Cai Yun was asking Kah Hong and me about this question, which I guess many had thought of before.

"If you have a choice, who would you like to be? A man or a woman?"

For Kah Hong, he rather be himself, which is a man. He likes what he is now. =]

While for Cai Yun, she wants to be a man if possible as she thinks that a man will be better, compare to a woman. =]

For me, I gave them a different answer. I said that I dont want to be a human. Not a man or a woman. Kah Hong thought that I would rather be gay at the first place but actually, my idea was not that even if I was. =P

The reason for me to think of not being a human is because, I realised that this week, I faced alot of things that makes me feel that life is fragile, life is short. Compare to animals, humans suffered the most. Why is this so? Let me explain from what I thought of.

Compared to animals, we are really the ones who suffered alot. Although we are humans, with better brains, better ability to do things compared to animals. We work, they dont. We need money, they dont. The only common things that we have is eat, sleep, breathe, drink, shit. Thats all.

While for humans, the worst part of life is we have feelings. Feelings that make us go weak at times in life. We not only cried or grief for our love ones. We also do that to animals too, or probably to the stuff around us. For instance, Cai Yun griefs when her pet hamster passed away. I will get angry when I lose my stuff. Kah Hong will be happy when he has a good day with his family. Many many more... However, compare to animals, they only grief their love ones and not to a plant, a human being or even, god. They are considered the best, especially when their minds are simple.

An animal, I'm refering to the wildlife, only thinks of their survival. They will lose their love ones and some, even do not have any love ones, due to their natural habitat and system of living. They only cry probably to those animals that they know and not like crying for a dead human being. Whereas for humans, we cry for all sorts of things. Yes! Being a man is hard, being a woman is also hard. That is why I rather be a non-human, probably a plant will be the best. Worst come to worst, a human came over to me and cut my branches and weeds out and I just die slowly and instantly. The pain will be short but no one cries for me and I will not cry for anyone who leaves...

Life is fragile. I agree with that saying. I faced the news of a friend losing his relative on Tuesday, I then saw a neighbour's coffin lying at the void deck of my block on Wednesday. Finally, I saw the soon-to-be a birth of a new life, yet still creating, that will soon to begin on Friday. What is the real meaning of life? Some say I often thought too much and I agree but sometimes, it really makes me feel sad when losing my close ones. Friends, family members, relatives... and most of all, the person I really love.

Cherish life for now! Yet, I guess if things dont move the right way and when its time to end, I will just let go of it I guess. Life... What is life... Love... What is love... I dont want to know more...

Now that's my answer to her question... =]