug that creates nags into your world. Not saying this indirectly or sarcastically but I'm really sorry about the questions I asked for the past few days... for the past few months and years?? Well, hope you will enjoy what you do. Haha...

Now back to the main issue, as usual, Zhi Wei, I'm sorry too for the problems that I gave to you. I do hate myself for not doing the right things. By the Derik, thanks for consoling and help me to think the correct path when I was totally lost in my world. Thanks for leading me back and make me realised that sometimes, things arent gonna be ruled in your way. Also, thanks to V.J. for treating me to watch the movie '300' at Vivo City. This is my first time going to Vivo and I enjoy it. Thanks...

Now, I promised Cindy that tomorrow would be a new day for me. Haha... I dont know would it be able to work or not but I'm sure I would try to change... I'll try... Even if it takes to be a bad person. You see, I'm tired of nagging around and I think, I should leave things on its own. Once someone is tired, no point continuing his or her task right??!! Well, I wont give up on Music, my resposibilities and my studies... However, if it is to make sure that I could work things out, its either I win it, or I destroy it. Yeah!! Destroy!! That's a nicer word then kill right??!! Haha... No more smiles for me now. Its time to get serious.. Well, its my decision.. Haha... It takes time to change but too bad, it starts from now...