To all readers who have often been wondering what's wrong with my blog, its back to life again. Although I have not been posting anything since many weeks ago, I will resume my blogging of entries soon, after my trip to Bintan from tomorrow till Thursday.

Yes! Hoping to catch a breather before I started part-time and enlisting for National Service. This Bintan trip is actually an educational trip, which I just hope to relax and have fun for the 4 days 3 nights. I'm still trying to figure out what's missing in my luggage but that will be done later morning.

Well, as you can see, the blog has a changed of skin (FINALLY!) and still, its being amended and will take another week long before everything is finalised. Hence, hope that everything can be completed smoothly and its tidy for viewing. Please be patient. =]

Lastly, I was feeling quite down today with all the stupid incidents occuring in my life these days. I had frequent quarrels with someone and yet, today was the worst day of my life. I felt that things was way out of control and what the someone did was way too much. A simple request from me was so difficult for that person to do it. Yes, maybe its some circumstances that the meet up was impossible but seriously, I would just like to see you before my leave from Singapore, was that too much of a demand?

I wondered if the problem was on me but it seemed that I cant believe in such a theoritical answer that I was at fault all the time. This time round, it was you who make the whole issue to be a mess and seriously, it was too much of you when I have to follow your beliefs and instructions all the time.

I had enough and if you dont understand what tone was I stating during the conversation, well, I'm deeply disappointed, hurt and indeed, mixed feelings of anger and loss was my reactions. I was having unstable emotions and was on the verge of shedding a tear. Think again, am I just worthwhile to talk to you and be what I really wish to be, carefree?

You just dont seem to understand me, neither do you give a chance to let others understand you. People around me ask this simple question, why am I still responding to your actions and not get alive? Well, the simple reason of that was that three simple words. Yet, you wont be able to say it to me. An embarassment? Shyness of yours?

To me, I only believe in one thing, I was treated like a fool by you all this while. I was just a person for your sake of fun, to inflict hurt. That's what I believe. You decide what's right and wrong but that is the real impression that you portrayed in my life.

The next few days when I'm away, its good for a chill time for both but I hope, its time for both of us to think wisely and face the concequences when its time to discuss the issue again. When I had enough, its enough.