Tuesday, September 08, 2009 @ 12:30 AM
Old Man's Heart Attack (Updated on 6th August)
Sometimes, life could be crucial till your close ones could be taken away. I don’t know why this would happen but call it fate or just pure bad luck; I just know that this day would come, sooner or later. Yes, I’m feeling troubled lately but I told myself that I should not act like a kid, who needs to be sympathized by others. I know that it is time to do something not just for myself all the time but this time round, for the family.
It all started with a wonderful birthday celebration of Mum’s birthday, which falls on 22nd July. Well, Mum, still, happy birthday. =] What’s special about that day was the ellipse that falls once in a few thousand or hundred years. Cool isn’t it? The fun, joy and laughter… It was memorable until the next day, when I was still in my sleep when my Sister told me about the old man’s heading to the hospital. I could hear her words but when I heard that, my heart pounded very hard. I could not sleep for the next 2 hours and I woke up.
Heading to the hospital was a dread. I expected that this day will sooner or later occur but could not believe that it could be the day after Mum’s birthday. How Mum felt? I wondered. I reached the hospital, mentioned to the old man with a few words and left for work. From my facial appearance, I’m feeling stress-free yet in my heart, it was with mixed feelings. I hate that damn old man for what he had done to the family. I hate him sitting in the couch, watching the stupid television and do nothing to be a good father for his family, for his children. Burden was what he brings but I still cared, which I guess, it was like a responsibility for me to take care of others.
I made many enquiries from closed friends and those whom had their family members whom I know that had suffered from this issue. I thank many for their generous information, regardless if it is just only about the hospital name or how much the operation cost. I thank you for the help. Especially James, I really appreciate his blessings and prayers to the old man, same goes to Tse Yong. I didn’t know that the company I work for could be so supportive and caring towards the old man and his family.
The operation was conducted within 2 weeks and from what I’ve known, he had 3 arteries being clotted. With the bypass surgery, he was out of danger. The first time when I visited him in the ICA department, I don’t feel like crying. Not even a sob or a tear. However, I was feeling afraid. Afraid of what would happen to the old man’s daughter, who was caught in the middle of all problems during the parent’s quarrel. To soften up the pain, I assured her that I will bear the full responsibility of everything that happens in the family.
Now, he’s recovering and I hope the old man learns his lesson. From this, I learn that growing up does not mean by taking a small step, day by day. It is more of being forced. You are forced to grow up due to certain circumstances and that’s the life challenges that one has to go through as we age.
Once again, thanks for concerns by many but seriously, it’s alright if you are not sure of the matter as I kept everything low profile for the past month and a half. I don’t want people to treat me as if I need to take care of the old man and I could not join them in any activities. I wanted to be treated as normal and not something special due to certain incidents that happened. For those whom had ranted about my enquires and asking for weird questions, I hope you would forgive me for that. However, thanks for the one answer that you’ve given to me. Although it’s not useful to me, I thank you for the communication, for telling me which hospital that your Dad did the treatment.
Thanks and blessed to those whom had help. I achieved nothing but I just want to do something, not for myself but for the family. Love? I think I have no idea what an ideal love is until, I can really love my family.