Depressed... Thats the feeling I'm having currently as time is running short. We are heading to year 2010 and yet, I've this weird feeling all along, the entire day.

Depressed... because of my injuried ankle, which seemed to be recovering soon, had got a setback. A lay-up during a basketball game at my camp resulted to a wrong landing of my food, causing the ligament of my left ankle to crack twice and that's it. Light duty again. It really sucks.

Depressed... for not having enough rest these few days during camp but that's because I'm a light sleeper and those nights were difficult to cope, especially when you can hear the insects roaming around the coy.

Depressed... soon, it will be 1st January 2010 and that was the anniversary that we had between Auntie Emily and me. That was the past but in my heart and soul, I cant put down the past. Its easily said but its hard to convince myself to do so.

Overall from all these depress, I guess forgetting her is an impossible task. What is she thinking now? I questioned myself... especially when the fireworks are released to the air and would memories of us at the roof of Cheron House during last year, did that come to her mind?

I dont know the answer but thats wild guesses of mine. Right now, I only will know that her angel is with her, all the time, which I guess, will never be replaced. Another way to put it, I'm easily to be replaced.

Sad... Life goes on... I will listen to Eng How's words... "Move on... What's the f***ing point of thinking of her when... she dont even give a damn about you."

Yeah... Better ones can be found but if I cant put her down, I cant let other gals suffer what I'm going through. Worst come to worst, I might be having phobia towards relationships? Wa Kao...

Happy New Year folks... Night