School was not bad after all. Once I stepped into the class, Bing was smiling with glee as he looked at me. He asked me to sit next to him, which I did. I wasnt sure what happened but he told me that I scored 29/30 for my Business Finance. I didnt believe what he's talking at first since I thought my Business Finance test paper was a screw-up. I didnt do the formulaes the right way and I know that I have a complete out of range answer.

I took my paper, look at it. The paper did clearly stated "29/30" on it. I was shocked. Never mind, I still feel nothing until Bing told me that Andy got 28. By then, I feel very bad for scoring that high. I dont know why, maybe that's because Andy and I are good pals who I have knew since Primary 5, and he's always the one who tops the class. However this time round, I was able to get 1 mark above him. As what Bing had said, I should show Andy who's better but I still keep it to myself. I dont want to make things worst.

How to put it in this way? I just dont want him to feel that I'm getting boastful or I'm competing with him. I know I dont have the qualities of being as good as him but I dont want our friendship to be affected. As the phrase goes, "Every man for himself." I just feel very bad for scoring 29 marks. I guess I should deserve lower. Anyway, Andy, I do really treat you as a competitor in studies, as well as a role model. Its just that I dont want to have any misunderstandings with you. I do admit to the rest in the class that you are the one I hate the most but seriously, I do it because you are the one that makes me continue to persevere. Thanks Andy...

Well, once school was over, I had V.E. practise. It was an extra session with the committee but I didnt sing that well. My voice was not good at all. I wasnt a good singer to blend with Benjamin after all. I know it from the start. I guess I need to do more tunings with my voice. At that point, I feel like giving up singing but I could not do so. The committee still needs me as a part of them to sing, to help the Tenors to shine. As a Tenor 1 member, I just have to try my best to sing. Blend with the rest, maybe... Singing isnt the main problem in this issue but its whether do I accept the facts or not.

While on the way back home, I saw Ah Kai, a buddy from my previous workplace called Senopress. It was a coincidence but we had a nice short chat before I went to buy my Green Tea. I missed Senopress and the friends I met over there. Seeing Ah Kai still with his cheerful smile, it really makes me think that I should smile for the rest of the day. I dont know why but my smile wouldnt fade after meeting him. Maybe he's the one who taught me indirectly the art of smiling. It doesnt mean feeling sad or angry is the end of the day. It is just a way of what you are thinking. Haha...

As for the someone if you ever do read my blog, I just wish to tell you some stuff. You chose to forget me and I respect your decision and I will try to forget you. I dont need any appreciation but I just want you to know that there is still someone over here, who is willing to be there for you if you are feeling lonely, sad, angry or empty... Just give me a call, or a SMS will do. Please dont fall sick again. Anyway, I will message you if its necessary, maybe not, it depends... Though its hard to forget you, I will try no matter what. Although I still have feelings for you, it doesnt matter at all. I wont assure that my feelings, my love or my admiration for you would last an eternity or forever. Yet, all I want to see is you being happy, nothing else...

You can choose to treat it as a story, myth or plain nothing but to me, its right from the bottom of my heart. There is still many things I want to type but I cant describe it. Well, I guess its time to end here....