I'm feeling pretty emotional right now. Yeah... I thought of her again and everything about the past. I just cant forget her even though everyone say that I should give up and start anew. It sounds easy but its extremely hard for me, especially when my love for her is so deep.

While seating on the plain flat seat at the MRT station, memory lane brought me back to the times when I would lie on her shoulder, falling asleep. Although most of the times I went to lalaland, sometimes, I just did that cause its comfortable. The scent from her hair makes her pressence to be felt, making you falling into her trap of love. As I slowly grabbed her hand, her smooth skin makes you want to hold her hand every minute of your life.

Until today, she must be mad about me, for saying all the nasty things that I mentioned within a night and all hell break loose. I am neither romantic or caring. All I know is to nag, nag and nag that my girlfriend hate me to the core. When I say about the wild imaginations that had casted into me, it pissed her off. Now, I'm missing her every single minute, day after day. Life was miserable for the soon-to-be 6 weeks but I still try to move on.

She might read this post but she will not be unmove I guess. Every time when I contact her, I would not know what her feeling was. It makes me crazy whenever I think of her. I feel like slapping myself, probably getting hanged for all the sins that I've done to her but that would change her mind and attitude towards me.

I missed you for the past weeks, have you? I really love you, loving you till I'm feeling like the future lies no other route for me at the moment. You may be the only source to light up my path. Yet, you will be the one who will definitely lead me to the next chapter of my life journey.

I love you, and other than sorry, I just cant say other things. You never want to listen to what I said and I will always be there to say sorry, admiting all my mistakes. That's because I dont wish to loose you. Why should we quarrel over small matters and not talking peacefully. I was at the wrong this time. I know that...

Could you spare a thought for what we had been through for the past, where we learn to forgive each other's mistakes and continue to improve our relationship? I guess now is the beginning and understanding each other would take more than years. You are just like another part of my life, a soul partner, a life supporter... You make me understand what is love, to be love and what a couple should do.

Just like a father in many stories, the father is missing the mother when she left. It was like being a widow for many years. All the father wish to say was, 'Dear, I love you, could you please come back...' and he cried...